Stephen J. Batten - "The Voice of God" (February 26, 1989)
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| (gentle organ music) | 0:01 | |
| (bright organ music) | 0:48 | |
| (singing in foreign language) | 3:11 | |
| - | Good morning and welcome to the service | 4:47 |
| of holy communion here at the chapel | 4:49 | |
| on this third Sunday of Lent. | 4:51 | |
| We are pleased to welcome each of you to this service | 4:53 | |
| and we also extend greeting to those of you in our radio | 4:55 | |
| and television audiences, | 4:58 | |
| especially those patients in Duke Hospital | 4:59 | |
| where the service is broadcast live each Sunday morning. | 5:02 | |
| We welcome to our pulpit this morning, | 5:06 | |
| Mr. Steven J. Batton, Trinity College class of '89. | 5:08 | |
| Mr. Batten has been invited to preach | 5:13 | |
| at this morning's service as the winner | 5:15 | |
| of this year's annual student preacher competition. | 5:17 | |
| He is a senior majoring in religion | 5:20 | |
| with an emphasis in Islamic studies. | 5:22 | |
| Stephen is also a student carillonneur | 5:25 | |
| and a former chapel attendant. | 5:28 | |
| We are grateful to all of those who have had a part | 5:30 | |
| to play at this year's competition | 5:33 | |
| as we look forward to Stephen's message this morning. | 5:35 | |
| This afternoon at five o'clock p.m. | 5:38 | |
| an organ recital will be presented by Mr. Peter Harford | 5:40 | |
| of St. Alban's Cathedral in England on the Flentrop organ. | 5:43 | |
| The public is invited to attend without charge. | 5:47 | |
| Please note the remaining announcements | 5:51 | |
| as they are printed in your bulletins. | 5:53 | |
| And now let us continue our worship. | 5:55 | |
| (bright organ music) | 5:58 | |
| ♪ I sing the mighty power of God ♪ | 6:40 | |
| ♪ That made the mountains rise, ♪ | 6:44 | |
| ♪ That spread the flowing seas abroad ♪ | 6:49 | |
| ♪ And built the lofty skies. ♪ | 6:54 | |
| ♪ I sing the wisdom that ordained ♪ | 7:00 | |
| ♪ The sun to rule the day ♪ | 7:05 | |
| ♪ The moon shines full at his command ♪ | 7:10 | |
| ♪ And all the stars obey ♪ | 7:15 | |
| ♪ I sing the goodness of the Lord, ♪ | 7:22 | |
| ♪ Who filled the earth with food, ♪ | 7:27 | |
| ♪ Who formed the creatures with his Word ♪ | 7:32 | |
| ♪ And then pronounced them good ♪ | 7:37 | |
| ♪ Lord, how thy wonders are displayed ♪ | 7:43 | |
| ♪ Where'er I turn my eye, ♪ | 7:48 | |
| ♪ If I survey the ground I tread ♪ | 7:53 | |
| ♪ Or gaze upon the sky ♪ | 7:58 | |
| (dramatic organ music) | 8:06 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 9:25 | |
| ♪ There's not a plant or flower below, ♪ | 9:34 | |
| ♪ But makes thy glories known, ♪ | 9:39 | |
| ♪ And clouds arise, and tempests blow ♪ | 9:44 | |
| ♪ By order from thy throne ♪ | 9:49 | |
| ♪ While all that borrows life from thee ♪ | 9:55 | |
| ♪ Is ever in thy care ♪ | 10:00 | |
| ♪ And everywhere that man can be ♪ | 10:06 | |
| ♪ Thou, God art present there ♪ | 10:11 | |
| - | When we gather to praise God, | 10:22 |
| we remember that we are a people | 10:25 | |
| who have preferred our own wills to the Lord's. | 10:27 | |
| Accepting God's power to become new persons in Christ, | 10:31 | |
| let us confess our sins before God and one another. | 10:34 | |
| Please be seated. | 10:39 | |
| Have mercy upon us oh God, | 10:52 | |
| according to thy loving kindness, | 10:55 | |
| according to the multitude of they tender mercies, | 10:58 | |
| blot out our transgressions. | 11:01 | |
| Wash us thoroughly from our iniquities, | 11:04 | |
| and cleanse us from our sins. | 11:07 | |
| For we acknowledge our transgressions | 11:09 | |
| and our sin is ever before us. | 11:12 | |
| Create in us clean hearts, O God | 11:15 | |
| and renew a right spirit within us. | 11:18 | |
| Through Jesus Christ our Lord, amen. | 11:21 | |
| Hear the good news. | 11:27 | |
| Christ died for us while we were yet sinners, | 11:29 | |
| that is God's own proof of his love toward us. | 11:33 | |
| In the name of Jesus Christ, you are forgiven. | 11:36 | |
| Congregation | In the name | 11:41 |
| of Jesus Christ you are forgiven. | 11:42 | |
| - | Will you pray with me the prayer for elimination. | 11:51 |
| All | Open our hearts and minds, oh God. | 11:55 |
| By the power of your Holy Spirit | 11:58 | |
| so that as the word is read and proclaimed, | 12:01 | |
| we might hear with joy, which you say to us this day. | 12:05 | |
| Amen. | 12:09 | |
| A reading from the book of Exodus. | 12:11 | |
| Now Moses was keeping the flock | 12:15 | |
| of his father-in-law Jethro, the priest of Midian. | 12:17 | |
| And he led his flock to the west side of the wilderness | 12:21 | |
| and came to Horeb the mountain of God. | 12:24 | |
| And the angel of the Lord appeared | 12:28 | |
| to him in a flame of fire | 12:30 | |
| out of the midst of a bush and he looked, | 12:32 | |
| and lo, the bush was burning yet it was not consumed. | 12:35 | |
| And Moses said, "I will turn aside | 12:41 | |
| "and see this great sight, why the bush is not burnt." | 12:44 | |
| When the Lord saw that he turned aside to see, | 12:49 | |
| God called to him out of the bush, Moses, Moses. | 12:52 | |
| And he said, "Here am I." | 12:57 | |
| Then God said, "Do not come near, | 13:02 | |
| "put off your shoes from your feet, | 13:05 | |
| "for the place on which you are standing is holy ground." | 13:07 | |
| And God said, "I am the God of your father, | 13:12 | |
| "the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, | 13:16 | |
| "and the God of Jacob." | 13:20 | |
| And Moses hid his face for he was afraid to look at God. | 13:23 | |
| Then the Lord said, "I have seen the affliction | 13:29 | |
| "of my people who are in Egypt | 13:32 | |
| "and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters. | 13:34 | |
| "I know their sufferings | 13:38 | |
| "and I have come down to deliver them | 13:40 | |
| "out of the hand of the Egyptians | 13:42 | |
| "and to bring them up out of that land | 13:44 | |
| "to a good and broad land, | 13:46 | |
| "a land flowing with milk and honey | 13:49 | |
| to the place of the Canaanites, the Hittites, | 13:51 | |
| "the Amorites, the Perezites, | 13:55 | |
| "the Hivites, and the Jebusites. | 13:58 | |
| "And now behold, the cry of the people | 14:02 | |
| "of Israel has come to me | 14:04 | |
| "and I have seen the oppression | 14:06 | |
| "with which the Egyptians oppress them. | 14:08 | |
| "Come, I will send you to Pharaoh | 14:11 | |
| "that you may bring forth my people, | 14:13 | |
| "the sons of Israel, out of Egypt." | 14:15 | |
| But Moses said to God, | 14:18 | |
| "Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh | 14:20 | |
| "and bring the sons of Israel out of Egypt. | 14:22 | |
| He said, "But I will be with you. | 14:25 | |
| "And this shall be the sign for you, that I have sent you. | 14:27 | |
| "When you have brought forth the people out of Egypt, | 14:32 | |
| "you shall serve God on this mountian." | 14:35 | |
| Then Moses said to God, | 14:39 | |
| "If I come to the people of Israel and say to them, | 14:41 | |
| "the God of your fathers has sent me to you, | 14:44 | |
| "and they ask me, what is the name of that one? | 14:46 | |
| "What shall I say to them." | 14:50 | |
| And God said to Moses, "I am who I am." | 14:53 | |
| And God said, "Say this to the people of Israel, | 14:58 | |
| "I am has sent me to you." | 15:03 | |
| God also said to Moses, "Say this to the people of Israel, | 15:06 | |
| "The Lord, the God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, | 15:10 | |
| "the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob has sent me to you. | 15:15 | |
| "This is my name forever, | 15:20 | |
| "and thus I am to be remembered throughout all generations." | 15:22 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 15:33 | |
| ♪ O my soul, bless God the Father ♪ | 15:57 | |
| ♪ All within me, bless his name ♪ | 16:03 | |
| ♪ Bless the Father, and forget not ♪ | 16:09 | |
| ♪ All His mercies to proclaim ♪ | 16:15 | |
| ♪ Who forgiveth my transgressions ♪ | 16:25 | |
| ♪ Who forgiveth my transgressions ♪ | 16:30 | |
| ♪ Thy diseases all who heals ♪ | 16:36 | |
| ♪ Thy diseases all who heals ♪ | 16:41 | |
| ♪ Who redeems thee from destruction ♪ | 16:47 | |
| ♪ Who with thee so kindly deals ♪ | 16:53 | |
| ♪ For as east from west is distant ♪ | 17:03 | |
| ♪ He hath put away our sin ♪ | 17:08 | |
| ♪ Like the pity of a father ♪ | 17:14 | |
| ♪ Hath the Lord's compassion been ♪ | 17:21 | |
| ♪ As it was in the beginning ♪ | 17:30 | |
| ♪ So it was without an end ♪ | 17:36 | |
| ♪ To the children's children ever ♪ | 17:42 | |
| ♪ Shall his righteousness descend ♪ | 17:49 | |
| ♪ Unto such as he gives covenant ♪ | 17:58 | |
| ♪ And on such as he gives grace ♪ | 18:04 | |
| ♪ And on such as he gives faith ♪ | 18:10 | |
| ♪ Unto those who still remember ♪ | 18:16 | |
| ♪ His commandments have no end ♪ | 18:22 | |
| ♪ Bless the Father, all his creatures ♪ | 18:32 | |
| ♪ Ever under his control ♪ | 18:38 | |
| ♪ All throughout his vast dominion ♪ | 18:45 | |
| ♪ Bless the Father, O my soul ♪ | 18:51 | |
| - | When I was a little kid, | 19:15 |
| growing up in eastern North Carolina, | 19:18 | |
| my father would occasionally read to me a bedtime story. | 19:23 | |
| My sister and I would sit in her bedroom | 19:27 | |
| and wait and Daddy would come in | 19:29 | |
| with a large black book entitled, | 19:31 | |
| 100 Bedtime Bible Stories for Children. | 19:34 | |
| Now, I'm familiar with the theory | 19:38 | |
| that it's noble to expose children to Scripture | 19:40 | |
| and the tenets of their faith from an early age. | 19:43 | |
| But the book was horrifying. | 19:46 | |
| All of the best stories, | 19:49 | |
| the stories with the color illustrations, | 19:50 | |
| were the scariest ones. | 19:52 | |
| The stories of Shadrach, Meshach | 19:54 | |
| and Abednego being cast into the furnace. | 19:56 | |
| The story of the plagues of Egypt, | 20:00 | |
| complete with rivers of blood, toads, | 20:02 | |
| and the Angel of Death. | 20:05 | |
| And the story of Moses and the burning bush. | 20:08 | |
| Now, I'm thinking back to a time when I was about five. | 20:12 | |
| And I'm just learning to live without a nightlight. | 20:16 | |
| I still have a security blanket and thinking back to that, | 20:18 | |
| the stories were a little more than I could bear. | 20:24 | |
| I would check my closet and under my bed, | 20:26 | |
| I occasionally even checked the bushes outside my window, | 20:30 | |
| lest they be on fire, | 20:33 | |
| God would come booming down into my bedroom | 20:35 | |
| and tell me to do something I didn't really want to do. | 20:38 | |
| But it was in the context of a bedtime story | 20:44 | |
| that I first heard the story of Moses and the burning bush. | 20:47 | |
| It is a story that we all have heard before, | 20:50 | |
| we heard it in lectionary for today, | 20:54 | |
| we've seen it on countless Sunday School flannel boards, | 20:56 | |
| we've even seen it on the silver screen | 20:59 | |
| with Charlton Heston portraying a decidedly waspish Moses. | 21:02 | |
| It is a story we know by heart. | 21:06 | |
| It is part of the canon. | 21:10 | |
| But for me the story | 21:13 | |
| of Moses and the burning bush holds a mystery, | 21:14 | |
| a relevance, a resonance, | 21:18 | |
| something that has continued to fascinate me, | 21:20 | |
| despite the fears of childhood because here, | 21:23 | |
| God speaks directly to one of us. | 21:27 | |
| A human being. | 21:31 | |
| There's no prophet to interpret an omen. | 21:33 | |
| Moses is hearing the voice of the very real, Almighty. | 21:37 | |
| And I would venture to say, that most of us here today, | 21:43 | |
| I know that I have, at times envied Moses his burning bush. | 21:47 | |
| For in an age that is sorely lacking in drama and mystery, | 21:54 | |
| where traditions of centuries are discarded daily | 22:00 | |
| without question as to whether they were good or bad, | 22:02 | |
| where the problems that we face are most often posed | 22:07 | |
| by our own achievements, | 22:10 | |
| a little solid direction from an indisputable source would | 22:12 | |
| at times be very welcome. | 22:16 | |
| It would be like having God as a consultant, | 22:20 | |
| or an academic advisor. | 22:22 | |
| Not only does he know the questions, he wrote the book. | 22:24 | |
| The advice is advice that in no way can be second guessed. | 22:28 | |
| Steering you clear of the bad parts of human existence | 22:31 | |
| and pointing you towards the better ones. | 22:35 | |
| The voice of God, unfortunately, | 22:38 | |
| is a little more tricky than that. | 22:40 | |
| Let's look back at Moses. | 22:41 | |
| Now, Moses had an alright childhood. | 22:43 | |
| True, he was put in a river, | 22:47 | |
| but he was found by a princess of the royal house of Egypt, | 22:48 | |
| he was given every advantage. | 22:51 | |
| True, he did murder a man, | 22:55 | |
| but when he did have to flee Egypt, | 22:56 | |
| he eventually landed on his feet like a cat. | 22:58 | |
| He's married, he has a family | 23:01 | |
| and he's peacefully tending his flocks in the Sinai desert. | 23:04 | |
| Moses is a murderer on the lam, but that's behind him | 23:09 | |
| and as he's tending his flocks he sees a burning bush. | 23:13 | |
| And a voice comes out of it, and the voice is God's. | 23:18 | |
| And it says, Moses, come here. | 23:22 | |
| Take of your shoes, sit still and listen, | 23:24 | |
| I have a job for you. | 23:26 | |
| Moses has to go back to Egypt where he's a wanted man, | 23:28 | |
| speak to a skeptical king, | 23:32 | |
| convince that king to let an unbelieving | 23:35 | |
| and suspectful people go, | 23:38 | |
| convince them that their God has not forgotten about them | 23:40 | |
| and lead them to a promised land | 23:43 | |
| that no one has ever seen before. | 23:45 | |
| And Moses has the impertinence to ask, why me. | 23:48 | |
| It's a human question. | 23:52 | |
| Moses is one of us. | 23:54 | |
| But it's not a debate. | 23:56 | |
| God has a commission. | 23:58 | |
| The commission has been given | 24:00 | |
| and it's up to Moses to do what has to be done. | 24:02 | |
| His life will never be the same. | 24:06 | |
| And that seems to be the voice of God for you. | 24:09 | |
| Because when you least expect it, | 24:12 | |
| God comes booming down telling you to do something | 24:14 | |
| that you didn't really think about in the first place | 24:17 | |
| and gives you terms that you have to live with. | 24:20 | |
| Our faith is full of people, | 24:23 | |
| people who heard the voice of God without asking to hear it. | 24:25 | |
| David, Saul, Joan of Arc if you will. | 24:28 | |
| People who heard the voice of the Almighty | 24:32 | |
| and afterwards found out that their lives have been wrenched | 24:34 | |
| from their control, their destinies | 24:37 | |
| and their fates taken beyond their own grasp. | 24:40 | |
| They often have met less than pleasant ends | 24:45 | |
| in their mortal lives. | 24:47 | |
| And yet I feel, and I think many of us here today, | 24:48 | |
| may wish to hear the voice of God. | 24:52 | |
| Despite documented examples of what may happen. | 24:56 | |
| Why? | 24:59 | |
| Well, we do live in an age that has increasingly little use | 25:01 | |
| for miracles or manifestations of the Almighty Divine. | 25:05 | |
| Skeptics that we are, we poke and we prod | 25:09 | |
| and we try to find a rational explanation | 25:12 | |
| for everything that passes in front of our senses. | 25:15 | |
| And realizing that a completely rational world | 25:19 | |
| may truly be a completely bleak world, | 25:22 | |
| wouldn't it be nice to have a little first hand experience | 25:26 | |
| that not only is God there, | 25:30 | |
| God is watching us and caring about us. | 25:34 | |
| And walking under a falling anvil | 25:37 | |
| and missing it by a matter of seconds | 25:39 | |
| and inches is not what I'm talking about. | 25:41 | |
| We'd like a little Hollywood God if you will, | 25:44 | |
| a burning bush, a column of smoke, a booming voice. | 25:46 | |
| A little irrefutably divine and magical evidence | 25:50 | |
| that not only is our Creator there, our Creator is active. | 25:55 | |
| The same line of reasoning carries us | 26:00 | |
| to another reason why we may wish | 26:02 | |
| to hear the voice of God, our own egos. | 26:04 | |
| Because surely, if God is going to speak | 26:08 | |
| to anyone of anyone, he's going to speak to one of us. | 26:11 | |
| We are the children of God and though made | 26:15 | |
| in the image of our Creator, | 26:17 | |
| we are each unmistakably unique. | 26:19 | |
| Only God can perfectly understand me, you, | 26:22 | |
| the life you live, the problems that we all have. | 26:27 | |
| Only God can answer those questions pertinent to ourselves. | 26:30 | |
| When I began to write this sermon, | 26:36 | |
| I was looking for a quote and rummaging | 26:38 | |
| through a box on my desk | 26:40 | |
| and I found a stack of papers | 26:42 | |
| that I had written freshman year. | 26:44 | |
| They're four years old now, they are painful to read | 26:48 | |
| and I was wondering, why did I save them? | 26:51 | |
| Very simply, when I entered Duke in 1985, | 26:56 | |
| I assumed that everything | 26:59 | |
| that I had ever written would someday be | 27:00 | |
| in demand for publication. | 27:02 | |
| (audience laughing) | 27:04 | |
| An early anthology of Stephen Batten if you will. | 27:05 | |
| The royalties would pour in, | 27:08 | |
| I would not have to interview for a job. | 27:10 | |
| May the 15th would hold no fear for me. | 27:12 | |
| But of course I found out otherwise. | 27:16 | |
| And it's that same kind of ego which made me think | 27:19 | |
| that my theology papers | 27:23 | |
| from Dr. Osborne's class were special. | 27:25 | |
| That makes me think that maybe God will speak to me, | 27:27 | |
| whether I'm a Moses or not. | 27:32 | |
| We also live in the post-Enlightenment Protestant Age | 27:36 | |
| where every person is expected to think for his or herself. | 27:38 | |
| And where the tenets of our faith are open to all. | 27:43 | |
| We are expected to come up with definite answers | 27:47 | |
| to questions not yet solved. | 27:50 | |
| Sometimes our preachers and priests, | 27:54 | |
| we relegate them to simply well-intentioned clerics | 27:56 | |
| instead of the authorities that they once were. | 28:00 | |
| And in this time it is up to the individual | 28:03 | |
| to think through the disturbing moments of faith. | 28:07 | |
| The results being highly individualistic explanations | 28:10 | |
| of who we are and the problems that we face | 28:14 | |
| in our own lives. | 28:17 | |
| As the heirs of the mismatched marriage of faith and reason, | 28:19 | |
| we want to hear God telling us | 28:23 | |
| that there are indeed universal answers | 28:25 | |
| to our own individual spiritual queries. | 28:28 | |
| And finally perhaps the time when we need | 28:32 | |
| to hear God the most is during those inevitable moments | 28:35 | |
| of pain and bereavement. | 28:38 | |
| When our Creator, as our parent, | 28:40 | |
| is seemingly no where to be found. | 28:42 | |
| Like abandoned children, we cry out. | 28:46 | |
| And in the episodes of pain and suffering | 28:49 | |
| which confront us in human existence, | 28:52 | |
| when no great majestic voice reaches forth the comfort | 28:54 | |
| to succor us, the silence is deafening. | 28:59 | |
| And like our Savior on the cross during the Passion, | 29:03 | |
| we cry, my God, hast thou forsaken me. | 29:06 | |
| This most telling line of the Passion has reverberated | 29:12 | |
| in us all at one time or another. | 29:16 | |
| Where is our God that the world we inhabit allows us | 29:20 | |
| to live miserably and sometimes die painfully. | 29:23 | |
| Where is our Creator that we are allowed to suffer, | 29:27 | |
| to hate and to be hated. | 29:30 | |
| And if, just if, all of this is inevitable, | 29:32 | |
| then like Moses, we have the impertinence to ask why. | 29:36 | |
| Not only do we ask the questions, we demand answers. | 29:42 | |
| We want to hear the voice of God. | 29:46 | |
| Two Christmases ago, I received a phone call | 29:51 | |
| from my mother telling me that my Aunt Madge had died. | 29:55 | |
| Now, it was I think the day before finals ended, | 30:01 | |
| so I still had one more to go. | 30:05 | |
| The news didn't really phase me, | 30:08 | |
| I had seen Madge four weeks earlier at Thanksgiving | 30:10 | |
| and I had just recently come to realize, I guess, | 30:15 | |
| that no one is forever and that we have to face death. | 30:19 | |
| And so, I went in took my final, I went home, | 30:23 | |
| and I prepared to drive to Virginia for the funeral. | 30:28 | |
| To truly understand why I'm telling you this, | 30:33 | |
| I have to try to recreate a little bit of my Aunt Madge. | 30:35 | |
| She was someone the likes | 30:38 | |
| of which you will probably never meet. | 30:39 | |
| I know no one else like her. | 30:43 | |
| Born and raised in southwestern Virginia and West Virginia, | 30:45 | |
| she was a woman of the mountains. | 30:49 | |
| She had a twang to her speech, | 30:51 | |
| an honesty that was unflinching. | 30:53 | |
| She would tell you how you looked no matter how you looked. | 30:55 | |
| When you asked her how she was doing she would tell you | 31:00 | |
| in no uncertain terms, starting with the hip, | 31:02 | |
| maybe going forward, it was who she was. | 31:05 | |
| She had a wicked sense of humor. | 31:09 | |
| Once when I was driving her to my grandmother's house | 31:12 | |
| for Thanksgiving and my 21 year old car broke down, | 31:15 | |
| as the wrecker lifted the front | 31:19 | |
| of the car pointing towards the heavens, | 31:20 | |
| Madge quietly began to hum, Nearer My God to Thee. | 31:22 | |
| (audience laughing) | 31:26 | |
| She didn't look at me, | 31:27 | |
| she said she enjoyed the view as she rode into Blacksburgh | 31:30 | |
| So I drove to the funeral. | 31:36 | |
| And funerals are never fun experiences, we all know that. | 31:38 | |
| And Madge's was no exception. | 31:43 | |
| After arriving in her small town of Henry, Virginia, | 31:48 | |
| at the house, we went up to the church | 31:52 | |
| which stood on a hill, still does stand on a hill. | 31:54 | |
| Probably no more than a tenth of a mile from her house. | 31:57 | |
| And having to file past a coffin | 32:02 | |
| and say goodbye to someone I loved, | 32:05 | |
| and then sit down in front of a congregation, grieving, | 32:08 | |
| was something that was not fun. | 32:12 | |
| It was an experience that I was trying | 32:16 | |
| to get through with as much composure as I could. | 32:18 | |
| And when the service was over | 32:22 | |
| and the pall had been borne out of the church, | 32:25 | |
| we drove back down through the valley of Henry | 32:28 | |
| and back out to the cemetery which is | 32:31 | |
| on another hill facing across the valley. | 32:33 | |
| And it was exactly like a funeral should be. | 32:37 | |
| It was straight out of a movie. | 32:39 | |
| It's a gray, cold windy day, a hint of snow, | 32:42 | |
| a mountain top cemetery. | 32:45 | |
| Muffled words. | 32:48 | |
| And we consigned Madge to her earthly resting place, | 32:51 | |
| filed past and drove back to the house. | 32:56 | |
| I was tired. | 33:00 | |
| More than tired, I was sick of being around people. | 33:02 | |
| I am not normally comfortable in large crowds | 33:05 | |
| and the house was getting crowded for my taste | 33:07 | |
| and so I went upstairs to get away | 33:10 | |
| from the noise of the family, | 33:12 | |
| to get away from the business of the will. | 33:15 | |
| And I went into the only heated bedroom upstairs, | 33:19 | |
| which was Madge's room. | 33:21 | |
| And I sat down. | 33:26 | |
| I cannot describe to you exactly what it felt like | 33:30 | |
| to sit in that room, it was alive. | 33:33 | |
| I had been in that room a million times since childhood | 33:37 | |
| and nothing had changed, from the chair that I sat in, | 33:39 | |
| to the quilt on the bed, to the old black phone | 33:43 | |
| on the bedside table, to the hairbrushes, to the smell, | 33:47 | |
| be it perfume or hairspray, I don't remember. | 33:52 | |
| That room talked to me of my aunt. | 33:55 | |
| And I felt sure that if just sat still | 34:02 | |
| and waited long enough, she'd talk to me. | 34:05 | |
| Not, because I was being ghoulish or anything, | 34:09 | |
| but because she hadn't been dead that long, | 34:12 | |
| she couldn't be that far away, she was someone I loved, | 34:15 | |
| she couldn't leave me. | 34:19 | |
| And so I waited. | 34:23 | |
| And I didn't hear a thing. | 34:26 | |
| And in the absence of hearing Madge's voice, | 34:28 | |
| in the absence of hearing anything at all, | 34:31 | |
| I wanted to hear the voice of God. | 34:34 | |
| I wanted to hear the voice of God, not to comfort me, | 34:37 | |
| I wanted to hear the voice of God telling me, | 34:41 | |
| telling me why someone I loved had to die. | 34:44 | |
| Forgetting that millions have grieved before me, | 34:48 | |
| billions even and will grieve after me. | 34:50 | |
| Forgetting that spouses grieve for each other, | 34:53 | |
| for their children, children for their parents, | 34:56 | |
| I wanted to know why. | 34:58 | |
| God, defend your actions to me, Stephen Batten, | 35:00 | |
| tell me exactly why someone I love has been taken from me. | 35:03 | |
| More than that, why do people die. | 35:07 | |
| Why is there pain, why are we here? | 35:09 | |
| And I closed my eyes and I waited. | 35:15 | |
| And I heard nothing. | 35:19 | |
| Nothing except the sound of my own voice beginning to cry | 35:21 | |
| and later I just went downstairs and drove home. | 35:24 | |
| Because for me there was no burning bush. | 35:28 | |
| There was no great majestic voice from God. | 35:32 | |
| And I don't mean to be a skeptic, and I'm not. | 35:38 | |
| But, I don't believe that many of us will be blessed | 35:42 | |
| with hearing the voice of God, not in the way Moses did. | 35:45 | |
| Audibly and perceptibly booming down and abase. | 35:49 | |
| Talking to us. | 35:53 | |
| I believe in miracles and if you explain something to me | 35:56 | |
| in terms of the divine, I'll accept it. | 35:59 | |
| I'll make it a miracle before anything else, | 36:02 | |
| but I just don't feel it's that likely. | 36:05 | |
| Because we want to hear our Lord, | 36:09 | |
| because we want to be held and comforted. | 36:11 | |
| We want to be reassured, that yes, we really do matter, | 36:14 | |
| and that yes we are beautiful if flawed creations | 36:18 | |
| and that yes, God actually watches each and everyone of us. | 36:21 | |
| We want to be told that this world, | 36:27 | |
| which experience teaches us is indifferent at best, | 36:28 | |
| is not really all that there is | 36:32 | |
| and that the unconditional love of God for man is more | 36:34 | |
| than a neatly turned phrase or a nicely interpreted text. | 36:38 | |
| We want to hear all of this and more but in order to do so, | 36:44 | |
| in order to hear anything, we have to hear it all. | 36:48 | |
| We have to hear not only what we want to hear, | 36:53 | |
| but what God has to say. | 36:55 | |
| And not all of it is pleasant. | 36:58 | |
| Certainly we were created in the image of God, | 37:00 | |
| but we fell from grace | 37:04 | |
| and every day we repeat the fall in our lives. | 37:05 | |
| True there is a life everlasting, | 37:08 | |
| but we must also suffer the death of our bodies | 37:10 | |
| and the pain of bereavement. | 37:13 | |
| Yes, the story and the life | 37:15 | |
| of Jesus the Christ is beautiful, | 37:17 | |
| and in a few weeks we will live | 37:19 | |
| through the sheer agony of Good Friday, | 37:21 | |
| knowing that Easter Sunday is just a day | 37:23 | |
| around the corner doesn't really help | 37:26 | |
| when we have to relive the moments | 37:29 | |
| of our Savior's crucifixion. | 37:31 | |
| In Christmas-tide we celebrated the miracle | 37:34 | |
| of the Incarnation, in this holy season of Lent, | 37:36 | |
| we remember our own mortality. | 37:40 | |
| If we truly wish to hear anything, | 37:44 | |
| we have to listen to it all. | 37:47 | |
| We have to listen to all that is both pleasing | 37:50 | |
| and unpleasing to our ears and then maybe, maybe, | 37:53 | |
| we begin to realize that we don't need a burning bush. | 37:57 | |
| That maybe we've had a burning bush. | 38:02 | |
| And that burning bush occurred | 38:06 | |
| in the miracle of God and man. | 38:08 | |
| In the Incarnation of the Christ. | 38:12 | |
| That is our burning bush. | 38:16 | |
| And like Moses, we have been commissioned by ours | 38:17 | |
| to lead the world out of the bondage of sin | 38:21 | |
| and the pain of human existence by loving the Lord our God, | 38:24 | |
| with all hearts and with all our souls | 38:30 | |
| and with all our minds | 38:33 | |
| and by loving our neighbors as ourselves. | 38:35 | |
| In hearing that commission, | 38:40 | |
| we realize that we've witnessed the greatest miracle of all. | 38:43 | |
| Certainly our egos have been sated. | 38:47 | |
| The Enlightenment, well, and we are not abandoned children. | 38:51 | |
| No, our Creator cared. | 38:57 | |
| And it was the care of that Creator | 38:59 | |
| that sent to us the Christ. | 39:01 | |
| In accepting that commission, | 39:04 | |
| we have indeed heard the voice of God. | 39:05 | |
| It is not the god of a Hollywood movie, | 39:11 | |
| or even a bedtime story that speaks to us in such a manner. | 39:15 | |
| It is not a Hollywood god which enjoins us | 39:22 | |
| to celebrate the commission we accept in baptism, | 39:25 | |
| by coming forward to receive the Eucharist, | 39:29 | |
| simple bread and simple wine, | 39:32 | |
| the body and blood of our Lord. | 39:34 | |
| Nope, it's not a Hollywood god. | 39:37 | |
| It is a patient God, | 39:40 | |
| a God who has over the millennia revealed not only the good | 39:43 | |
| but the bad, and who revealed the commission | 39:46 | |
| of the church and the Christian for all time. | 39:50 | |
| In short, the voice of God has already spoken for us today. | 39:53 | |
| And to simply reflect on it may not be as dramatic | 39:58 | |
| as a burning bush, a towering column of smoke, | 40:02 | |
| a booming voice. | 40:05 | |
| We may ask the questions, time and time again, | 40:09 | |
| but God has given us the answers. | 40:13 | |
| And I for one am not going to ask that they be repeated. | 40:16 | |
| - | The Lord be with you. | 40:35 |
| - | And with you. | |
| - | Let us pray. | 40:38 |
| Oh ever living God, high above yet deep within us, | 40:44 | |
| thou hast searched us and known us, and lovest us still. | 40:50 | |
| Such knowledge is too high, we cannot attain it. | 40:55 | |
| Yet trusting in thy eternal goodness, | 41:00 | |
| ever beyond our comprehension, | 41:03 | |
| yet as close to us as a whisper, | 41:06 | |
| we bring before thee our varied conditions and concerns, | 41:09 | |
| gratefully acknowledging the mystery | 41:13 | |
| and the depths of thy power to heal. | 41:15 | |
| We bring before thee, creating God, the needs of our bodies, | 41:20 | |
| we pray for all those weakened | 41:26 | |
| by the merciless plague of hunger and malnutrition, | 41:28 | |
| for all who are stricken with terminal illness | 41:33 | |
| or other disease, and especially for all patients | 41:35 | |
| at Duke Hospital and for their families. | 41:39 | |
| For all who discover in the process | 41:42 | |
| of aging that their bodies are failing them. | 41:44 | |
| We bring before thee redeeming God, the needs of our minds. | 41:50 | |
| We pray for all those involved in educational pursuits, | 41:55 | |
| students, teachers, administrators and staff. | 42:00 | |
| For all those suffering from the tyranny of mental illness. | 42:05 | |
| For all who seek to expand our minds, | 42:10 | |
| visionaries, explorers, creative artists. | 42:13 | |
| We bring before thee sustaining God, | 42:19 | |
| the needs of our relationships. | 42:22 | |
| We pray for all those embroiled in conflict. | 42:25 | |
| For all who suffer from a lack of relationships, | 42:30 | |
| and are burdened by a sense of loneliness, | 42:33 | |
| failure or despair. | 42:36 | |
| For all who are unable to trust | 42:39 | |
| and who have never been fully known by another. | 42:42 | |
| For all who have resisted the opportunity | 42:46 | |
| to love even thee gracious God | 42:49 | |
| and do not accept the acceptance that thou hast offered us. | 42:52 | |
| We lift these prayers before thee oh God, | 42:58 | |
| reassured that thou has searched us | 43:01 | |
| and known us and lovest us still. | 43:04 | |
| In the name of Jesus Christ we pray, amen. | 43:08 | |
| Remember the words of the Lord Jesus, | 43:14 | |
| how he said it is more blessed to give than to receive. | 43:16 | |
| Let us acknowledge the blessing of God in our lives | 43:21 | |
| as we offer our gifts and ourselves with thanksgiving. | 43:23 | |
| (soft organ music) | 43:29 | |
| (singing in foreign language) | 44:13 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 48:10 | |
| (bright organ music) | 49:20 | |
| ♪ Praise God from whom all blessings flow ♪ | 49:39 | |
| ♪ Praise him, all creatures here below ♪ | 49:49 | |
| ♪ Praise him above, ye heavenly host ♪ | 49:57 | |
| ♪ Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost ♪ | 50:05 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 50:15 | |
| - | The Lord be with you. | 50:34 |
| - | And also with you. | |
| - | Lift up your hearts. | 50:37 |
| - | Lift them up, O Lord. | |
| - | Let us give thanks to the Lord our God. | 50:40 |
| Congregation | It is right to give God thanks and praise. | 50:43 |
| - | It is right and a good a joyful thing always | 50:46 |
| and everywhere to give you thanks, | 50:49 | |
| Almighty God, Creator of heaven and earth. | 50:51 | |
| You brought all things into being and called them good. | 50:54 | |
| From the dust of the earth you formed us into your image | 50:58 | |
| and breathed into us the breath of life. | 51:01 | |
| When we turned away and our love failed, | 51:05 | |
| your love remains steadfast. | 51:07 | |
| When rain fell upon the earth 40 days and 40 nights, | 51:10 | |
| you bore up the ark on the waters, | 51:13 | |
| saved Noah and his family | 51:16 | |
| and established an everlasting covenant | 51:18 | |
| with every living creature upon the earth. | 51:20 | |
| When you delivered us from slavery | 51:23 | |
| and made us your covenant people, | 51:25 | |
| you lead Moses to your mountian | 51:27 | |
| for 40 days and 40 nights and gave us your teachings. | 51:29 | |
| You lead us through the wilderness for 40 years | 51:33 | |
| and brought us to the Promised Land. | 51:36 | |
| When we forsook your covenant you lead your prophet Elijah | 51:39 | |
| to your mountain where as he fasted 40 days | 51:42 | |
| and 40 nights he heard your still small voice. | 51:45 | |
| When you gave your only Son, Jesus Christ | 51:49 | |
| to save us from our sin, | 51:52 | |
| your Spirit led him into the wilderness | 51:54 | |
| where he fasted 40 days and 40 nights | 51:57 | |
| in preparation for his ministry. | 51:59 | |
| When he suffered and died on a cross for our sin, | 52:02 | |
| you raised him to life, presented him alive to the apostles | 52:05 | |
| during 40 days and exalted him at your right hand | 52:09 | |
| that we might be raised as the people of your new covenant, | 52:13 | |
| from sin and death to everlasting life. | 52:17 | |
| And now when we your people prepare | 52:20 | |
| for the yearly paschal feast | 52:23 | |
| of your Son's death and resurrection, | 52:25 | |
| you lead us to repentance for our sin | 52:27 | |
| and the cleansing of our hearts | 52:30 | |
| that during these 40 days of Lent we may become prepared | 52:32 | |
| to renew our covenant with you. | 52:36 | |
| Therefore, with your people in all ages | 52:38 | |
| and the whole company of heaven we join in the song | 52:41 | |
| of unending praise, saying, | 52:44 | |
| All | Holy, holy, holy, Lord, God of power and might. | 52:47 |
| Heaven and earth are full of your glory, | 52:51 | |
| hosanna in the highest. | 52:54 | |
| Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord. | 52:56 | |
| Hosanna in the highest. | 52:59 | |
| - | Truly holy are you and blessed is your Son, Jesus Christ. | 53:01 |
| On the night his disciples betrayed and deserted him, | 53:06 | |
| he took bread, gave thanks to you, broke the bread, | 53:09 | |
| gave it to his disciples and said, | 53:13 | |
| "Take, eat, this is my body which is given for you. | 53:15 | |
| "Do this in remembrance of me." | 53:19 | |
| When the supper was over, he took the cup. | 53:22 | |
| Gave thanks to you, gave to his disciples and said, | 53:25 | |
| "Drink from this all of you, | 53:28 | |
| "for this is my blood of the New Covenant, | 53:30 | |
| "poured out for you | 53:32 | |
| "and for many for the forgiveness of sins. | 53:33 | |
| "Do this as often as you drink it in remembrance of me." | 53:37 | |
| Therefore in remembrance | 53:43 | |
| of all your mighty acts in Jesus Christ, | 53:45 | |
| we ask you to accept this our sacrifice of praise | 53:48 | |
| and thanksgiving which we offer in union | 53:51 | |
| with Christ' sacrifice for us as a living | 53:54 | |
| and holy surrender of ourselves. | 53:57 | |
| Send the power of your Holy Spirit on us | 54:00 | |
| and on these gifts that in the breaking of this bread, | 54:02 | |
| the drinking of this wine, | 54:06 | |
| we may know the presence of the living Christ. | 54:08 | |
| Be one body in him, cleansed by his blood, | 54:10 | |
| faithfully serve him in the world | 54:13 | |
| and look forward to his coming in final victory. | 54:16 | |
| Through him, with him, in him, | 54:19 | |
| in the unity of the Holy Spirit, | 54:23 | |
| all honor and glory is yours Almighty God, now and forever. | 54:25 | |
| All | Amen. | 54:30 |
| Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. | 54:31 | |
| Thy kingdom come. | 54:36 | |
| Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. | 54:37 | |
| Give us this day our daily bread | 54:41 | |
| and forgive us our trespasses, | 54:43 | |
| as we forgive those who trespass against us | 54:45 | |
| and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. | 54:48 | |
| For thine is the kingdom, | 54:52 | |
| the power and the glory forever, amen. | 54:54 | |
| - | The gifts of God for the people of God. | 55:06 |
| (singing in foreign language) | 56:34 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 58:52 | |
| ♪ Here, O my Lord, I see thee face to face ♪ | 59:23 | |
| ♪ Here would I touch and handle things unseen ♪ | 59:30 | |
| ♪ Here grasp with firmer hand eternal grace ♪ | 59:37 | |
| ♪ And all my weariness upon thee lean ♪ | 59:44 | |
| ♪ This is the hour of banquet and of song ♪ | 59:53 | |
| ♪ This is the heavenly table spread for me ♪ | 59:59 | |
| ♪ Here let me feast, and feasting, still prolong ♪ | 1:00:06 | |
| ♪ The brief, bright hour of fellowship with thee ♪ | 1:00:13 | |
| ♪ Here would I feed upon the bread of God ♪ | 1:00:23 | |
| ♪ Here drink with Thee the royal wine of heav'n ♪ | 1:00:30 | |
| ♪ Here would we lay aside each earthly load, ♪ | 1:00:37 | |
| ♪ Here taste afresh the calm of sin forgiv'n. ♪ | 1:00:44 | |
| ♪ Too soon we rise, the symbols disappear; ♪ | 1:00:54 | |
| ♪ The feast, though not the love, is past and done; ♪ | 1:01:01 | |
| ♪ Gone are the bread and wine, but thou art here, ♪ | 1:01:08 | |
| ♪ Nearer than ever, still my Shield and Sun. ♪ | 1:01:15 | |
| ♪ Feast after feast thus comes, and passes by ♪ | 1:01:25 | |
| ♪ Yet passing, points to the glad feast above ♪ | 1:01:32 | |
| ♪ Giving sweet foretaste of the festal joy ♪ | 1:01:38 | |
| ♪ The Lamb's great bridal feast of bliss and love ♪ | 1:01:45 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 1:01:59 | |
| (singing in foreign language) | 1:02:51 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 1:09:52 | |
| ♪ Let all mortal flesh keep silence ♪ | 1:10:24 | |
| ♪ And with fear and trembling stand ♪ | 1:10:31 | |
| ♪ Ponder nothing earthly minded ♪ | 1:10:38 | |
| ♪ For with blessing in his hand ♪ | 1:10:45 | |
| ♪ Christ our God to earth descending ♪ | 1:10:52 | |
| ♪ Comes our homage to demand ♪ | 1:11:01 | |
| ♪ King of kings, yet born of Mary ♪ | 1:11:10 | |
| ♪ As of old on earth he stood ♪ | 1:11:17 | |
| ♪ Lord of lords, in human vesture ♪ | 1:11:24 | |
| ♪ In the body and the blood ♪ | 1:11:30 | |
| ♪ He will give to all the faithful ♪ | 1:11:37 | |
| ♪ His own self for heavenly food ♪ | 1:11:46 | |
| ♪ Rank on rank the host of heaven ♪ | 1:11:56 | |
| ♪ Spreads its vanguard on the way ♪ | 1:12:02 | |
| ♪ As the Light of light descendeth ♪ | 1:12:08 | |
| ♪ From the realms of endless day ♪ | 1:12:14 | |
| ♪ Comes the powers of hell to vanquish ♪ | 1:12:21 | |
| ♪ As the darkness clears away ♪ | 1:12:30 | |
| - | Pour out upon is the spirit of your love oh, Lord, | 1:12:44 |
| and unite the wills of those whom you have fed | 1:12:47 | |
| with one heavenly food | 1:12:50 | |
| through Jesus Christ our Lord we pray, amen. | 1:12:52 | |
| And now may the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, | 1:12:57 | |
| the love of God and the communion of the Holy Spirit be | 1:12:59 | |
| with you all now and forevermore, amen. | 1:13:02 | |
| (gentle organ music) | 1:13:10 | |
| ♪ For the bread which thous hast broken, ♪ | 1:13:36 | |
| ♪ For the wine which thou hast poured ♪ | 1:13:42 | |
| ♪ For the words which thous hast spoken ♪ | 1:13:48 | |
| ♪ Now we give you thanks, O Lord ♪ | 1:13:54 | |
| ♪ By this pledge that thou dost love us ♪ | 1:14:03 | |
| ♪ By thy gift of peace restored ♪ | 1:14:08 | |
| ♪ By thy call to heaven above us ♪ | 1:14:14 | |
| ♪ Hallow all our lives, O Lord ♪ | 1:14:20 | |
| ♪ With our sainted ones in glory ♪ | 1:14:29 | |
| ♪ Seated at the heavenly board ♪ | 1:14:35 | |
| ♪ May the church that's waiting for you ♪ | 1:14:41 | |
| ♪ Keep love's tie unbroken, Lord ♪ | 1:14:47 | |
| ♪ In thy service, Lord, defend us ♪ | 1:14:56 | |
| ♪ In our hearts keep watch and ward ♪ | 1:15:02 | |
| ♪ In the world where you have sent us ♪ | 1:15:07 | |
| ♪ Let thy kingdom come, O Lord ♪ | 1:15:14 | |
| (somber organ music) | 1:15:22 | |
| (bright organ music) | 1:17:06 | |
| (people chattering) |
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