Tape 9, 2000 April
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| - | Thank you. | 0:03 |
| When I first met Charlie | 0:07 | |
| Sherrod and Lonnie and Tim, | 0:13 | |
| who would come. | 0:18 | |
| The crowd was in Europe I think that was. | 0:19 | |
| I had never been out of Ohio. | 0:23 | |
| I mean my only place I'd ever been from Ohio, | 0:27 | |
| outside of Ohio was Orangeburg, South Carolina, | 0:29 | |
| and I came here as a freshman. | 0:35 | |
| By the time I had gone home for Christmas, | 0:41 | |
| I had been arrested like five times. | 0:45 | |
| My jaw had been broken and my arm had been busted | 0:49 | |
| because it was the first time in this new world | 0:53 | |
| of South Carolina having come from Madison, Ohio. | 0:57 | |
| It was a strange world | 1:02 | |
| and so when I went to Sumter for Christmas, | 1:05 | |
| for, I'm sorry, for Thanksgiving, | 1:09 | |
| and the only reason I went to Sumter is because | 1:12 | |
| they closed the campus down | 1:14 | |
| and you had to go somewhere. | 1:15 | |
| You gotta get up outta here sort of thing. | 1:18 | |
| So I'd went to Sumter and it was the first time I'd been | 1:21 | |
| off campus since I'd been placed in South Carolina State | 1:24 | |
| and we went to a party | 1:30 | |
| and my friends drank | 1:33 | |
| and this time I didn't so I was the designated driver | 1:36 | |
| after going to this party. | 1:39 | |
| As we were driving home the police stopped me. | 1:42 | |
| I'd never been confronted by a police officer in my life | 1:46 | |
| at that time, 16 years old, Sumter, South Carolina, | 1:50 | |
| and we started talking and the officer said, | 1:54 | |
| finally said where you from boy? | 1:58 | |
| I said Ohio, why? | 2:01 | |
| He said they didn't teach you how, | 2:03 | |
| (laughing) | 2:07 | |
| not only did I say why, | ||
| I said I'm form Ohio. | 2:10 | |
| You got the license. | 2:11 | |
| Can't you read? | 2:12 | |
| (audience laughs) | 2:14 | |
| It was the beginning. | 2:21 | |
| (audience laughs) | 2:23 | |
| That's when he said what? | 2:27 | |
| They didn't even teach you how to say yes sir | 2:30 | |
| and no sir to white men up there? | 2:32 | |
| I said you gotta be jiving. | 2:34 | |
| (audience laughs) | 2:36 | |
| It was an auspicious meeting. | 2:39 | |
| That man hit me so hard, | 2:43 | |
| but in from the still mills in Ohio | 2:47 | |
| I had a few tricks of my own. | 2:50 | |
| I was hitting and kicking as I went down | 2:51 | |
| and before his fist slapped my face, | 2:54 | |
| I had struck him back, | 2:57 | |
| and his partner grabbed me | 2:59 | |
| and we just got it on | 3:02 | |
| down there on the side of the road | 3:05 | |
| in Sumter, South Carolina. | 3:07 | |
| They got the better of it. | 3:10 | |
| Broke my jaw, busted my arm and as they were beating me, | 3:12 | |
| I was saying to the guys in the car, I'm gonna get you, | 3:17 | |
| (audience laughs) | 3:21 | |
| because where I came from | ||
| you didn't let your partners be whipped | 3:24 | |
| and not help. | 3:26 | |
| That of course was long before I'd ever heard | 3:28 | |
| of nonviolence and I only knew of direct action. | 3:30 | |
| (audience laughs) | 3:35 | |
| So by, you know I got my jaw busted, went to jail | 3:38 | |
| and when I got out of jail and went to get on | 3:43 | |
| the train coming from Sumter back to Orangeburg, | 3:46 | |
| the conductor say all right get on back to the baggage car. | 3:51 | |
| I said I what? | 3:56 | |
| Not for $7.82 do I ride with a bunch | 3:59 | |
| of old cheap suitcases and mangy dogs. | 4:03 | |
| There are seats here I'm sitting in them. | 4:08 | |
| I look back now at times on say was I naive | 4:12 | |
| or just a fool and I think it was a combination. | 4:15 | |
| It was a combination but out of that combination of things | 4:20 | |
| I had that reputation of that nigger is crazy | 4:28 | |
| and so most of the students sort of passed me by, | 4:33 | |
| in Orangeburg, say hello | 4:36 | |
| and make wide circles around me. | 4:39 | |
| (audience laughs) | 4:42 | |
| So I finally got home and my father decided this little | 4:45 | |
| venture of meeting your brothers and sisters in the | 4:48 | |
| confines of a black college just wasn't going to be for you. | 4:52 | |
| I can't afford to have you there the way you put it | 4:56 | |
| and besides you going to be killed. | 5:00 | |
| So my year of penance was to end early with | 5:04 | |
| the understanding I'm taking you back to that campus | 5:08 | |
| you stay here there until I get there and come back | 5:11 | |
| and pick you up. | 5:15 | |
| I said fine. | 5:16 | |
| Well on February 1st 1960, | 5:19 | |
| there were sit-ins in Greensboro. | 5:24 | |
| Greensboro, Orangeburg is 80 miles from here | 5:26 | |
| and a group of students came to me | 5:31 | |
| and we're talking about did you hear | 5:33 | |
| what they did up in Greensboro. | 5:36 | |
| I say yes of course I did. | 5:37 | |
| They said what we want to do that here. | 5:40 | |
| I said go ahead and do it. | 5:42 | |
| (audience laughs) | 5:44 | |
| What's that got to do with me? | 5:45 | |
| They said we want you to be the spokesperson. | 5:47 | |
| I said y'all crazy. | 5:52 | |
| You all are out of your mind if you're going | 5:55 | |
| to put up with what those crackers | 5:58 | |
| going to do to you, you do that. | 5:59 | |
| It's not my place to interfere. | 6:02 | |
| I've got 24 days in this place and I'm gone | 6:05 | |
| and I will never see anything south of Cincinnati, | 6:08 | |
| (audience laughs) | 6:12 | |
| again in life. | ||
| Well I was reading the Talmud | 6:18 | |
| and you all know all about that part of my life. | 6:21 | |
| There's a section of the Talmud that | 6:24 | |
| says if I'm not for myself who will be for me. | 6:27 | |
| If I'm for myself only what am I? | 6:30 | |
| If not now when? | 6:34 | |
| And I thought about that | 6:37 | |
| and I spent the night thinking about it, | 6:38 | |
| the night thinking about my life. | 6:41 | |
| I was born the night Joe Louis knocked | 6:45 | |
| out Max Schmeling where in | 6:48 | |
| Madison, Ohio there was jubilation. | 6:51 | |
| I used to thank my father when he got older | 6:55 | |
| for several things, not naming me Joe Louis. | 6:58 | |
| (audience laughs) | 7:01 | |
| And for every one of my birthdays they | 7:05 | |
| tried out this old 8mm film of the fight. | 7:07 | |
| Within one minute and 28 seconds of the first | 7:15 | |
| round Joe Louis the Brown Bomber knocked out | 7:17 | |
| Max Schmeling the Great White Hope of the western world | 7:21 | |
| and what my father was say is look at the crowd, | 7:26 | |
| look at the crowd and it was full of men with Swastikas on. | 7:31 | |
| He said these are people you're gonna have to deal with. | 7:39 | |
| He used to call him pecker woods all the time. | 7:43 | |
| He said these pecker woods are going to make | 7:46 | |
| your life hell and I think and I'm four years old. | 7:49 | |
| (audience laughs) | 7:54 | |
| When we going to cut the cake? | 7:56 | |
| When we going to get the Kool-Aid? | 7:58 | |
| (audience laughs) | 8:00 | |
| And he's talking about you have to | 8:02 | |
| do something for the race. | 8:05 | |
| You are a race baby and that's the first time | 8:09 | |
| I've ever heard anything, | 8:11 | |
| a boy or girl, | 8:14 | |
| this man talking about you a race baby | 8:15 | |
| and I'm talking about when we going to get the Kool-Aid. | 8:18 | |
| (audience laughs) | 8:22 | |
| But that started very early for me which | 8:23 | |
| taught me something later with my own child | 8:26 | |
| of those early lessons come back and guide you. | 8:29 | |
| That night when I was thinking about these students | 8:35 | |
| from Claflin for most of them college who'd | 8:39 | |
| asked me to leave them, | 8:43 | |
| be the spokesman in these sit-ins, | 8:45 | |
| all of those things came back. | 8:47 | |
| The pictures of the fight, | 8:52 | |
| Yankee Stadium Field with Nazis screaming, | 8:55 | |
| discussions of my father about | 8:58 | |
| you know they killed three black people | 9:01 | |
| killed in Detroit after that fight. | 9:03 | |
| Four black people were killed in Cincinnati after that fight | 9:06 | |
| and Lord knows how many they killed down site South | 9:10 | |
| after that fight and don't you ever forget it. | 9:13 | |
| So that night after I thought about where I had | 9:19 | |
| come from and what I was supposed to do, | 9:24 | |
| I knew the next morning that I was supposed | 9:28 | |
| to be involved in this movement. | 9:33 | |
| So I went back to these people and apologized | 9:36 | |
| for my being flippant and said I will do | 9:45 | |
| whatever I can to help | 9:49 | |
| and joined the Orangeburg Movement | 9:56 | |
| for Civic Improvement and was chairman of the Orangeburg | 10:01 | |
| Movement for Civic Improvement | 10:06 | |
| and we would sit in by the 6th of February. | 10:09 | |
| The first one started on the 1st and on the 6th | 10:14 | |
| and I was leading demonstrations not knowing a thing | 10:19 | |
| about what was happening except they said if these | 10:24 | |
| white folks at you don't hit him back. | 10:30 | |
| Well that makes sense to me because the last time I-- | 10:33 | |
| (audience laughs) | 10:36 | |
| We'll do that until we figure out | 10:47 | |
| something else, at least until I get enough | 10:48 | |
| of y'all to join me. | 10:51 | |
| (audience laughs) | 10:52 | |
| And we were having sit-ins | 10:54 | |
| and that first sit-in was on March 6th. | 10:57 | |
| I went to jail. | 11:01 | |
| That next week I was in jail | 11:04 | |
| and by March 12th lead a demonstration of 1500 | 11:06 | |
| students in Orangeburg which | 11:12 | |
| 1200 of them us went to jail. | 11:15 | |
| We were put into an outside enclosure | 11:20 | |
| and attacked with water hoses | 11:23 | |
| and then we got the call | 11:29 | |
| and as I think I mentioned this morning. | 11:31 | |
| The only thing I knew about Dr. King | 11:34 | |
| was what I read in newspapers and magazines | 11:37 | |
| but when they mentioned Miss Baker, | 11:43 | |
| when I mentioned to our advisors in Orangeburg | 11:45 | |
| that Miss Baker, a letter came asking us | 11:48 | |
| this meeting Miss Baker sent the letter | 11:51 | |
| and I remember Reverend Cullum telling me that | 11:55 | |
| Miss Ella Baker said that she wants you to do something. | 11:59 | |
| You can put your life in her hands | 12:04 | |
| and we talk on the phone after that | 12:08 | |
| and we were sort of ready and when I came here | 12:12 | |
| there was already a sense that we were like Charlie said, | 12:19 | |
| I know the names I knew the Charles Sherrod's, | 12:25 | |
| I knew the Diane Nash I knew the Lonnie Kings, | 12:29 | |
| I know that Charlie Joneses and what we had | 12:33 | |
| shared was I remember and we talked about them. | 12:37 | |
| The first thing is what do you remember about it | 12:42 | |
| and we talked about the Brown decision | 12:44 | |
| and just about everybody had a copy of the Jet | 12:49 | |
| with the picture of Emmett Till in it. | 12:55 | |
| We had a common sense of remembering what | 12:59 | |
| was happening to our people but that thing on it | 13:04 | |
| that picture which I have today | 13:09 | |
| of Emmett Till lying in his coffin. | 13:12 | |
| So we all started at a, sort of ground when we got here. | 13:18 | |
| I thought that compared with people like Charlie | 13:23 | |
| who it been a world traveler and Lonnie from Atlanta. | 13:26 | |
| I'd never been to Atlanta and these people from Nashville. | 13:33 | |
| I said great God of Zion I'm up here | 13:37 | |
| with all these hot city people, | 13:40 | |
| hot shots and the thing, the statement was Jim Lawson | 13:44 | |
| because Jim is from my hometown and I knew growing up that | 13:49 | |
| he had been in prison and he had | 13:54 | |
| been in prison as a pacifist. | 13:57 | |
| I knew what a pacifist was and I knew there been hours | 14:00 | |
| of discussion about going to jail for ideas, | 14:04 | |
| for beliefs because we had an example from | 14:10 | |
| our small little colored community of Madison, Ohio | 14:14 | |
| of someone who had a scholarship, courage, compassion | 14:18 | |
| and commitment and it was Jim | 14:26 | |
| who were going to school with my aunts and stuff | 14:31 | |
| and so the idea of going to jail | 14:34 | |
| for an idea was already acceptable to me | 14:40 | |
| and so when we came up here | 14:45 | |
| there were people who argued | 14:50 | |
| and discussed the whole nonviolent philosophy. | 14:52 | |
| Most of these people were from Nashville. | 14:55 | |
| Diane and Bernard and Bevel | 15:00 | |
| and the whole concept of discussion | 15:07 | |
| and a discussion of a beloved community was discussed | 15:10 | |
| and I felt that we were already in it because these people | 15:16 | |
| I saw already as kindred spirits | 15:22 | |
| and brothers as a sort of in a common sort of | 15:27 | |
| and sisters in a common sort of struggle. | 15:31 | |
| So we cleaved very quickly. | 15:35 | |
| We all came together very, very quickly and we talked. | 15:39 | |
| I met Tim and there was a feeling | 15:44 | |
| that we came from the same backgrounds | 15:47 | |
| wherever we came from for the most part. | 15:53 | |
| We were the sons and daughters of working | 15:56 | |
| class people, working people. | 15:58 | |
| I remember and if you had any sense of shame | 16:02 | |
| from where you came I remember when Tim claimed | 16:07 | |
| told me he was raised in his first crib | 16:10 | |
| was the bottom drawer of the bureau | 16:12 | |
| in his parents' bedroom and then said | 16:17 | |
| and I moved up to the third drawer. | 16:20 | |
| I said well, | 16:22 | |
| (audience laughs) | ||
| now if that isn't upward mobility. | 16:25 | |
| (audience laughs) | 16:27 | |
| And we all had an appreciation, | 16:31 | |
| a thirst for knowledge and a commitment to doing | 16:34 | |
| something as Sherrod mentioned earlier we didn't know | 16:41 | |
| what it was going to be but we knew it was going to be | 16:49 | |
| something and you came to trust in each other by spending | 16:52 | |
| time talking together, learning together, planning together. | 17:00 | |
| I remember with pride when Jim got kicked out of Vanderbilt. | 17:07 | |
| He was in graduate school. | 17:13 | |
| The School of Theology there, | 17:15 | |
| and you know my thing was you see | 17:16 | |
| in the Christian School of Theology | 17:21 | |
| they done kicked him out. | 17:23 | |
| They're not serious about nothing them Christians. | 17:26 | |
| And you know I was continuing with my other rebellion. | 17:29 | |
| (laughing) | 17:36 | |
| But that was, I hadn't seen him since | 17:39 | |
| I was a kid but I had this feeling that | 17:42 | |
| we were kindred souls and then there were all these | 17:46 | |
| others and we started in the early discussions | 17:50 | |
| when we talked about the Student Coordinating Committee, | 17:52 | |
| the Coordinating Committee, non-violence was kept out of it | 17:57 | |
| and it was then in a concession where Lonnie talked about | 18:03 | |
| those purists, the nonviolent purists that kept us together, | 18:09 | |
| kept us on the road and so it became a thing | 18:18 | |
| that after a mantra that we must have this | 18:21 | |
| in the spirit of non-violence and love. | 18:24 | |
| I never told a man that I loved him in my life. | 18:29 | |
| Wasn't too many girls I said more than I liked you. | 18:32 | |
| (audience laughs) | 18:35 | |
| And here we were talking about love, a word | 18:37 | |
| and a concept I use all the time now because | 18:43 | |
| it was through the movement that I came to understand | 18:45 | |
| the deeper meanings of agape and loving my fellow man, | 18:50 | |
| my brothers and my sisters and there came a time | 18:57 | |
| that I understood how you can love somebody | 19:01 | |
| and an idea so much that you would die for it | 19:09 | |
| and that became the case with all of you all. | 19:13 | |
| I remember when we first went me, Tim Jenkins, | 19:17 | |
| Josh Rod, Charlie Jones, when we decided that we were | 19:25 | |
| going to drop out of school and spend full time helping | 19:30 | |
| to build the movement at whatever cost that was going to | 19:35 | |
| take and we found out about that cause very quickly when | 19:38 | |
| Charlie Jones hit a little back dog owned | 19:43 | |
| by big white lady driving through Alabama. | 19:47 | |
| It became the first ideologicals with the ministerial | 19:52 | |
| students Jones and Sherrod was saying, | 19:59 | |
| the lady came, the mean white lady came out and said | 20:03 | |
| oh my God my baby is gone and he got polio | 20:05 | |
| and if y'all could just give me a few dollars | 20:10 | |
| to make him happy so I can buy a new dog. | 20:13 | |
| Jenkins, dog ran in the street. | 20:20 | |
| (audience laughs) | 20:23 | |
| We don't have extra money to pay for this woman's dog. | 20:25 | |
| Let's get out of here. | 20:29 | |
| We're standing out there debating and in the spirit | 20:34 | |
| of non-violence we should pay for this dog. | 20:39 | |
| Should have had a dog on a leash. | 20:45 | |
| (audience laughs) | 20:47 | |
| The big white lady got tired of our discussion. | 20:50 | |
| (audience laughs) | 20:53 | |
| And told us if you don't pay for this dog you | 20:56 | |
| will never make it out of Alabama alive. | 20:59 | |
| (audience laughs) | 21:03 | |
| White folks have a way | 21:07 | |
| (audience laughs) | 21:08 | |
| of defining issues. | 21:11 | |
| So we moved to a different level. | 21:14 | |
| It became no longer matter of compassion. | 21:18 | |
| It became Sherrod, no let's go we ain't going dog. | 21:24 | |
| Let's go. | 21:30 | |
| Like how dare she threaten us. | 21:33 | |
| The Christian brothers had stopped talking about | 21:36 | |
| paying for the woman's dog which | 21:38 | |
| Nathan and I said all along we shouldn't do and we prepared, | 21:41 | |
| but we wouldn't have left there alive. | 21:45 | |
| The woman was right. | 21:47 | |
| There was a white man, | 21:48 | |
| a man who looked like an old Colonel Sanders. | 21:49 | |
| He had a white linen suit. | 21:52 | |
| I remember that. | 21:53 | |
| Had a white linen suit on and he came out as this crowd | 21:54 | |
| was gathering around us in Pell City, Alabama | 21:58 | |
| and he told us, he was sort of like | 22:02 | |
| the local head white man in town. | 22:04 | |
| (audience laughs) | 22:09 | |
| And he told these boys didn't do nothing wrong. | 22:11 | |
| I saw the whole thing. | 22:15 | |
| The dog ran out now in the street | 22:18 | |
| and they couldn't help hit him. | 22:19 | |
| So y'all just let him alone and told us y'all | 22:21 | |
| better get out of town quick and I remember | 22:24 | |
| we started driving towards, turned to the highway | 22:30 | |
| driving towards Mississippi outrunning | 22:37 | |
| because people were getting the cars coming behind us. | 22:41 | |
| I never forget this but when we got to Mississippi | 22:44 | |
| the border of Mississippi we stopped, | 22:47 | |
| scared, running from a mob from Alabama | 22:50 | |
| but still scared go to go into Mississippi. | 22:54 | |
| (audience laughs) | 22:56 | |
| I swear. | 23:01 | |
| I know each one of us was in that car remember | 23:02 | |
| that day because Sherrod too was trying | 23:09 | |
| to use the bathroom along the way. | 23:12 | |
| Man said one drop, blow your brains out. | 23:16 | |
| It was a terrible time. | 23:20 | |
| Speaking of time. | 23:23 | |
| (audience laughs) | 23:25 | |
| Thank you Martha. | 23:26 | |
| They'll be time to continue this later. | 23:28 | |
| We're trying to keep a rather close schedule | 23:31 | |
| and so and I realize that I had drifted off | 23:34 | |
| of it but it was here 40 years ago that | 23:40 | |
| I learned the deeper meanings of comradeship and love | 23:45 | |
| and trust and a willingness to do anything to help bring | 23:53 | |
| about a change and I knew at different points | 24:00 | |
| along this journey that we wouldn't all get there together. | 24:07 | |
| So I'm happy proud to be able to celebrate with you | 24:13 | |
| and those of us who made it on thus far, thanks. | 24:18 | |
| (applause) | 24:22 | |
| - | I really want to apologize for the time. | 24:34 |
| I just want to make sure that we all get | 24:36 | |
| some lunch a little bit later. | 24:38 | |
| I think they were hearing in these talks a different | 24:41 | |
| sense than the traditional of what leadership can be of | 24:47 | |
| something that can be created by people | 24:53 | |
| themselves when they decide to act | 24:58 | |
| or they can be quiet unassuming kind of thing | 25:00 | |
| that really makes pivotal and important decisions | 25:05 | |
| that can change the course of history | 25:11 | |
| and right now we'll hear from Joyce Ladner. | 25:14 | |
| I'll say this when we're doing the program as | 25:18 | |
| you know we're doing all of this last minute and everything. | 25:20 | |
| So we were trying to put in people before their | 25:23 | |
| SNCC accomplishments and their present-day accomplishments | 25:28 | |
| and one of the reasons that we just totally gave | 25:33 | |
| up on the whole project. | 25:36 | |
| We just say we're going to put people's names | 25:37 | |
| in is that when we came to Joyce's name there | 25:39 | |
| were so many accomplishments on both sides we said | 25:41 | |
| it'll take up half a page. | 25:44 | |
| So I won't say anything else and let her to come | 25:46 | |
| and talk to you about the spirit of Miss Baker | 25:50 | |
| and organizing in Mississippi. | 25:54 | |
| (applause) | 25:57 | |
| - | I was about to say good morning but it's good afternoon. | 26:05 |
| The war stories remind me, that I've heard from the three | 26:09 | |
| previous speakers, reminds me of a time back in the sixties | 26:17 | |
| when we used to hear people who came out in the 30s | 26:21 | |
| movement and we used to say God I'm so sick | 26:26 | |
| of the thirties and I could imagine that some of you may | 26:30 | |
| well feel like my son and my niece. | 26:38 | |
| My sister Dories daughter, when we | 26:42 | |
| tell them watch this program. | 26:46 | |
| Recently I told my son watch freedom songs. | 26:49 | |
| It's coming on (mumbling). | 26:52 | |
| He said what is it about, SNCC? | 26:54 | |
| (laughing) | 26:56 | |
| I say yes. | 26:59 | |
| He said I already know all about SNCC. | 27:00 | |
| Mom you taught, | 27:04 | |
| I said you don't, you got to see the real SNCC. | 27:06 | |
| He said well what is this you been | 27:08 | |
| telling me all my life then? | 27:10 | |
| That wasn't a real SNCC? | 27:12 | |
| But I think that first I want to thank the organizers | 27:13 | |
| for bringing us together so that we can tell | 27:17 | |
| the war stories because they're deeper meanings hidden | 27:20 | |
| within all of them and the second is that | 27:24 | |
| in remembering Miss Baker I think she would want us | 27:28 | |
| to remember the legacy of doing | 27:32 | |
| because she was indeed a doer. | 27:37 | |
| She was quite an elegant speaker but you can probably | 27:39 | |
| count the number of times that she was the keynote speaker | 27:43 | |
| on or she tended to one to shy away from that role. | 27:49 | |
| I'm going to make two points one is that to describe | 27:54 | |
| what Mississippi was like when Miss Baker's philosophy | 27:58 | |
| began to resonate in the state | 28:03 | |
| and why did it resonate | 28:07 | |
| and then to say a few things about | 28:13 | |
| the lessons she taught us. | 28:16 | |
| All of us necessarily have to be autobiographical | 28:19 | |
| in making our comments and so I was was a high school | 28:21 | |
| senior at 16 years old in 1961 on Easter weekend | 28:26 | |
| when SNCC was founded. | 28:30 | |
| Probably don't remember having read about it | 28:33 | |
| in the Hattiesburg Mississippi American Newspaper | 28:37 | |
| because it censored everything. | 28:40 | |
| I do remember it did carry some information | 28:42 | |
| about the sit-ins that were occurring. | 28:44 | |
| Nevertheless we were, all of us, | 28:49 | |
| not all of us but I was particularly blessed | 28:53 | |
| because have a sister Dorie who was coming later today | 28:56 | |
| who was only 15 months older than I and I could not | 29:01 | |
| remember a time in our lives when race was not the | 29:04 | |
| central most important thing that we focused on. | 29:07 | |
| I have always been and I've always carried both of burden | 29:12 | |
| and the blessing of the strong racial consciousness | 29:18 | |
| and perhaps it came from my mother who taught us that | 29:24 | |
| you look white people dead in the eye and don't blink. | 29:32 | |
| I remember when Dorie and all the salesman | 29:38 | |
| and the insurance collector came around our house deferred | 29:44 | |
| to her and she always calls it a certain way you carry | 29:50 | |
| yourself in order to keep your dignity so | 29:54 | |
| that white people don't walk over you. | 29:57 | |
| So when Dorie and I were at the grocery store, | 30:00 | |
| Hudson's grocery a block from our house | 30:04 | |
| and we're looking at magazines, | 30:07 | |
| the magazine rack and Dorie had bought some donuts | 30:10 | |
| and she, I remember clearly because she probably | 30:16 | |
| just gotten her first bra but we were entering puberty | 30:19 | |
| and I was the younger and certainly | 30:23 | |
| had not yet but mine 28 AAA bra. | 30:25 | |
| (audience laughs) | 30:29 | |
| That was the size I remember clearly the first one. | 30:30 | |
| There's this man. | 30:36 | |
| A cashier, white cashier in the store | 30:37 | |
| who all four of his fingers on the right | 30:39 | |
| hand haven't cut off for some reason | 30:42 | |
| and he walked up behind her and try to touch bra | 30:45 | |
| and she turned and took the bag of donuts | 30:49 | |
| and began beating him on the head | 30:51 | |
| and we ran all the way home and we can told Mother. | 30:53 | |
| Mother guess what happened? | 30:56 | |
| And we told her and she said you should have killed them. | 30:58 | |
| (audience laughs) | 31:01 | |
| So that we were taught to stand up | 31:05 | |
| for our beliefs and another thing she taught us | 31:06 | |
| she becomes the plural because we learned | 31:10 | |
| this within this all black community called | 31:14 | |
| Palmers Crossing outside, 4 miles from Downtown Hattiesburg. | 31:17 | |
| We were taught to stand up for my beliefs | 31:21 | |
| and if you couldn't stand up for them | 31:24 | |
| that Mother used to say that they're not worth very much | 31:26 | |
| if you can't stand up for what you believe in. | 31:30 | |
| Beliefs can't be worth much to start with | 31:31 | |
| but they taught us how to survive with dignity | 31:34 | |
| and I was walking a tightrope. | 31:38 | |
| They told us that we could indeed stand tall | 31:40 | |
| and have the courage of these convictions | 31:44 | |
| and carry ourselves in such a way that if a white | 31:46 | |
| man makes a pass at you and they did | 31:49 | |
| and they were quite plentiful, | 31:52 | |
| you stand proudly and don't even respond | 31:54 | |
| and just walk away like a lady and it worked. | 31:58 | |
| We knew we couldn't turn around and beat too | 32:02 | |
| many people over the head with donuts for fear | 32:06 | |
| that we could have been killed but we, | 32:10 | |
| I remember some things that had an impact on | 32:18 | |
| us that became threads throughout the larger, | 32:20 | |
| that were threads throughout the larger society | 32:23 | |
| but they followed us as well from the time of childhood. | 32:26 | |
| The Brown decision I remember very very clear clearly | 32:30 | |
| and how the local newspaper covered it. | 32:33 | |
| I read the newspaper from the time I was very little. | 32:36 | |
| I used to spend a dime a day to buy this paper | 32:40 | |
| and know that it was referred to the day the decision | 32:46 | |
| was handed down what's was referred to as Black Monday | 32:51 | |
| but we didn't get, there was no rush integrate, | 32:56 | |
| no attempt at all to desegregate that Hattiesburg schools | 32:59 | |
| or the schools anywhere Mississippi. | 33:04 | |
| What we got were new public schools. | 33:05 | |
| They built the county built us a new school | 33:08 | |
| that we had always needed and that was their | 33:12 | |
| way of staving off any attempts to say that | 33:15 | |
| we were unequal or that we have unequal facilities. | 33:21 | |
| We lived in a very, very closed society | 33:24 | |
| but it was possible to get in certain information. | 33:27 | |
| I don't even remember maybe I heard national news | 33:31 | |
| on the radio but we got a new television, | 33:35 | |
| we got a televisions station WDAM in Hattiesburg | 33:39 | |
| in about 19, it was about was the late fifties | 33:43 | |
| and they were very, very racist but I do remember seeing, | 33:46 | |
| oh wait it was an NBC affiliate so David Brinkley, | 33:53 | |
| (mumbles) and David Brinkley. | 33:56 | |
| That was the one window of national news | 33:57 | |
| that we saw but was most important was that we had this | 33:59 | |
| friend an older man who came by our house all the time. | 34:05 | |
| We called him Cuz for cousin. | 34:09 | |
| He really wasn't our cousin but others referred | 34:11 | |
| to him as Dr. McLeod and he was a race man. | 34:15 | |
| He sold herbal medicine. | 34:18 | |
| Today he'd be in vogue. | 34:20 | |
| Back then my mother said I wouldn't take anything | 34:21 | |
| that Cuz gave you, it might poison you. | 34:23 | |
| (audience laughs) | 34:25 | |
| She said that those roots that he's boiling | 34:26 | |
| I don't know what's in them, but Cuz was a race man. | 34:29 | |
| He was a member of the local NAACP. | 34:33 | |
| I was 10, 11, 12 maybe a little older. | 34:35 | |
| But probably not 10 but 11, 12, 13 | 34:39 | |
| and he brought us weekly the Chicago Defender, | 34:43 | |
| the Pittsburgh Courier and we got | 34:46 | |
| the monthly Ebony and the Jet. | 34:49 | |
| It was funny I think Charles referred to it as the Jet. | 34:53 | |
| Black people in the south always called Jet magazine | 34:57 | |
| the Jet and that is where we got information. | 34:59 | |
| He also brought books. | 35:04 | |
| I read the first biographies about black people | 35:07 | |
| because I don't know where he got the books | 35:11 | |
| from but I guess he ordered them but he brought them, | 35:14 | |
| he introduced us to literature on black people | 35:18 | |
| and he used to tell us you girls are | 35:21 | |
| going to have to change things. | 35:22 | |
| It'll be your generation that's going | 35:24 | |
| to change things when you get older. | 35:27 | |
| We, several references were made to the veterans | 35:29 | |
| of World War II and I would add World War I. | 35:35 | |
| My Uncle Archie went to France | 35:38 | |
| and the French asked him if you would pull down his pants | 35:40 | |
| according to him and show them his tail | 35:44 | |
| because they had been told that | 35:48 | |
| black people were kin to monkeys and had tails. | 35:49 | |
| He told us this and I remember this as a little girl | 35:54 | |
| sitting on his back porch when he talked about | 35:56 | |
| how disappointing it was to come back home | 35:59 | |
| and see how terrible conditions were but he going to France | 36:03 | |
| had given him a perspective that was very different. | 36:08 | |
| The veterans of World War II especially were very, | 36:11 | |
| very important because they were sent abroad to fight | 36:14 | |
| for freedom with the expectation that they | 36:18 | |
| were also going to reap some benefits. | 36:22 | |
| They came home and saw the white soldiers reaping | 36:25 | |
| the benefits but they did not and many of these | 36:28 | |
| people were the founders of the then underground | 36:31 | |
| NAACP in Mississippi, throughout the state. | 36:34 | |
| I cannot emphasize enough how important | 36:38 | |
| the role of these men were. | 36:46 | |
| They were the ones who, I always felt that my generation | 36:49 | |
| was the one that they felt would be, | 36:54 | |
| ours was a generation that would change things | 36:58 | |
| that the environment was pregnant with possibilities | 37:01 | |
| of all kinds of change but it was almost as if | 37:06 | |
| they were on the precipice of it but knew it was to come. | 37:08 | |
| I refer to ours as the Emmett Till generation | 37:13 | |
| because I cannot think of a single thing that | 37:16 | |
| had a more profound impact on some of the people | 37:19 | |
| who came into SNCC who had seen the cover | 37:22 | |
| of the Jet Magazine cover of Emmett Till's | 37:25 | |
| body where he, | 37:30 | |
| they didn't do any cosmetic | 37:33 | |
| surgery or whatever to the face of him | 37:36 | |
| and in the 1980s I asked Mrs. Mobley, his mother | 37:38 | |
| why did you have him buried open casket without them, | 37:44 | |
| they pulled him out the river so he was | 37:51 | |
| not, he didn't look like her, anyone's son. | 37:54 | |
| It was just an awful picture. | 37:57 | |
| And she said I wanted the world to see what | 37:59 | |
| they did to my baby and we were his age. | 38:01 | |
| We were in terms of psychosocial theory | 38:06 | |
| or whatever we identified with him. | 38:12 | |
| I felt personally if they killed a 14 year old | 38:16 | |
| they could also kill me, they could come my brothers. | 38:21 | |
| We knew that men were lynched but we'd never | 38:24 | |
| known a child being lynched before and I believe that | 38:28 | |
| on a deeply profoundly personal level | 38:32 | |
| that had a strong galvanizing effect on all of us. | 38:36 | |
| That image is with me still. | 38:44 | |
| It became etched in our consciousness. | 38:46 | |
| We were also very, very fortunate to have mentors. | 38:49 | |
| Eileen Beard a woman was a member of our church. | 38:53 | |
| Eileen Beard was the sister of Vernon Dahmer. | 38:58 | |
| Mr. Dahmer and Clyde Kennard, | 39:02 | |
| who lived in that same community | 39:07 | |
| and Medgar Evers were the three | 39:12 | |
| mentors that I had who were killed | 39:15 | |
| and I thought about this recently. | 39:19 | |
| That is so ironic that these three men who | 39:24 | |
| had such a profound influence on my life we're all, | 39:26 | |
| died for their beliefs. | 39:30 | |
| Mr. Dahmer and Mrs. Dahmer, | 39:33 | |
| Brother Beard and Sister Beard as we called them | 39:35 | |
| in our church and Clyde Kennard used | 39:38 | |
| to take Dorie and me with them to Jackson to the state | 39:39 | |
| NAACP meetings in the 50s when we were in high school. | 39:43 | |
| I don't know mentors, I think mentors, | 39:48 | |
| you seek mentors out as much as they, | 39:51 | |
| and this is a message I like to give to the young people | 39:53 | |
| here today that is not just a matter of older | 39:57 | |
| people saying we want to mentor young people | 40:00 | |
| but young people also have to seek out the older people. | 40:03 | |
| It's possible that the reason that they took us | 40:06 | |
| likely is because they knew we had this interest and race. | 40:09 | |
| We talked about it you know and it was then that we saw | 40:12 | |
| people like Ruby Hurley who was the first black woman | 40:18 | |
| lawyer I ever saw and probably didn't know one existed. | 40:22 | |
| She was the southeastern regional director Of the NAACP. | 40:24 | |
| So she would come and speak. | 40:28 | |
| Then Gloucester Current director of branches spoke. | 40:30 | |
| So we saw these outside people coming in to this late | 40:33 | |
| and all the meetings we held at the Masonic Temple | 40:37 | |
| up the street from Jackson State College. | 40:39 | |
| We also organized, the same mentors especially | 40:43 | |
| Clyde Kennard and Mr. Dahmer helped us to organize and NAACP | 40:48 | |
| youth chapter in the very late 50s and Clyde | 40:54 | |
| was a very, how many of you know, | 40:59 | |
| have heard of Clyde Kennard? | 41:03 | |
| All older people but the younger people don't know him. | 41:05 | |
| He came back home after having been in the military, | 41:08 | |
| having been a student at the University of Chicago, | 41:11 | |
| his father died, came back to Hattiesburg | 41:13 | |
| to help his mom run the farm. | 41:16 | |
| Wanted to finish, go back to college so he applied | 41:19 | |
| to Mississippi Southern College now the University | 41:22 | |
| of Southern Mississippi twice, | 41:25 | |
| I believe it was two times maybe three. | 41:29 | |
| But any at any rate it was in the late 50s | 41:31 | |
| and they planted some, they arrested him for having $3.50 | 41:33 | |
| worth of stolen chicken feed in his car. | 41:41 | |
| Sent him to the Forrest County Jail. | 41:44 | |
| Then sent him to Parchman State Penitentiary. | 41:46 | |
| He got cancer and was literally dying | 41:49 | |
| by the time Governor Ross Barnett gave him | 41:52 | |
| a pardon for something he never, I mean it was awful. | 41:54 | |
| I have never cried yet I still feel the tears | 42:00 | |
| that one day will come over how terrible they | 42:03 | |
| treated him but he got out after the pardon, | 42:06 | |
| went to the University of Chicago. | 42:09 | |
| It was Billings Hospital and died within I believe | 42:12 | |
| it was a month or 6 weeks from cancer. | 42:15 | |
| He was a very quiet person who moved easily | 42:20 | |
| without you're noticing his presence except | 42:25 | |
| there was a profundity to the, | 42:30 | |
| I must confess also that I had | 42:39 | |
| a crush on him for some reason | 42:41 | |
| even though he was an older man. | 42:43 | |
| He was early 30s I don't know. | 42:46 | |
| But he was an older man. | 42:49 | |
| I was maybe 14, 15 and up to 16 but | 42:50 | |
| there was also a network of students | 43:02 | |
| in the high schools around. | 43:04 | |
| I knew Leslie Mclemore who stood up | 43:06 | |
| to criticize us, the organizing of this conference | 43:09 | |
| from high school because he lived in northern Mississippi | 43:16 | |
| and I lived in Southern Mississippi but what | 43:20 | |
| facilitated a lot of the people was joining | 43:22 | |
| the younger people my age joining the movement | 43:26 | |
| or getting active in the movement was that | 43:29 | |
| we were also active in certain high school organizations. | 43:31 | |
| Like I believe you were state president | 43:34 | |
| when I was state president. | 43:37 | |
| Tri HAWA, you were state president of HAWA. | 43:38 | |
| So we traveled around. | 43:40 | |
| A lot of us, I have been out of Mississippi | 43:43 | |
| once maybe twice to go up to New Orleans | 43:46 | |
| but most of us travel within that close circle. | 43:50 | |
| I often wonder how did I high school teachers | 43:54 | |
| and especially music teachers teach. | 43:58 | |
| Where do they learn opera when they taught Dorie | 43:59 | |
| who had a great voice, taught her how to sing opera | 44:03 | |
| or where did they get their books from | 44:06 | |
| because our librarian had $150 a year | 44:11 | |
| to replenish the, to buy books | 44:15 | |
| and we got the hand me down, | 44:22 | |
| used textbooks from the white schools | 44:23 | |
| after they use them 5 years, we got them | 44:25 | |
| and I bristle even today when I walk past | 44:28 | |
| the public library that was for a whites-only | 44:32 | |
| because as a child I wanted more books to read than | 44:36 | |
| there were available and they didn't give them to us. | 44:40 | |
| Anyway we went to college to Jackson State | 44:43 | |
| in the fall Of 61, the following 60 and | 44:48 | |
| this again I began to see some of those same freshman | 44:53 | |
| in my class as some older upperclassmen | 44:58 | |
| that I've seen it the Masonic Temple at the state wide | 45:02 | |
| NAACP meeting. | 45:07 | |
| One of the students an older student was James Meredith. | 45:11 | |
| We used to sit before he well he's very strange now | 45:15 | |
| but back then he was very, | 45:19 | |
| very strange. | 45:21 | |
| (audience laughs) | ||
| And because this is all on tape | 45:26 | |
| I won't say how strange he is. | 45:28 | |
| (audience laughs) | 45:31 | |
| But he wasn't strange then | 45:32 | |
| and we knew absolutely nothing about the fact | 45:34 | |
| that he applied to go to Ole Miss, nothing | 45:38 | |
| and I was as close to him as the | 45:40 | |
| other small group around him. | 45:44 | |
| He was an upperclassman, been in the military, | 45:46 | |
| was married and but we could recognize | 45:49 | |
| who each other was in a way. | 45:55 | |
| I don't know if I'm getting through to you. | 45:58 | |
| As a freshman every Wednesday afternoon was free time. | 46:03 | |
| So you could sign up always to go downtown | 46:08 | |
| and that meant to shopping. | 46:12 | |
| Dorie are we go up to see Medgar whose | 46:14 | |
| office was on the second floor of the Masonic Temple | 46:18 | |
| and I remember because of that said we have met him | 46:21 | |
| and when we were in high school and one time we went | 46:25 | |
| to talk to him and he would always tell us what | 46:30 | |
| was going on and the NAACP chapters around the state | 46:33 | |
| and one time he told us that there was going | 46:39 | |
| to be a sit-in and we said really can we join? | 46:43 | |
| We didn't know what they were going to sit in what | 46:45 | |
| or where or what and he said | 46:48 | |
| well yeah you can. | 46:53 | |
| And we said all that's great. | 46:55 | |
| Tell us when. | 46:57 | |
| And he said I'll let you know letter | 46:58 | |
| and each time we went by his office he would say something. | 47:00 | |
| It was vague and you do not to ask too many questions | 47:03 | |
| because having information could be dangerous to you | 47:08 | |
| if you were ever pressured enough to give it up | 47:12 | |
| so finally he told us you really can't, | 47:16 | |
| he said I would never be able to explain | 47:20 | |
| to your parents why you were arrested. | 47:24 | |
| That would be important to me because one time | 47:27 | |
| he has seen my mother in a grocery store | 47:29 | |
| in Palmers Crossing and she'd given him some money | 47:31 | |
| and said will you give them give this to Joyce. | 47:34 | |
| He just ran into her accidentally. | 47:37 | |
| He came on campus and found me | 47:39 | |
| and gave me this money Mother sent me but finally | 47:40 | |
| he told us that the sit-in was going to be on such a date | 47:44 | |
| and it was within a short period of time. | 47:51 | |
| My memory is not very good but maybe a week or two | 47:53 | |
| or so and he said what you can do is try to organize | 47:57 | |
| the students on Jackson State's campus | 48:01 | |
| and that was a, talk about being ingenious. | 48:04 | |
| So we began to do things like | 48:09 | |
| Dorie was present dorm counselor | 48:11 | |
| so we had a meeting one night and the dormitory, | 48:14 | |
| regularly scheduled meeting. | 48:17 | |
| She (mumbling). | 48:18 | |
| Everything in Mississippi at the | 48:21 | |
| time was opened with a prayer. | 48:23 | |
| So I to give, she said you give the prayer | 48:24 | |
| and I'm talking about oh dear Lord there are | 48:27 | |
| perilous times ahead. | 48:29 | |
| Please protect us as we go into this danger and so on. | 48:31 | |
| The next morning we were called before the dean of students, | 48:36 | |
| Dean Rogers. | 48:40 | |
| He asked what did I mean about the prayer and perilous times | 48:41 | |
| and Dorie, most of you know Dorie, | 48:45 | |
| she's, well she's a hell raiser and the guys in SNCC were | 48:50 | |
| scared of her and that's why I say the thesis | 48:54 | |
| about men dominating women in SNCC, | 48:57 | |
| well they never dominated Dorie. | 49:00 | |
| She dominated them if anything (laughs), | 49:02 | |
| but anyway that's an aside, | 49:04 | |
| but we, I said what do you mean asking me about | 49:06 | |
| what I said to my god. | 49:12 | |
| You have no right to question me about my relationship | 49:14 | |
| with Jesus and Dorie jumped in and said | 49:19 | |
| as a man of the cloth how could you | 49:22 | |
| because he was also an ordained minister. | 49:25 | |
| So we went off on him and walked out of there | 49:28 | |
| and he said well you're right, you're right | 49:33 | |
| and we walked out of there laughing you know. | 49:36 | |
| (audience laughs) | 49:38 | |
| but what we began to talk about the, | 49:43 | |
| well what we actually did was told, | 49:49 | |
| you spread rumors so they could never get back to you | 49:54 | |
| but something is gonna happen and we gotta be ready | 49:58 | |
| as students to support it when it goes down. | 50:01 | |
| At Tougaloo what happened was 8 Tougaloo students | 50:05 | |
| or 9 Tougaloo students sat in at the public library, | 50:08 | |
| the Jackson Public Library sponsored by the NAACP chapter | 50:11 | |
| on the campus and supported by Medgar and he organized it | 50:16 | |
| actually and what happened was that because they didn't go | 50:20 | |
| to Woolworth's or the Crest store because they wanted | 50:25 | |
| to attack a facility that was taxpayers, | 50:29 | |
| black people pay taxes too. | 50:34 | |
| Tax supported by blacks. | 50:37 | |
| What we did was a number of us at that point got together | 50:39 | |
| and said start spreading the rumor again that couldn't be | 50:45 | |
| traced back to the one person that there was going to be a | 50:49 | |
| prayer-meeting in front of the library at 7 that night. | 50:51 | |
| So what happened is that the guys got | 50:58 | |
| it first because they had free range. | 51:02 | |
| They didn't have curfews like girls and so on. | 51:05 | |
| So we are the women decided to go to the library so by the | 51:08 | |
| time we got out there it was seven o'clock. | 51:13 | |
| Here's Emmett Burns who was also a minister | 51:17 | |
| and a student was in the middle | 51:21 | |
| of his prayer, when out of the blue, we heard this noise. | 51:25 | |
| Stop it, stop it, shut up and everybody was looking. | 51:30 | |
| Where is this coming from | 51:34 | |
| and it was Jacob Reddicks the president of the college. | 51:36 | |
| He ran through. | 51:39 | |
| He was absolutely out of control. | 51:41 | |
| He was in a frenzy and like what is this? | 51:42 | |
| What's going on? | 51:45 | |
| Stop it and his arms was flailing | 51:46 | |
| and one of my two roommates, Margaret and Eunice, | 51:48 | |
| he took Eunice by the shoulder and pushed her | 51:52 | |
| like that on the ground and then we turned on him | 51:55 | |
| and the rest, they brought a lot of police on the campus | 51:59 | |
| that night and the next day we tried to march down | 52:07 | |
| to the courthouse when the Tougaloo students were | 52:12 | |
| being arraigned and they shot, all I remember | 52:15 | |
| is saying oh lord they're killing us. | 52:18 | |
| It was tear gas canisters being shot | 52:20 | |
| and it sounded like guns and I hid | 52:24 | |
| and we ran into different people's homes. | 52:28 | |
| I never forget there was this older black lady | 52:33 | |
| and we were just knocking on her front door. | 52:36 | |
| I heard the radio I reached I had through the the hole | 52:38 | |
| in the screen and unlatched and ran in the house | 52:44 | |
| and told her what happened. | 52:47 | |
| And she said come on and nobody's coming to my house. | 52:49 | |
| At the funeral home some of the kids were | 52:52 | |
| hidden in the embalming room. | 52:54 | |
| It was bedlam but I never forget this lady kept ironing | 52:56 | |
| and it was on the radio and she kept | 53:02 | |
| saying it's a low down dirty shame. | 53:04 | |
| These white folks are treating these children like dogs | 53:06 | |
| and she, I mean she was quiet and soft-spoken. | 53:09 | |
| And she was talking to herself you know. | 53:11 | |
| Eventually they got back to campus. | 53:14 | |
| They closed school early the next day. | 53:16 | |
| Sent us home for spring break and when we came back | 53:18 | |
| it was quieted down. | 53:22 | |
| They expelled the president of student government. | 53:23 | |
| Now we kept going to Medgar's office. | 53:26 | |
| One day he said I want your girls to meet Tom Gaither. | 53:30 | |
| Tom has come to help us get our freedom | 53:37 | |
| and we said oh that's good, how are you? | 53:41 | |
| You didn't ask any question questions. | 53:44 | |
| I didn't ask him what is it going to do. | 53:45 | |
| He was core organizer who was had come to organize | 53:47 | |
| Mississippi to get ready for the freedom rides. | 53:51 | |
| That's what Mississippi was like before | 53:56 | |
| Miss Baker's philosophy entered. | 53:58 | |
| There were a lot of people who carried | 54:02 | |
| on that work underground less than be killed | 54:06 | |
| and many were killed even without it. | 54:10 | |
| Miss Baker came into a state that was no longer totally | 54:14 | |
| closed but a wedge had been put in and it was being pried | 54:18 | |
| open because they're were the Vernon Dahmers, Amzie Moores, | 54:23 | |
| Sister Steptoe, Clyde Kennard, I could go on and on of the | 54:28 | |
| local men and women | 54:34 | |
| Miss Haymer, my dear cousin Victoria Gray. | 54:35 | |
| These are people who have taken the stands. | 54:41 | |
| So by the time the SNCC people came in, direct action | 54:44 | |
| couldn't be carried out in Mississippi but we also matured | 54:49 | |
| to a point but we realized that eating in lunch counters, | 54:57 | |
| eating at a lunch center was not as important as having the | 55:00 | |
| right to vote and we thought naively | 55:04 | |
| that if you get some political power, | 55:07 | |
| then you can change things. | 55:09 | |
| We hadn't really progressed yet to the point | 55:13 | |
| where we understood that economic power was | 55:15 | |
| very, very important. | 55:18 | |
| Miss Baker taught of several things. | 55:21 | |
| First of all I saw her as a kind of mother figure. | 55:23 | |
| She reminded me quite frankly of my momma. | 55:26 | |
| I never ever thought of calling her Ella. | 55:29 | |
| Even today if she was still alive I mean | 55:33 | |
| she would be Miss Baker. | 55:35 | |
| Miss Baker was kind of secretive. | 55:37 | |
| No one has said that but I remember asking her | 55:39 | |
| over and over and when I lived | 55:40 | |
| in New York and the 70's when I used to | 55:42 | |
| go over and visit her, | 55:44 | |
| Miss Baker tell me about your husband. | 55:46 | |
| (mumbling) | 55:48 | |
| (audience laughs) | 55:50 | |
| It was not until I read Joanne's book that I | 55:51 | |
| got to know who Miss Baker's husband was and she | 55:53 | |
| didn't really talk very much about herself or was she | 55:56 | |
| believed personally and it would have been hard, | 55:59 | |
| she wasn't a talker about the philosophy | 56:05 | |
| of things to me as much as she was a doer. | 56:08 | |
| I understand who she was from her actions. | 56:11 | |
| I think she felt that we should it was important for all of | 56:16 | |
| us to have a very, to be firmly grounded, have a strong | 56:21 | |
| sense of identity because it was a source of our strength | 56:25 | |
| knowing who we, I think she believed | 56:29 | |
| that we needed to know we were | 56:32 | |
| because we were going to some turbulent times and whatever | 56:34 | |
| strength to you could derive from your roots | 56:38 | |
| and that's why I believe in part the kind of circle | 56:42 | |
| and embracing of each other in SNCC as brothers and sisters | 56:46 | |
| came out of that. | 56:50 | |
| She believed family and a democratic ethos. | 56:53 | |
| The concept we saw always say that the people decide | 56:56 | |
| was very very much Ella Baker. | 57:01 | |
| She also was anti-hierarchical | 57:04 | |
| and don't get her talking about black baptist preachers. | 57:07 | |
| Now that's one that you would go off on. | 57:12 | |
| She also taught me that courage was, | 57:15 | |
| and my mother taught the same thing is that | 57:20 | |
| courage is not the answer to fear. | 57:22 | |
| It is not the absence of fear, | 57:25 | |
| but the you keep on even in the face of understanding, | 57:27 | |
| recognizing and accept that fear is a natural reaction to | 57:31 | |
| dangerous situations but despite it | 57:36 | |
| and it goes back again to the strength of your beliefs | 57:41 | |
| have to be such that you risk something. | 57:46 | |
| A lot of us probably didn't think that we and I | 57:50 | |
| heard this more from SNCC guys then from women, that we live | 57:53 | |
| to see 30 years old or I didn't even think about the next | 57:58 | |
| month not to consider a long term life span. | 58:02 | |
| She taught me that she did the others of us that | 58:08 | |
| we had to work with what we had, | 58:12 | |
| that we had to be resourceful, | 58:15 | |
| that whatever was available in the environment you used as | 58:18 | |
| prudently as possible and that you don't stop your work | 58:23 | |
| because you don't have a lot. | 58:28 | |
| I mean the $10 a week check this SNCC sent out | 58:30 | |
| was actually $9.54 after taxes. | 58:34 | |
| People like Sam Block slept for the first | 58:38 | |
| several weeks in his car in Greenwood | 58:41 | |
| before he found someone who would take him in | 58:44 | |
| but that was what was meant by being resourceful. | 58:47 | |
| She very, very much taught us that we had to start | 58:53 | |
| with where the people are. | 58:55 | |
| That you don't go in and tell people | 58:59 | |
| that you're to do this your to do that | 59:02 | |
| but to get a sense of the lay of the land where the people | 59:03 | |
| are and then try to begin to build, help to work with | 59:07 | |
| them to build the consensus and she felt that leadership | 59:12 | |
| emerged out of the local people, that they already had it | 59:15 | |
| there but you had to be able as facilitators to | 59:21 | |
| help to bring it about. | 59:25 | |
| She also told us that we had to be resilient | 59:27 | |
| and I learned this at the feet of my parents | 59:31 | |
| that just because you fall down doesn't mean | 59:35 | |
| that you don't keep getting up so I think that one of the | 59:37 | |
| reasons that the nonviolent philosophy was able to prevail | 59:41 | |
| for as long as it did was because we were taught to be tough | 59:45 | |
| and to understand that times will get rough, that you'd get | 59:50 | |
| beaten up, I was never beaten common ever in the situation | 59:54 | |
| but I spent spent a week in jail and it wasn't easy but we | 59:58 | |
| also knew that this was just | 1:00:01 | |
| part of what being involved in this | 1:00:07 | |
| kind of very dangerous social change work meant. | 1:00:11 | |
| She told us we have to think on her own. | 1:00:15 | |
| I can't think of anything more important than her | 1:00:17 | |
| empowering us to be free thinkers and to be critical | 1:00:20 | |
| thinkers and that's why I some of those, | 1:00:25 | |
| you remember that SNCC meeting | 1:00:28 | |
| I believe in the spring of 63 or 64-- | 1:00:31 |
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