Chinn, Nancy
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| Interviewer | We are ready to go. | 0:01 |
| You were going to tell me about Wisdom Searches, | 0:03 | |
| your wonderful book. | 0:05 | |
| Tell me. | 0:05 | |
| Nancy | First of all, | 0:07 |
| it came about because I was asked | 0:09 | |
| to create a poster for a fundraiser | 0:11 | |
| for Re-Imagining, for the first year anniversary. | 0:16 | |
| And I gather, | 0:20 | |
| I'm a gatherer and responder in my art forms | 0:23 | |
| and I had this leaf in my studio that | 0:28 | |
| which is very interesting, it was all curled up. | 0:33 | |
| And I thought oh that's a good form to work with | 0:36 | |
| and I started the first painting | 0:42 | |
| and nine came out of it, the nine in the book | 0:44 | |
| and it came one after the other, | 0:48 | |
| just bang bang bang bang, in the middle of the night, | 0:50 | |
| or at three in the afternoon or whatever | 0:52 | |
| and then it was all done. | 0:55 | |
| Interviewer | Wow. | 0:57 |
| I'm so glad you told that. | 0:59 | |
| That is wonderful, so it came out of-- | 1:00 | |
| Nancy | Tell them, this team that I worked for | 1:03 |
| that publishes things, and they wrote that for | 1:06 | |
| something for, I don't remember what, and I said | 1:09 | |
| well I have these nine paintings | 1:12 | |
| and I sent them to them | 1:15 | |
| and then I told them I was interested in producing | 1:17 | |
| them as meditation cards. | 1:19 | |
| Would they have the ability to produce that | 1:23 | |
| and they wrote back and commissioned the book. | 1:26 | |
| Interviewer | Oh. | 1:28 |
| And then you wrote those wonderful poems | 1:30 | |
| to go with the images. | 1:32 | |
| Nancy | I did and Hariett, | 1:33 |
| my partner, wrote the text. | 1:35 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, well I love how that was | 1:36 |
| and I know you always talk about how important | 1:38 | |
| relationships are and that was certainly true with that | 1:40 | |
| whole enterprise it seemed like. | 1:42 | |
| Nancy | Yes, and the material actually came from | 1:45 |
| Elizabeth Johnson. | 1:48 | |
| But I was reading her section, Holy Wisdom. | 1:51 | |
| I'd read it and meditate on it and then I'd go paint. | 1:54 | |
| Interviewer | Hm, well it obviously | 1:59 |
| was a great inspiration. | 2:01 | |
| And it did start with Re-Imagining asking you to | 2:02 | |
| Nancy | Yes. | 2:05 |
| make a poster for-- | 2:07 | |
| Nancy | Yeah. | 2:08 |
| Interviewer | Yeah. | 2:08 |
| Well, that was a wonderful product. | 2:10 | |
| Actually, if we could just back up-- | 2:11 | |
| Nancy | (laughs) And I don't know | 2:13 |
| if any of those posters | 2:14 | |
| are still around or not. | 2:15 | |
| My daughter use to have one but it wasn't | 2:16 | |
| printed with an archival ink. | 2:18 | |
| Interviewer | Oh... | 2:20 |
| Nancy | And it does fade over time. | 2:21 |
| Interviewer | Okay, you know I will ask about that | 2:22 |
| at the next Re-Imagining meeting | 2:25 | |
| 'cause I would love to know if they are still around. | 2:26 | |
| I know your paintings from The Gathering | 2:30 | |
| are at United Theological Seminary | 2:32 | |
| Nancy | Yes. | 2:35 |
| Interviewer | But I can find out about the posters. | 2:36 |
| Nancy | Uh huh. | 2:37 |
| Interviewer | Wonderful. | 2:38 |
| You know, you know could we just back up for a minute. | 2:39 | |
| I'm glad you told that story, that was wonderful. | 2:40 | |
| Could you, I just need some background information, | 2:42 | |
| could you say your full name? | 2:45 | |
| Nancy | Nancy Chinn. | 2:47 |
| Interviewer | Great. | 2:49 |
| - | And are you lay or clergy? | 2:50 |
| Nancy | Lay. | 2:52 |
| Interviewer | And what is your | 2:53 |
| denominational affiliation, if any? | 2:54 | |
| Nancy | At the time of Re-Imagining, I was Episcopalian. | 2:57 |
| I had come from a Presbyterian background | 3:01 | |
| and many years later, probably 10 years ago, | 3:04 | |
| I joined the Catholic church, I went through catechetics, | 3:09 | |
| and became Catholic. | 3:13 | |
| So I could call myself Catholic but I do worship | 3:16 | |
| in this community in a Episcopal church. | 3:18 | |
| Interviewer | Oh okay, wonderful. | 3:23 |
| Nancy | So I would call myself Roman Episcopal. | 3:26 |
| (both laugh) | 3:28 | |
| Interviewer | You're very ecumenical. (laughs) | 3:29 |
| Nancy | Well sort of yeah. | 3:31 |
| Interviewer | When and where were you born Nancy? | 3:33 |
| Nancy | Minneapolis, Minnesota. 1940. | 3:36 |
| Interviewer | Okay, and where did you go to school? | 3:40 |
| Nancy | I went to Louis and Clark in Portland for my BA | 3:45 |
| About, hm, let's see, 52, maybe 20 years later. | 3:50 | |
| I went to San Francisco State and got a Masters in Art Ed | 3:55 | |
| and that's when I began exploring the relationship | 3:59 | |
| between art and spirituality. | 4:02 | |
| And I did it specifically because of an anthropology class | 4:05 | |
| which was called visual anthropology. | 4:09 | |
| And I was fascinated with what artists did in | 4:13 | |
| non-Christian communities to create the culture. | 4:17 | |
| And I went back to my own local, very boring | 4:23 | |
| visually boring church | 4:26 | |
| and, which grouching about about something | 4:29 | |
| and they said well | 4:32 | |
| we haven't got a clue what you're talking about. | 4:34 | |
| Would you like to show us? | 4:36 | |
| And that began my whole career of art worship. | 4:38 | |
| Interviewer | Wow, that's amazing. | 4:42 |
| It all started with an anthropology course. | 4:44 | |
| Nancy | Uh huh. | 4:46 |
| Interviewer | What work were you doing | 4:48 |
| at the time of Re-Imagining? | 4:49 | |
| Nancy | What work? | 4:51 |
| I was an artist. | 4:53 | |
| I've always been an artist. | 4:54 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 4:56 |
| Nancy | I was bringing money by creating art | 4:58 |
| for religious events, churches, | 5:02 | |
| and I taught as an adjunct at PSR | 5:07 | |
| in the field of the arts and I always taught | 5:13 | |
| some aspect of art and religion | 5:17 | |
| Interviewer | And I know you, oh so -- go ahead. | 5:22 |
| Nancy | And what else? | 5:26 |
| I ran around the country teaching things. | 5:27 | |
| (Interviewer laughs) | 5:31 | |
| The same thing I taught at seminary, | 5:34 | |
| just how do you create art for worship? | 5:36 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, yeah. | 5:39 |
| In your presentation at the '93 Gathering you talked about | 5:41 | |
| some examples of your work and I see it | 5:46 | |
| on your website, too. | 5:49 | |
| For example, at Grace Cathedral. | 5:50 | |
| Nancy | Yeah, that's a pretty old website, but yes, | 5:53 |
| you can see some things there. | 5:55 | |
| And there is a very good book. | 5:56 | |
| You probably can find it at United, | 5:58 | |
| called Spaces For Spirit. | 6:00 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 6:05 |
| Nancy | And you'll get a lot more of my writing in that. | 6:07 |
| Interviewer | Good, wonderful, thank you. | 6:09 |
| So, when and how did you first become aware | 6:12 | |
| of feminist theology? | 6:16 | |
| Nancy | That one's a very interesting question. | 6:19 |
| I have to start by saying I first became aware | 6:22 | |
| of feminist thinking with a magazine put out | 6:25 | |
| by the Methodist church. | 6:29 | |
| And it's no longer-- the last two issues, | 6:31 | |
| the first one was on feminist thinking, | 6:35 | |
| and the second, last, one was one gay lesbian thinking. | 6:39 | |
| And then the Methodist church shut it down. | 6:43 | |
| Interviewer | Do you remember what it was called? | 6:46 |
| Nancy | And that was 1978. | 6:49 |
| Interviewer | Okay. | 6:51 |
| Nancy | No, I sure do not, must have been '72. | 6:52 |
| Interviewer | Okay. | 6:55 |
| Nancy | You know, I don't really remember exactly | 6:57 |
| when that was. | 7:00 | |
| Ad then I just kept paying at 10 tion. | 7:02 | |
| Well, what does this mean? | 7:05 | |
| Feminist thinking. | 7:06 | |
| And I started hearing the language of normal church. | 7:09 | |
| It must have been '62. | 7:13 | |
| Because-- or '64, or something, I don't-- | 7:16 | |
| because the next piece that I had was, | 7:19 | |
| my former husband was a Presbyterian minister, | 7:26 | |
| at that point a youth pastor, | 7:28 | |
| in Riverside, California, | 7:31 | |
| and a group of St. Louis Jesuits had set up | 7:33 | |
| a residence and some sort of chapel. | 7:38 | |
| They had a little monastery. | 7:45 | |
| And we used to go over after worship and worship with them. | 7:46 | |
| And it was that lovely energy of static and tune, | 7:51 | |
| and everything is decked, | 7:55 | |
| everything was so fresh. | 7:57 | |
| And then we would have lunch together and talk. | 7:59 | |
| And I'm sure that's when the seeds were planted for me, | 8:02 | |
| and I remember, interestingly, just desiring so much | 8:09 | |
| to make things like alter clothes, | 8:13 | |
| and you know the visual stuff of worship. | 8:15 | |
| But at that point I was pregnant with number two, | 8:19 | |
| we were about to move to a new parish, | 8:23 | |
| and I just buried in kids. | 8:27 | |
| Interviewer | Oh, interesting. | 8:29 |
| Nancy | That emerged powerfully when it did come. | 8:33 |
| So the first thing I noticed, that I noticed, | 8:38 | |
| was that the visual things that I put in the church, | 8:42 | |
| really were a, what's the right word, | 8:48 | |
| they're very demanding. | 8:55 | |
| And they break them. | 8:58 | |
| They weren't banners that were much closer | 9:00 | |
| to propaganda, they were, | 9:03 | |
| they were interrupters. | 9:06 | |
| Interviewer | Say some more what you mean by that, | 9:13 |
| that's interesting, why interrupters? | 9:14 | |
| Nancy | Well because they were very mysterious. | 9:17 |
| And they were very large. | 9:20 | |
| And you couldn't not look at them. | 9:21 | |
| And if they were, | 9:24 | |
| if the service was not, if the ritual was not | 9:28 | |
| strong enough, they overwhelmed things. | 9:31 | |
| And if the ritual was well done, they became, | 9:35 | |
| it was so integrated, and it became like an opera | 9:41 | |
| that we were in the middle of. | 9:45 | |
| And that was a very mysterious process. | 9:48 | |
| And then I was also very conscious, | 9:51 | |
| that I was doing everything out of temporary materials, | 9:54 | |
| that they were gonna disappear. | 9:59 | |
| I was not creating art that was | 10:01 | |
| what I was being taught in school was art, | 10:06 | |
| i.e. a commodity that can be invested in, purchased, | 10:08 | |
| and so forth, and a personality that goes with that. | 10:13 | |
| I was creating something, and after the first piece went up, | 10:18 | |
| I began getting all kinds of volunteers to help me make it. | 10:21 | |
| So I began doing things in community. | 10:25 | |
| And that was an interrupter. | 10:28 | |
| Interviewer | And I think I can imagine this, | 10:30 |
| but how would you relate it to feminist theology? | 10:33 | |
| Nancy | Because it wasn't about-- | 10:37 |
| whew, that's such a big question. | 10:42 | |
| How would I relate it to feminist thinking? | 10:48 | |
| Because it's about the community's response. | 10:50 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 10:53 |
| Nancy | Because the focus of it is not in authority | 10:54 |
| but in response. | 10:59 | |
| Because it was open-ended, there was no | 11:02 | |
| specific meaning to it. | 11:08 | |
| So it begged multiple points of view. | 11:11 | |
| It's something people responded to emotionally, | 11:17 | |
| as well as intellectually. | 11:21 | |
| It's just so open-ended. | 11:27 | |
| Interviewer | That's great, that is really good. | 11:32 |
| What was your, could you say more about your relationship | 11:36 | |
| to the Re-Imagining community? | 11:38 | |
| How that developed for the '93 conference? | 11:39 | |
| Nancy | Yes, it's kind of a funny story. | 11:43 |
| As I said, I taught a lot about stuff | 11:46 | |
| and made a lot of art for churches, | 11:50 | |
| that's how I earned my living. | 11:54 | |
| I was very busy. | 11:55 | |
| And got this letter from Sally Hill | 11:57 | |
| asking me if I would do something for Re-Imagining. | 12:00 | |
| I didn't know who she was, | 12:03 | |
| I didn't know who Re-Imagining was. | 12:04 | |
| But in the middle of the letter | 12:07 | |
| the computer somehow switched, | 12:09 | |
| and they were talking to Sweet Honey in the Rock, | 12:11 | |
| a vocal group, that they were also asking to do something. | 12:15 | |
| So I wrote back and I said well, did you want me to do | 12:19 | |
| the set design for you, the space? | 12:23 | |
| Or do you want me to teach? | 12:28 | |
| And they said, well, they wrote back | 12:30 | |
| and asked what would I teach? | 12:32 | |
| And at that point I was doing a second | 12:34 | |
| master's degree, an MFA, which is a terminal degree | 12:36 | |
| in arts, you can't get a PHD in art. | 12:42 | |
| And the critique process was so painful for me. | 12:49 | |
| I just hated it. | 12:53 | |
| Because you had to bring in new work every week | 12:55 | |
| and no matter what it was, it was torn apart. | 12:58 | |
| Not a constructive process. | 13:02 | |
| And I kept thinking, this is not the way I want to teach, | 13:05 | |
| not the way I learn. | 13:07 | |
| And at the same time I had a group | 13:10 | |
| that emerged--this is a longer story. | 13:14 | |
| Interviewer | This is great, I love it, go ahead. (laughs) | 13:17 |
| Nancy | I had a group that emerged out of the last | 13:20 |
| full time class I taught, from there on | 13:23 | |
| I taught it only in 10 sive 'cause I didn't have time | 13:27 | |
| to be present for every week in a class. | 13:30 | |
| So I had a group from that last class | 13:37 | |
| that wanted to keep going, | 13:42 | |
| and that class was called Making Art From Your Face. | 13:46 | |
| Interviewer | It was called Making Art, I'm sorry, | 13:50 |
| making art what was that? | 13:51 | |
| Nancy | From your face. | 13:53 |
| Interviewer | From your face, okay. | 13:54 |
| Nancy | They were topics like birth and belonging, | 13:56 |
| death and leaving, and I don't remember the topics. | 13:58 | |
| And they said but we don't want to make your topics, | 14:06 | |
| we want to make our topics. | 14:09 | |
| (both laugh) | 14:10 | |
| So I said, okay if I can not teach you, | 14:12 | |
| but be a part of it with you. | 14:16 | |
| So I ritualized the opening and the closing, | 14:19 | |
| and I, we made art together once a week, | 14:23 | |
| in silence, we had an opening ritual where we | 14:26 | |
| welcomed in what we wanted to welcome in, | 14:30 | |
| and then banned what we wanted to ban, | 14:33 | |
| and then we worked together in silence | 14:35 | |
| for about two hours, | 14:37 | |
| everybody doing their own work. | 14:39 | |
| And then I got the idea if we | 14:40 | |
| witnessed each other, | 14:45 | |
| I think witnessing what we people do is very powerful. | 14:47 | |
| So we had five minutes where everybody could just | 14:53 | |
| but what they had done up | 14:56 | |
| and nobody could crosstalk about it, | 14:58 | |
| you couldn't say well this is what this means. | 15:00 | |
| And I tried to get rid of all the things in critique | 15:03 | |
| that I found distracted. | 15:06 | |
| And if the person wished, they could talk about it, | 15:09 | |
| or if they wanted to stand and look for five minutes, | 15:12 | |
| we would do that. | 15:15 | |
| And there were eight of us, so. | 15:17 | |
| It was very powerful and what I learned was | 15:21 | |
| that people learn by doing. | 15:24 | |
| They don't learn by teaching. | 15:26 | |
| And by the end of that semester, | 15:30 | |
| we did a little art show of our work, | 15:32 | |
| and it was breathtaking. | 15:34 | |
| I was so amazed. | 15:36 | |
| During that time I also did my own work | 15:40 | |
| with that same process. | 15:45 | |
| And worked hard at finding-- | 15:48 | |
| finding the truth in my body. | 15:51 | |
| And trying to draw it or present it in some way, visually. | 15:59 | |
| Interviewer | Could you say a little bit about more what-- | 16:04 |
| that's so interesting, about finding the truth in your body, | 16:06 | |
| what did that mean? | 16:08 | |
| Nancy | How do I put that in words? | 16:18 |
| I still have those drawings. | 16:22 | |
| And I have one where I tried to draw | 16:24 | |
| what it feels like to be inside my throat. | 16:27 | |
| I have drawings that talked about | 16:32 | |
| some of the issues I was going on at--doing at the time | 16:35 | |
| and how I felt about it. | 16:38 | |
| So it's the feelings that you work with, | 16:40 | |
| that you comfort-ize. | 16:43 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, fascinating. | 16:46 |
| That is great. | 16:50 | |
| So when you-- | 16:51 | |
| Nancy | And that's what I was trying to do | 16:52 |
| with Re-Imagine, with those type, | 16:54 | |
| with that presentation, with getting people to draw. | 16:56 | |
| Nancy | And is that enough? | 17:00 |
| Interviewer | That's wonderful. | 17:03 |
| That is really helpful. | 17:05 | |
| And you had, it was so interesting, | 17:06 | |
| I believe, I'm not sure her name correctly, | 17:08 | |
| Wyn Rea? And you -- | 17:10 | |
| Nancy | Rea. | 17:12 |
| Interviewer | Rea? Okay. | 17:13 |
| Nancy | R-E-A | 17:14 |
| Interviewer | R-E-A, yes. | 17:15 |
| Nancy | Now Wyn is the young women I met somewhere, | 17:16 |
| I don't remember where, and she was very interested | 17:19 | |
| in the work that I was doing. | 17:21 | |
| And when it got time to do this, | 17:25 | |
| I think they had asked me if I had asked me if | 17:28 | |
| I'd be comfortable painting as an example. | 17:29 | |
| I said of course, and then I thought, | 17:32 | |
| that's too simple I need to do it, something up, | 17:35 | |
| - | [Nancy To Someone Else] Okay. | 17:39 |
| Wyn Rea. | 17:41 | |
| Nancy | It's at this bumped up against somebody, | 17:45 |
| 'cause that's what I'm asking people at their table to do, | 17:48 | |
| not work on your own work but work as a community, | 17:51 | |
| so I had no idea what her imagery was like, | 17:56 | |
| I had no idea. | 17:59 | |
| I just knew that she had the chutzpah to do it, | 18:00 | |
| so she came and the first thing she said to me | 18:04 | |
| when we got up on the stage was | 18:07 | |
| "I've never painted with acrylic, how do you do that?" | 18:09 | |
| Interviewer | Wow. Really? | 18:12 |
| (both laugh) | 18:14 | |
| Oh my goodness. | 18:16 | |
| Nancy | So that was a big of a surprise. | 18:18 |
| Interviewer | Yes! | 18:20 |
| (both laugh) | 18:22 | |
| And how did it go, Nancy? | 18:25 | |
| Nancy | How did it go? | 18:27 |
| How did what go? | 18:29 | |
| Interviewer | Oh, sure, so she figured out | 18:31 |
| the acrylics, you would able to figure it out? | 18:33 | |
| Nancy | I just taught her as we went, ya know. | 18:36 |
| Interviewer | Oh my goodness. | 18:38 |
| Nancy | But this is me, you fix it with your work. | 18:39 |
| We didn't have a mic on it, so we could just keep going. | 18:42 | |
| And then we kept trading over each other's work. | 18:45 | |
| So she didn't paint a panel and I painted a panel, | 18:50 | |
| we'd move, we'd take turns between. | 18:53 | |
| And nobody owned anything. | 18:58 | |
| Interviewer | Do you remember what that felt like, | 19:01 |
| doing that? | 19:03 | |
| Nancy | Fun! | 19:04 |
| Interviewer | Yeah? | 19:05 |
| Nancy | Art work is fun. | 19:06 |
| Interviewer | Had you ever done exactly that before? | 19:07 |
| Nancy | Not with another person, mm mm. | 19:10 |
| Interviewer | And what was it like being there | 19:12 |
| in this gathering of you know, 2000 people | 19:16 | |
| while you're doing it? | 19:18 | |
| Nancy | I was just conscious that we were all | 19:22 |
| working together. | 19:24 | |
| And that what Wyn and I were doing was hopefully | 19:27 | |
| giving people courage to keep going. | 19:31 | |
| Interviewer | Could you say a little bit more | 19:35 |
| about what you told people to do at the tables, | 19:39 | |
| if you remember? | 19:42 | |
| I've seen some of the instructions but I'd love to hear | 19:43 | |
| what you remember and what you were envisioning. | 19:46 | |
| I have to tell you, many people have commented | 19:47 | |
| on how powerful that was for them. | 19:49 | |
| Nancy | Oh! That's great. | 19:51 |
| I don't--I'm glad it was. | 19:54 | |
| My hope was that they would be a groups of 10, | 19:57 | |
| this had been started by the committee before I entered, | 20:03 | |
| that that group of 10s, that my job would be | 20:06 | |
| to help them be attentive to the topic, | 20:08 | |
| but comfort-ize it in some form. | 20:14 | |
| So it was like I was doing with my own drawing. | 20:17 | |
| Because I think that's a very useful way | 20:21 | |
| to process information. | 20:24 | |
| My hope was also that the drawing together, | 20:27 | |
| I think my intention, and I think what happened was | 20:31 | |
| they drew the first night and then I asked them | 20:34 | |
| to cut out the parts they wanted to save, | 20:37 | |
| and throw the rest away. | 20:40 | |
| And then they had a new fresh paper | 20:42 | |
| and they could place that new drawing on with glue, | 20:45 | |
| or tape, or something, I think it was glue, | 20:49 | |
| and then just keep going, keep drawing it. | 20:51 | |
| Because of the medium, which was oil pastel, | 20:54 | |
| you can go over the tops of things. | 20:56 | |
| You can layer it, it's better when you layer it. | 20:58 | |
| And my hope was by the end of the fourth day, | 21:05 | |
| there would be a rich surface that would become | 21:08 | |
| the alter cloth for the final ritual. | 21:11 | |
| The sending forth of milk and honey, | 21:15 | |
| with milk and honey. | 21:17 | |
| The meal of milk and honey. | 21:18 | |
| My desire was to interrupt the usual process of note taking | 21:23 | |
| and have people immediately begin to get out of | 21:29 | |
| that dualistic thinking of mind and body | 21:33 | |
| and put the two together | 21:37 | |
| that they would be able to just learn in a different way. | 21:43 | |
| Interviewer | Well talking to people, | 21:53 |
| all of that happened, yes. | 21:54 | |
| (both laugh) | 21:56 | |
| Nancy | For some. | 21:58 |
| There were some tables that wouldn't do it. | 21:59 | |
| Interviewer | Oh really? Is that right? Huh. | 22:01 |
| Interesting. What'd you feel about that? | 22:04 | |
| What'd you think about that? | 22:07 | |
| Nancy | And then--it's their choice. | 22:08 |
| Interviewer | Yeah, yeah. | 22:10 |
| Nancy | Sorry they wouldn't try but you know, | 22:11 |
| the invitation was certainly there, | 22:15 | |
| the materials were there, | 22:17 | |
| it was very alluring. | 22:19 | |
| If they walked around and saw anybody else's work | 22:21 | |
| I'm sure they would have been encouraged but | 22:23 | |
| I don't know why they froze like that. | 22:27 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, mhm, but other people also wrote about | 22:29 |
| how powerful that was, | 22:33 | |
| and people who didn't feel particularly artistic, | 22:35 | |
| although you said in your presentation we're all artists, | 22:38 | |
| and then just connecting up with each other. | 22:41 | |
| I know at least one person actually | 22:44 | |
| brought it home with them. | 22:45 | |
| Nancy | Yes, several people have written to me | 22:47 |
| over the years to say they still have it, | 22:49 | |
| or they have a portion of it. | 22:51 | |
| Some groups divided theirs all up and | 22:53 | |
| everybody took a piece. | 22:56 | |
| It was important to people. | 22:59 | |
| To most people. | 23:01 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, absolutely. | 23:02 |
| Nancy | And then they bought the painting for United. | 23:05 |
| People just offered us some money and I gave it all to Wyn | 23:10 | |
| because I had been paid to be there. | 23:14 | |
| I thought that was a feminist act too. | 23:17 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, absolutely. | 23:20 |
| Nancy | (laughs) She said "I'm just a volunteer." | 23:21 |
| Interviewer | (laughs) Yes. | 23:24 |
| Do you have any memories about your presentation | 23:25 | |
| that you gave? | 23:29 | |
| Or anything particular about that? | 23:31 | |
| Nancy | You mean the large group? | 23:32 |
| Interviewer | Yeah, you talked about the symbol system | 23:36 |
| and the new way of being an artist and of art churches | 23:40 | |
| in art and new images of old religious ideas, | 23:43 | |
| those were some of the things I know you talked about. | 23:45 | |
| Nancy | No, I have no memory of that. | 23:48 |
| Interviewer | That's fine. | 23:50 |
| Nancy | It's all mushed together, | 23:51 |
| it was the same old speech I always did. | 23:52 | |
| Interviewer | Is that right? | 23:54 |
| (both laugh) | 23:56 | |
| Nancy | Or it was a variation of. | 23:57 |
| Interviewer | Well it's important what you remember, | 23:59 |
| and it sounds like doing art was. | 24:01 | |
| Nancy | The other piece that I don't know that | 24:05 |
| you know about is that I had in the meantime done | 24:08 | |
| my MFA on 10 stories from the bible | 24:11 | |
| that were comfort-izing the abuse of women. | 24:21 | |
| Interviewer | I read something about that | 24:26 |
| but could you please tell me more about this? | 24:29 | |
| I really wanna hear about this. | 24:30 | |
| Nancy | Well I surrounded the alter, | 24:33 |
| I mean the baptismal fount at Grace Cathedral | 24:36 | |
| with these pieces. | 24:38 | |
| And then a friend gave me the money to get lights | 24:40 | |
| that came down from the ceiling through gobos | 24:46 | |
| that put the words around the work, | 24:50 | |
| so that was part of it too, | 24:54 | |
| on the stone floor. | 24:55 | |
| And when the light came in through the east, | 24:58 | |
| in the morning, all you could see was the colored light | 25:01 | |
| on the floor, and then as the sun rose | 25:04 | |
| each hour it became more shadowed and the lights | 25:08 | |
| just rose up out of that light. | 25:12 | |
| And they were words like: | 25:16 | |
| murdered, framed, betrayed. | 25:18 | |
| The stories themselves had the content. | 25:26 | |
| And I chose 10 because 10 is a minyan, | 25:31 | |
| in Jewish thinking, there have to be 10 | 25:35 | |
| for it to be, a community of 10 to make it-- | 25:37 | |
| make it okay to be together. | 25:43 | |
| And so Phyllis Trible's book Texts of Terror | 25:47 | |
| was a part of my research | 25:52 | |
| I was good friends with a Jewish family of rabbis, | 25:54 | |
| a man and a wife, I spent a long time talking with them | 25:58 | |
| about the midrashic stories. | 26:03 | |
| I just did the research and then I made the pieces. | 26:08 | |
| Five were sculptures and five were paintings. | 26:11 | |
| Interviewer | Do you remember who they were? | 26:16 |
| Or something. | 26:20 | |
| Nancy | Sure. | 26:21 |
| Interviewer | Yeah. | 26:22 |
| Nancy | And then they traveled with me | 26:24 |
| to the first Re-Imagining | 26:26 | |
| and they were set up in the chapel | 26:28 | |
| a round room upstairs someplace | 26:30 | |
| where they were visited by a number of people. | 26:34 | |
| They also showed first at the Episcopal cathedral | 26:38 | |
| in Minneapolis. | 26:44 | |
| Interviewer | Do you remember which biblical women | 26:48 |
| you chose for this? | 26:50 | |
| Nancy | Yes, I chose Lot's wife, | 26:51 |
| Zina, | 26:58 | |
| Interviewer | I missed that word, I'm sorry? | 27:01 |
| Zina, Zina in English. | 27:02 | |
| Interviewer | Oh yes, of course, yes. | 27:05 |
| Nancy | The syrophoenician woman, | 27:09 |
| the daughter of Zepta, | 27:13 | |
| the woman bent over double, | 27:17 | |
| the women Jesus heals on the sabbath, | 27:22 | |
| who am I leaving out? | 27:27 | |
| Interviewer | The Levites concubine, perhaps? | 27:29 |
| Nancy | No, I did not do her. | 27:31 |
| Interviewer | Oh, okay. | 27:33 |
| Nancy | Oh, Rizpah. | 27:34 |
| Rizpah was one of Saul's concubines, | 27:37 | |
| and David had all of her children killed | 27:40 | |
| when he ascended to the throne. | 27:46 | |
| So there would be no heir. | 27:48 | |
| No heir that could challenge him. | 27:53 | |
| And then I chose, I made a tryptic. | 27:59 | |
| I was very involved with goddess studies | 28:02 | |
| and I wanted to find out | 28:06 | |
| what was the parallel | 28:10 | |
| in our Judea-Christian heritage of that | 28:12 | |
| trinity of feminine power. | 28:16 | |
| So I identified that I would do | 28:20 | |
| Eve as a virgin, | 28:23 | |
| Mary as a mother, | 28:26 | |
| and Lois as the crone. | 28:28 | |
| Interviewer | Oh, interesting. | 28:31 |
| Nancy | And so I did a tryptic of them | 28:34 |
| but for the 10. | 28:37 | |
| Interviewer | I'm curious, what was this process | 28:40 |
| like for you? | 28:42 | |
| Nancy | This process? | 28:44 |
| Interviewer | Of making those figures, yeah. | 28:46 |
| Nancy | Oh, well it pulled all of my passions | 28:48 |
| and of all of my mind, | 28:53 | |
| and all of my skills, | 28:55 | |
| and all of my research and my inquiry, | 28:58 | |
| and my-- | 29:03 | |
| everything I had together. | 29:07 | |
| And Grace was so kind to me, | 29:10 | |
| to let me have that space. | 29:15 | |
| I felt like I was-- | 29:18 | |
| I mean I had done a lot of work for them, | 29:22 | |
| so they knew who I was, | 29:24 | |
| I wasn't a stranger. | 29:25 | |
| But I felt like I was had been not only accepted by | 29:27 | |
| my graduate school process but also by | 29:30 | |
| the religious community, to do that work. | 29:36 | |
| And that was completed in 1990 or 91 | 29:41 | |
| I can't remember which. | 29:47 | |
| Interviewer | You just mentioned -- oh go ahead. | 29:51 |
| Nancy | I didn't expect to talk about that. | 29:52 |
| Interviewer | Oh, well I'm glad you did! | 29:55 |
| That was very powerful. | 29:57 | |
| And there is a mention of that in Re-Imagining | 30:00 | |
| and it's good to hear about what that was. | 30:03 | |
| That was huge. | 30:05 | |
| And you mentioned something goddess, | 30:06 | |
| becoming interested in the goddess, | 30:08 | |
| would you mind saying a little bit | 30:10 | |
| about how that developed? | 30:11 | |
| Nancy | Well I was living in Berkeley at the time. | 30:13 |
| (both laugh) | 30:16 | |
| I guess that's the bottom line right there. | 30:18 | |
| (both laugh) | 30:19 | |
| And there were just a number of very interesting, | 30:20 | |
| mostly women, that I think in the center | 30:24 | |
| of New College, certainly some of it in the GPU, | 30:28 | |
| and then I belonged to a group of women who were just | 30:34 | |
| involved in rituals and | 30:42 | |
| trying to identify the goddess, | 30:46 | |
| trying to reinterpret the old strictly Christian festivals, | 30:49 | |
| what would that look like if they were goddess festivals? | 30:57 | |
| What would they look like if they were discussed | 31:00 | |
| through a different lens? | 31:05 | |
| So it's pretty great work. | 31:08 | |
| Interviewer | Yes! | 31:10 |
| And you were doing artistic representations of these? | 31:13 | |
| Nancy | No, we were ritualizing. | 31:15 |
| Interviewer | Ritualizing, okay, got it, got it. | 31:18 |
| Interesting. | 31:20 | |
| I was wondering, in reading to get back | 31:21 | |
| to Re-Imagining, and was the '93 conference | 31:26 | |
| the only one that you were involved in? | 31:28 | |
| Nancy | As an official, yes. | 31:31 |
| Interviewer | Okay, did you attend-- | 31:33 |
| Nancy | I went to-- | 31:34 |
| Interviewer | Oh. | 31:35 |
| Nancy | I attended, oh, maybe five of them? | 31:36 |
| Interviewer | Oh you did, okay. | 31:38 |
| Nancy | But just as a participant. | 31:41 |
| Interviewer | Yeah. | 31:43 |
| And what was it like being a participant | 31:44 | |
| at the other ones, Nancy? | 31:45 | |
| Nancy | I loved being there. | 31:48 |
| It was my community at the time. | 31:51 | |
| You know, my tribe. | 31:55 | |
| My son is very connected to Burning Man. | 31:57 | |
| Interviewer | Oh, yes. | 32:01 |
| Nancy | And he speaks about it as his tribe. | 32:02 |
| Interviewer | Yes, yeah. | 32:05 |
| I remember you wrote about feeling like you came home. | 32:07 | |
| Like that you weren't alone. | 32:10 | |
| Nancy | Yeah. | 32:11 |
| Interviewer | Yeah. | 32:12 |
| I know you experienced backlash after the conference, | 32:13 | |
| you wrote about that some in your essay, | 32:17 | |
| in Remembering and Re-Imagining, | 32:19 | |
| and I wonder if you could talk about how | 32:20 | |
| that happened and how that affected you. | 32:22 | |
| Nancy | I've lost your question. | 32:27 |
| Interviewer | Oh, I'm sorry. | 32:28 |
| The backlash-- | 32:29 | |
| Nancy | What is the topic? | 32:30 |
| Interviewer | Oh, I'm sorry, the backlash-- | 32:31 |
| Nancy | Oh, the backlash. | 32:32 |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 32:33 |
| Nancy | I was very saddened by it. | 32:35 |
| It felt like-- | 32:37 | |
| Mary-Ann Lundy, she lost her job. | 32:43 | |
| And I grieved for her. | 32:47 | |
| And I grieved for the narrowness of people's | 32:51 | |
| points of view. | 32:56 | |
| The Layman, you know about this? | 33:01 | |
| The Layman magazine, do you know about that? | 33:03 | |
| Interviewer | I do, yes. | 33:07 |
| Nancy | Well, when they asked permission | 33:09 |
| to use the painting | 33:11 | |
| I didn't understand they were going to edit it down. | 33:15 | |
| So it became something such a different story | 33:19 | |
| than I thought I was making. | 33:25 | |
| I felt so misquoted by them. | 33:28 | |
| It was a violation. | 33:31 | |
| I felt violated by them. | 33:32 | |
| And in the end, instead of discouraging me, | 33:37 | |
| it was kind of like Trump, | 33:43 | |
| the more negative stuff that gets thrown at him, | 33:45 | |
| the stronger he gets. | 33:48 | |
| (both laugh) | 33:49 | |
| Interviewer | That may be the only similarity you have | 33:52 |
| to Trump but okay! | 33:53 | |
| (both laugh) | 33:54 | |
| Interviewer | So you did get stronger from that? | 34:01 |
| Nancy | I did, in the end, yes. | 34:05 |
| Because what had happened for me | 34:08 | |
| was so powerful, you can't just shame that away. | 34:10 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, and how do you account for it? | 34:14 |
| What do you think was the reason for that reaction? | 34:19 | |
| Nancy | The backlash? | 34:23 |
| Interviewer | The backlash, yes. | 34:26 |
| Nancy | Oh, because power was being challenged. | 34:27 |
| Because a new kind of authority had arisen | 34:36 | |
| and the powers that be were very threatened by it. | 34:41 | |
| And there was so much joy. | 34:49 | |
| And so much enthusiasm. | 34:54 | |
| I've been thinking this morning | 34:56 | |
| about the early church, | 34:57 | |
| and how they met together. | 34:59 | |
| And how they didn't know where they going, | 35:02 | |
| and they didn't know what they were about, | 35:04 | |
| but they couldn't not be together. | 35:06 | |
| Interviewer | That's a wonderful analogy. | 35:10 |
| I didn't mean to interrupt you, | 35:14 | |
| it's so hard on the phone because I can't see the, | 35:16 | |
| you know, the nonverbal cues. | 35:18 | |
| Nancy | Right, right. | 35:20 |
| Right. | 35:22 | |
| Interviewer | So how would you-- | 35:25 |
| Nancy | I think that's partly what was going on. | 35:26 |
| And you know, it's, I think the paradigm is still there. | 35:28 | |
| If you look, why are people so attached to | 35:31 | |
| some of the more conservative politics of the day? | 35:37 | |
| I think it's because they're still reacting. | 35:40 | |
| We're in the middle of a cultural earthquake. | 35:42 | |
| That's the shift, the earthquake, | 35:49 | |
| things have really, | 35:51 | |
| really, really, really changed. | 35:54 | |
| Interviewer | How would you describe the change? | 36:00 |
| Nancy | I loved the comments | 36:06 |
| of the tennis girl, and the person in charge | 36:10 | |
| of the tennis tournament dissented | 36:14 | |
| yesterday I think on the news. | 36:16 | |
| He talked about how women should get down on their knees | 36:19 | |
| and thank the men who make tennis so great. | 36:21 | |
| (both laugh) | 36:24 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, yes. | 36:25 |
| Nancy | I thought how weird that man sounds, | 36:27 |
| but that is where we were. | 36:29 | |
| That kind of thinking, | 36:34 | |
| that men were in charge. | 36:35 | |
| And women's job was to support the men. | 36:39 | |
| That's so the way I grew up, | 36:42 | |
| and that's so the way the world was for so many centuries. | 36:45 | |
| Interviewer | Absolutely. | 36:53 |
| So Nancy how-- | 36:56 | |
| Nancy | And it's not that way anymore, | 36:57 |
| now it's more, what can we do together? | 36:59 | |
| And have you thought about this? | 37:04 | |
| This is how it seems from my point of view. | 37:06 | |
| And it's not the same as you're seeing it. | 37:10 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, but I think that makes a lot of sense. | 37:13 |
| Nancy | Sure it does. | 37:17 |
| Interviewer | Absolutely, yes. | 37:18 |
| So I think you might be getting towards this but how | 37:21 | |
| would you define Re-Imagining? | 37:24 | |
| Nancy | Do you mean how would I define that word | 37:28 |
| or the movement? | 37:30 | |
| Interviewer | I guess the movement, I would say. | 37:31 |
| Nancy | I think it's a collective of people | 37:37 |
| who want to think about matters of spiritual consequence | 37:43 | |
| through the lens of feminist critique. | 37:53 | |
| And they want to, | 38:01 | |
| and this is something we haven't talked about, | 38:04 | |
| and I really wanted to get to it. | 38:06 | |
| They want to do it in a formal academic way, | 38:08 | |
| as in a formal, spiritual way. | 38:12 | |
| So it's not just a head thing, | 38:18 | |
| it's a heart thing too. | 38:20 | |
| Can I go to a different topic? | 38:23 | |
| 'Cause I don't want it to get lost. | 38:27 | |
| Interviewer | Absolutely, please do. | 38:29 |
| Nancy | Well, after I wrote to Sally Hill | 38:30 |
| and got involved in it, | 38:36 | |
| they put me on the ritual committee. | 38:38 | |
| And Sue Seid-Martin, who is no longer with us, | 38:40 | |
| who taught at St. Thomas by the way, | 38:43 | |
| was such a clear thinker about ritual. | 38:49 | |
| But because I'd been doing all this work in the | 38:52 | |
| community in where I live, | 38:54 | |
| I understood something about the foundation of ritual, | 38:56 | |
| in a way that she needed me. | 39:01 | |
| Needed my voice to help her fullness come forth. | 39:04 | |
| And we had wonderful conversations about | 39:11 | |
| why we do the things we do and how we do them, | 39:14 | |
| and how do we take this concept of the first meeting, | 39:19 | |
| how do we do a gathering so we can climax it | 39:24 | |
| with a ritual that helps people embody that, | 39:28 | |
| helps people get out of their heads, | 39:31 | |
| but not leave their heads behind but | 39:35 | |
| bring it into their bodies, be more present. | 39:37 | |
| So we had this wonderful ritual | 39:42 | |
| designed to close the last night, | 39:44 | |
| and the academics took all the time. | 39:48 | |
| And Sally Hill said well, we're gonna cut this out. | 39:52 | |
| So there was great sadness on those of us | 40:00 | |
| who knew what could have happened. | 40:06 | |
| One other thing that happened that was very | 40:10 | |
| disturbing to me was, I was the first presenter, | 40:12 | |
| and we had to use those tables as a drawing surface, | 40:15 | |
| and at the very first they needed to be cleaned off | 40:19 | |
| before we'd have the conference. | 40:23 | |
| And nobody would do it. | 40:27 | |
| So that's why when I got up, I didn't know what to do. | 40:31 | |
| So I said, okay everybody, put all the dishes | 40:35 | |
| underneath the table. | 40:37 | |
| And put that white piece of paper down. | 40:38 | |
| So there were glitches along the way. | 40:49 | |
| Interviewer | You know, I am so glad you talked | 40:51 |
| about Sue-Seid Martin, she was so important, | 40:56 | |
| and I would love to hear just a little bit more | 40:59 | |
| about you collaboration and what you brought | 41:02 | |
| to that conversation. | 41:04 | |
| Nancy | I think she was in a very Catholic-centric | 41:10 |
| concept of ritual. | 41:15 | |
| And what I think I brought to it was kind of | 41:19 | |
| the folks way of doing it. | 41:25 | |
| (both laugh) | 41:27 | |
| Because of this collective of women | 41:30 | |
| that I'd been practicing with, | 41:32 | |
| for about a couple years before I met Sue, | 41:34 | |
| I knew how to reinvent things. | 41:39 | |
| I knew how to reinterpret in a way | 41:42 | |
| that brought her-- | 41:45 | |
| and because she got it, because we were both speaking truth, | 41:48 | |
| we got it, and we could carry each other through it, | 41:53 | |
| through the process. | 41:57 | |
| Now at the same time I was also working | 41:59 | |
| with Presbyterians for their National Women's Convention. | 42:02 | |
| And one of the things I really loved, | 42:09 | |
| and which I took notes on to be sure to get to you, | 42:12 | |
| that process of making decisions in Re-Imagining | 42:17 | |
| was so different than the Presbyterians | 42:20 | |
| that I have to comment on it. | 42:22 | |
| What Sue taught me, as the way | 42:26 | |
| that we worked in our committee, | 42:28 | |
| the way that she said it worked within the whole, | 42:30 | |
| was that image of a spiral. | 42:34 | |
| So we did a great deal of consensus work. | 42:37 | |
| And she said, and that's what we do | 42:40 | |
| in the big planning group, we do consensus work. | 42:42 | |
| That Presbyterian women did everything in committees, | 42:46 | |
| that had to be approved. | 42:49 | |
| Everything cleared by an authority. | 42:51 | |
| And it was a linear process. | 42:55 | |
| Let's call it parliamentarian. | 42:57 | |
| Parliamentary process. | 43:00 | |
| And I think that that, the image | 43:03 | |
| of the vertical Presbyterians and the | 43:06 | |
| spiral of the Re-Imagining people, | 43:09 | |
| is critical to understanding the early beginnings. | 43:12 | |
| Interviewer | Oh I agree, that is really important. | 43:18 |
| Nancy | The other piece is, you asked how did they begin? | 43:22 |
| I think it began with Sally Hill going to | 43:26 | |
| The Decade For Women Conference in Beijing, | 43:30 | |
| and coming home saying, we have to do something | 43:34 | |
| with theology, in with it. | 43:37 | |
| Is that what you've been hearing? | 43:42 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, it was the Ecumenical Decade | 43:43 |
| in Solidarity with Women that started it off, exactly, yes. | 43:45 | |
| This is really helpful, Nancy, and I'm glad, | 43:51 | |
| these are all important things that you're talking about. | 43:55 | |
| When you look at it, what aspect of Re-Imagining | 43:57 | |
| were most significant to you and why, | 44:00 | |
| you talked about several things, so I don't want, you know, | 44:02 | |
| you may have already said it, but I'd still be curious | 44:05 | |
| to see what you might say to that. | 44:07 | |
| Nancy | I felt valued as an artist and so, | 44:10 |
| I felt connected to a community | 44:14 | |
| that wasn't my own community, | 44:20 | |
| I mean it was my own emotionally | 44:25 | |
| but it wasn't my own art community. | 44:26 | |
| I felt that the way of thinking, this spiral way | 44:30 | |
| of making decisions, was so important, | 44:34 | |
| that it was relational and not authority being said to me. | 44:39 | |
| And that's I think what troubles me | 44:47 | |
| about where I saw it all going, because it | 44:49 | |
| became about theology and not about practice, | 44:53 | |
| it became more sterile, as that went on. | 44:58 | |
| Interviewer | Really, do you saw that in the gatherings | 45:05 |
| as you went to the later gatherings, is that what you saw? | 45:07 | |
| Nancy | Yeah, that was my experience. | 45:10 |
| Interviewer | Sure, yeah. | 45:15 |
| Did your involvement in Re-Imagining change your perspective | 45:17 | |
| on feminist theology or the church at all? | 45:20 | |
| Nancy | Change my perspective... | 45:23 |
| I think I see my own perspective as something that | 45:30 | |
| is a continuum and it just keeps going | 45:34 | |
| and Re-Imagining didn't bend it, it just made it stronger. | 45:35 | |
| I just kept going where I was going anyway. | 45:43 | |
| Interviewer | And even the backlash sounded like | 45:48 |
| it strengthened you. | 45:49 | |
| Nancy | Yes. | 45:51 |
| Interviewer | And do you think of specific contributions | 45:52 |
| that Re-Imagining made to Christian theology or liturgy? | 45:56 | |
| Nancy | It's too jumbled up with the rest of my life, | 46:04 |
| so integrated, I can't perse it out like that. | 46:07 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah, sure. | 46:10 |
| Fair enough. | 46:12 | |
| Nancy | That and I'm old. | 46:15 |
| (both laugh) | 46:16 | |
| So my memories I do, the memory process | 46:19 | |
| is different when you get older. | 46:21 | |
| It's hard to remember specifics. | 46:25 | |
| I know that it was an important time for me. | 46:31 | |
| It was important enough with my limited resources | 46:36 | |
| to get back there whenever I could. | 46:39 | |
| Interviewer | Yes, well the details may not be there, | 46:41 |
| but certainly your reflections have been very powerful | 46:44 | |
| and wise, so, that's definitely there. | 46:47 | |
| Nancy | Oh, thanks. | 46:50 |
| Interviewer | And what do you think Re-Imagining, | 46:53 |
| and I don't just mean the Re-Imagining community, | 46:55 | |
| but what does Re-Imagining mean today? | 46:58 | |
| I mean what do you think needs to be re-imagined? Or-- | 47:00 | |
| Nancy | Well first of all I think it's been co-opt | 47:03 |
| by our culture, until we have re-imagining baking | 47:05 | |
| Re-imagining cars, where you're at something | 47:09 | |
| so I think the first thing it has to do | 47:13 | |
| is that name needs to be somehow reclaimed or renamed. | 47:16 | |
| It's been trivialized by it's cultural advertising. | 47:28 | |
| Interviewer | And what needs to be, even if we don't | 47:39 |
| use that word, but what needs to be, what would you hope | 47:41 | |
| would be re-imagined today? | 47:45 | |
| In terms of spirituality or-- | 47:49 | |
| Nancy | I would hope that we would continue to evolve | 47:50 |
| a cosmic sense of who Christ is. | 47:57 | |
| And that that-- I just finished a piece | 48:03 | |
| that I'm really excited about, | 48:05 | |
| it's a portrait of St. Francis, | 48:07 | |
| I'm working in clay now because I can't see very well. | 48:09 | |
| And it's a tryp--it's three parts of one monument. | 48:13 | |
| And it's tall, you know, it's probably, | 48:19 | |
| the tallest is probably 15 inches high. | 48:22 | |
| When you look down on it, it's a tau cross, | 48:25 | |
| which was his form of devotion, | 48:28 | |
| he didn't like that black cross, | 48:31 | |
| he liked the tau one. | 48:33 | |
| When you see it's face, | 48:35 | |
| why I wanted to do Francis was | 48:38 | |
| that he was one of the early theologians | 48:40 | |
| who saw God at work in all of creation | 48:43 | |
| from the beginning of time. | 48:48 | |
| So that Christ is that manifestation of God, | 48:50 | |
| visible in nature, for instance. | 48:56 | |
| But I chose the prayer of Canticle of the Sun, | 49:00 | |
| and each of the three faces on each of the three towers | 49:07 | |
| I adorned with different aspects of that prayer | 49:11 | |
| and I'm really excited about that. | 49:15 | |
| Because I think to re-imagine the Christ needing | 49:18 | |
| that salvific aspect of God, | 49:25 | |
| the mercy side of God, the side of God that calls us | 49:27 | |
| toward wholeness, toward our potential, | 49:31 | |
| toward our beauty as a species, | 49:35 | |
| and as a part of creation. | 49:40 | |
| I think the more we can bring that forth, | 49:45 | |
| the more clearly that we can shine that out, | 49:48 | |
| I think that's where we need to go into the world. | 49:52 | |
| Interviewer | As your talking I'm thinking | 49:58 |
| I would love to see this sculpture, Nancy, | 49:59 | |
| it sounds powerful, | 50:01 | |
| Nancy | Two parts are still in the kiln, | 50:04 |
| so when I get it put together, | 50:07 | |
| I'll send you a little photograph of it. | 50:10 | |
| Interviewer | I would so appreciate that. | 50:12 |
| Thank you. | 50:14 | |
| Nancy | But that's what I would re-imagine. | 50:16 |
| I think our world is in, I think it's a beautiful world, | 50:20 | |
| but I think that our geopolitical situation | 50:23 | |
| is terrifying. | 50:27 | |
| And I see at the basis of that | 50:30 | |
| so many things that need to be re-imagined. | 50:33 | |
| Class, economics, distribution of wealth, | 50:36 | |
| sexism, speciesism. | 50:39 | |
| (both laugh) | 50:47 | |
| I still swat mosquitoes but I stopped eating animals. | 50:48 | |
| (both laugh) | 50:50 | |
| All the -isms need to be examined so badly. | 50:57 | |
| Interviewer | Absolutely. | 51:01 |
| I have one last specific question for you. | 51:05 | |
| We are developing a re-imagining website | 51:07 | |
| and a lot of it is about making the different resources | 51:09 | |
| available, digitizing things, | 51:13 | |
| and I was just wondering if you had thoughts | 51:15 | |
| about what we should include or who would benefit from it, | 51:17 | |
| or connections we should make. | 51:21 | |
| Nancy | I'm glad to know it's not there, | 51:23 |
| because I've searched since I got your letter, | 51:24 | |
| I've searched all over trying to look for it. | 51:27 | |
| Interviewer | Oh sorry. | 51:28 |
| Nancy | I can't find it anywhere. | 51:29 |
| Interviewer | It won't be ready | 51:30 |
| until the end of the summer it looks like, | 51:31 | |
| we're having a web designer do it. | 51:32 | |
| And by the way, I will send you, when it's ready, | 51:36 | |
| I will send you a link to it. | 51:39 | |
| Nancy | Great. | 51:41 |
| Now your question was, what should be on it? | 51:42 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 51:44 |
| Nancy | The world. | 51:47 |
| I will love reading and seeing everything. | 51:51 | |
| But of course I would love to have a section | 51:56 | |
| on Re-Imagining through visual information. | 51:59 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 52:02 |
| Nancy | Like the St. Francis one. | 52:03 |
| Interviewer | Actually, if you would be willing, | 52:12 |
| you don't need to answer now, | 52:15 | |
| but we were thinking of making all kinds of | 52:16 | |
| links and resources and if you would be willing | 52:19 | |
| to have us link to anything you're doing | 52:21 | |
| I think that would add a lot. | 52:24 | |
| But you don't have to answer that now, | 52:25 | |
| you can think about that. | 52:27 | |
| Nancy | Yeah, it would depend on | 52:29 |
| what's required of me to do. | 52:30 | |
| Interviewer | Sure. | 52:32 |
| Nancy | And what kind of collection do I need | 52:33 |
| to pull together and how do I do that? | 52:38 | |
| I'm not-- I live up in the middle of a forest, | 52:40 | |
| and I don't have a lot of technology. | 52:45 | |
| Like I couldn't open your communal open office | 52:50 | |
| or whatever it was, Microsoft Office. | 52:51 | |
| Interviewer | Well while I'm thinking of it, | 52:55 |
| and once again you don't have to say now, | 52:57 | |
| but even a link, you said the website is outdated, | 52:58 | |
| but it has a lot of beautiful images | 53:01 | |
| and links to your books, | 53:04 | |
| would that be-- you can think about whether that | 53:06 | |
| would be something you would want to have linked. | 53:08 | |
| Nancy | Yeah, yeah, I'll talk it over | 53:10 |
| with my, like, crew. | 53:12 | |
| Interviewer | That sounds good, that sounds fair enough. | 53:14 |
| Nancy | May I look at my notes, just before we hang up? | 53:17 |
| Interviewer | Oh, please, I was gonna say | 53:20 |
| is there anything you'd like to add, | 53:22 | |
| 'cause I wanna hear it, you've said wonderful things. | 53:23 | |
| Nancy | I wanna know what happened | 53:25 |
| to Rita Nakashima Brock. | 53:26 | |
| Interviewer | She is at Brite Divinity School, | 53:28 |
| and I will be interviewing her in May. | 53:31 | |
| Nancy | I love her presentations. | 53:34 |
| Interviewer | Yes. Say some more about that, | 53:37 |
| I'd love to hear-- | 53:40 | |
| Nancy | Well, because she told her stories, | 53:41 |
| because she used her stories to talk about theology | 53:43 | |
| instead of talking about theology, | 53:48 | |
| you know, it was grounded in her life. | 53:52 | |
| It's the same old same old I've been trying to talk about, | 53:56 | |
| and I found that her, | 53:59 | |
| I found her fresh in the middle of a more academic | 54:04 | |
| collection of people. | 54:08 | |
| Interviewer | Yes. | 54:12 |
| May I have your permission to tell her that? | 54:16 | |
| Nancy | Of course! | 54:18 |
| Interviewer | I'd love to, I'm sure she would | 54:20 |
| appreciate hearing that. | 54:21 | |
| Nancy | You know, I'm sorry I haven't been reading | 54:23 |
| new work from her. | 54:28 | |
| I read the book about-- it wasn't original blessing | 54:29 | |
| but it was about, I can't see it on my bookshelf right now, | 54:33 | |
| it was about how the cross has not been the center | 54:38 | |
| of Christian art. | 54:43 | |
| And I was so happy she'd written that book. | 54:46 | |
| Interviewer | And she actually came after Re-Imagining | 54:54 |
| ended in 2003, she came, there was sort of like a reunion | 54:56 | |
| and she came and talked about that book and showed images, | 54:59 | |
| it was really interesting. | 55:02 | |
| Nancy | Yeah. | 55:03 |
| You asked at some point where did I start | 55:07 | |
| with feminist theology. | 55:11 | |
| Interviewer | Yeah! | 55:13 |
| Nancy | And I wrote down these notes, that, you know, | 55:14 |
| early on. | 55:17 | |
| I talked about the Vatican too. | 55:19 | |
| And it was Jesuits who came out of that, | 55:22 | |
| I think they were the beginning, | 55:25 | |
| but then I remember Beverly Harrison, | 55:27 | |
| and coming across her work and it having such | 55:30 | |
| an echo in my own life. | 55:35 | |
| And Elizabeth Johnson, especially She Who Is. | 55:38 | |
| And Texts of Terror. | 55:43 | |
| And I have gone through a terrible divorce, | 55:48 | |
| and the transition in that was really were I found | 55:52 | |
| that the power of men over women | 55:59 | |
| was something that had to be identified and fought. | 56:02 | |
| I found that in the end, women don't have a lot of | 56:08 | |
| credence I guess, cultural credence. | 56:15 | |
| And that's also when I became strongly women identified. | 56:22 | |
| I now, my partner Harriet has been with me since 1991. | 56:28 | |
| Interviewer | That's wonderful, and she's the one who | 56:33 |
| did the book Wisdom Searches with you? | 56:38 | |
| Nancy | Yeah. | 56:40 |
| Interviewer | Oh, how wonderful. | 56:41 |
| Nancy | It's a lovely story. | 56:44 |
| We ended up in Berkeley at the same time, | 56:48 | |
| and she came from Australia, | 56:51 | |
| and actually was my student. | 56:55 | |
| But we didn't do anything romantic until a year later. | 56:58 | |
| And then we were in a good relationship | 57:05 | |
| for 14 months, and then she went back to Australia, | 57:12 | |
| to her life there, | 57:16 | |
| and realized that she was being called to be my partner. | 57:18 | |
| Which scared the shit out of me. | 57:22 | |
| (both laugh) | 57:23 | |
| For goodness sakes. | 57:25 | |
| So that was going on while Re-Imagining was on also. | 57:30 | |
| This huge shift in my life, personally. | 57:34 | |
| Interviewer | I'm so happy for both of you. | 57:39 |
| Nancy | Thank you. | 57:43 |
| Yeah, we are very happy. | 57:45 | |
| We spend our days trying to bring God's love into the world. | 57:48 | |
| Interviewer | Well I can feel it talking to you, Nancy. | 57:57 |
| Nancy | Oh can you? | 58:00 |
| Thank you. | 58:01 | |
| Interviewer | I sure can, yes. | 58:02 |
| Is there anything else? | 58:06 | |
| You've said so many wonderful things. | 58:07 | |
| Did you wanna check your notes again? | 58:09 | |
| I just wanna make sure I give you | 58:11 | |
| a chance to mention everything. | 58:12 | |
| Nancy | Yes, I have one last thing. | 58:23 |
| Interviewer | Good. | 58:26 |
| Nancy | I think the challenges for Re-Imagining | 58:28 |
| have to be addressed. | 58:31 | |
| And you might be in a place to carry this forth. | 58:33 | |
| It's that ritual that we lost. | 58:37 | |
| In that first day, and then further down the road, | 58:41 | |
| because anything that seizes your heart and your mind | 58:46 | |
| is unstoppable. | 58:53 | |
| And the mind can't be seized by ideas alone. | 58:55 | |
| We have to be comfort-ize it in some way. | 58:59 | |
| In our body, in a sacred way. | 59:03 | |
| I'm thinking of people who are out on the lines fighting | 59:09 | |
| for Black Lives Matter, | 59:13 | |
| that they get this. | 59:15 | |
| Not the concepts, | 59:17 | |
| it's putting your life on the line. | 59:19 | |
| We don't need to put our lives on the line, | 59:22 | |
| we need to put our hearts on the line. | 59:24 | |
| And unless that happens, we're still doing | 59:31 | |
| dualistic thinking. | 59:38 | |
| So for unified thinking to happen, we need to ritualize | 59:41 | |
| the work itself. | 59:48 | |
| I taught a class on Sophia, | 59:53 | |
| one of my last classes I taught, | 59:55 | |
| and I actually made people spend five minutes | 59:57 | |
| at the beginning and five minutes at the end | 1:00:00 | |
| in prayer to Sophia, I used the Sophia blessing. | 1:00:03 | |
| And I said you don't have to believe this, | 1:00:08 | |
| you just have to do it. | 1:00:10 | |
| And watch what happens, see what happens to you. | 1:00:12 | |
| Maybe nothing, you may have a window, | 1:00:16 | |
| you may have a point of conversion, I don't know. | 1:00:19 | |
| But unless you do the work of prayer and action together, | 1:00:24 | |
| along with these ideas, they remain sterile. | 1:00:32 | |
| And what we were doing was making a book of ours, | 1:00:37 | |
| of prayers to Holy wisdom, we were using collage | 1:00:41 | |
| and writing poems with it, that was the work, of the class. | 1:00:45 | |
| And they had to read a book about Sophia | 1:00:50 | |
| that I wanted them to read. | 1:00:54 | |
| Interviewer | This sounds wonderful, and I'm curious, | 1:00:57 |
| did you get any reactions from people? | 1:00:59 | |
| About what that was like for them? | 1:01:02 | |
| Nancy | I only had it for five days. | 1:01:06 |
| Interviewer | Oh. | 1:01:08 |
| Nancy | It was an intensive class. | 1:01:10 |
| I had it for six hours a day for five days. | 1:01:13 | |
| At the end they had their books made. | 1:01:18 | |
| I have no idea what happened from it. | 1:01:20 | |
| Interviewer | It sounds like an amazing experience. | 1:01:24 |
| Nancy | You just put things out there | 1:01:27 |
| and where it goes, I don't know. | 1:01:29 | |
| Interviewer | Right? | 1:01:31 |
| Teaching's always like that isn't it. | 1:01:32 | |
| Nancy | It is. | 1:01:34 |
| The ideas are really cool, I'd be like, | 1:01:37 | |
| what do you think of this? | 1:01:38 | |
| Interviewer | Right. | 1:01:40 |
| Exactly. | 1:01:42 | |
| Nancy | What do you teach? | 1:01:43 |
| Interviewer | I teach theology and women's studies, | 1:01:44 |
| so mostly reformation, that's what I'm hired for, | 1:01:46 | |
| but I also teach a course | 1:01:49 | |
| on women in the Christian tradition. | 1:01:50 | |
| Nancy | Oh, that's exciting. | 1:01:52 |
| Listen, I have a wonderful paper cut out, | 1:01:55 | |
| I'll send a copy to you, | 1:01:57 | |
| a photograph of that if I can remember it, | 1:01:59 | |
| it's Mary Magdalene. | 1:02:01 | |
| Interviewer | Yes? | 1:02:02 |
| Nancy | And she's celebrating eucharist, | 1:02:04 |
| and with her parish. | 1:02:06 | |
| Interviewer | I would love to see this. | 1:02:09 |
| I would love that. | 1:02:11 | |
| Well I think I'm gonna end the recording now, | 1:02:14 | |
| if that's okay with you? | 1:02:16 | |
| Nancy | Sure. | 1:02:18 |
| Interviewer | Okay, I'm just turning it off now. | 1:02:19 |
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