Edwin R. Garrison - "Lent Is for Rehearsal Thinking" (March 16, 1975)
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| (mellow music playing) | 0:03 | |
| - | Now unto the king eternal, immortal, | 3:49 |
| invisible, the only wise God be honored | 3:53 | |
| and gloried forever and ever, amen. | 3:58 | |
| Let us pray. | 4:02 | |
| Oh the high and lofty one who inhabited eternity, | 4:06 | |
| whose name is Holy, | 4:12 | |
| who dwellers in the high and holy place, | 4:14 | |
| with those also have contrite and humble spirit, | 4:18 | |
| speak now thy word to us in Jesus Christ, | 4:22 | |
| full of grace and truth. | 4:26 | |
| To renew us in humility and faith, | 4:29 | |
| and awaken us to new life of grateful devotion, | 4:33 | |
| let thy present spirit unite our spirits in true worship, | 4:38 | |
| obedient, love, and faithful discipleship. | 4:44 | |
| Oh Lord open our lips that our mouths may show forth | 4:49 | |
| thy praise through Jesus Christ our Lord, amen. | 4:54 | |
| (uplifting music) | 5:04 | |
| In the presence of God, in the realization of his goodness | 8:40 | |
| and his grace, in company with one another, | 8:46 | |
| we offer our unison prayer of confession. | 8:52 | |
| Let us pray. | 8:55 | |
| Forgive us oh Lord. | 9:00 | |
| We acknowledge ourselves as type of the common man, | 9:02 | |
| of the men and women who shut the door and sit by the fire, | 9:06 | |
| who fear the blessing of God, | 9:11 | |
| the loneliness of the night of God. | 9:14 | |
| The surrender required the deprivation inflicted, | 9:17 | |
| who fear the injustice of men less than the justice of God, | 9:22 | |
| who fear the hand at the window, the fire in the thatch, | 9:28 | |
| the fist in the tavern, the push into the canal, | 9:33 | |
| less than we fear the love of God. | 9:38 | |
| We acknowledge our trespass, our weakness, our fault. | 9:42 | |
| We acknowledge that the sin of the world is upon our heads, | 9:49 | |
| that the blood of martyrs and the agony of his saints | 9:54 | |
| is upon our heads. | 9:59 | |
| Lord have mercy upon us, | 10:02 | |
| Christ have mercy upon us, | 10:05 | |
| Lord have mercy up on us. | 10:10 | |
| Now may our Lord Jesus Christ himself, | 10:26 | |
| and God our father who loved us and gave us eternal comfort | 10:29 | |
| and good hope through grace. | 10:35 | |
| Comfort our hearts and establish them | 10:38 | |
| in every good work and word, amen. | 10:41 | |
| (uplifting music) | 10:53 | |
| ♪ We sing to him whose wisdom ♪ | 11:51 | |
| ♪ Our songs let him who gave us voices hear ♪ | 11:59 | |
| ♪ We joy in God, who is the spring of mirth ♪ | 12:09 | |
| ♪ Who loves the harmony of heaven and earth ♪ | 12:17 | |
| ♪ Our humble sonnets shall that praise rehearse ♪ | 12:27 | |
| ♪ Who is the music of the universe ♪ | 12:36 | |
| ♪ And whilst we sing, and whilst we sing ♪ | 12:47 | |
| ♪ We consecrate our art ♪ | 12:51 | |
| ♪ And offer up with every tongue a heart ♪ | 12:55 | |
| ♪ And whilst we sing, and whilst we sing ♪ | 13:00 | |
| ♪ We consecrate our art ♪ | 13:06 | |
| ♪ And offer up and offer up, with every tongue a heart ♪ | 13:10 | |
| ♪ And whilst we sing, and whilst we sing ♪ | 13:19 | |
| ♪ We consecrate our art ♪ | 13:24 | |
| ♪ And offer up and offer up, with every tongue a heart ♪ | 13:29 | |
| - | The old Testament lesson is found in the book of Isaiah, | 13:59 |
| the 53rd chapter. | 14:03 | |
| Who has believed what we have heard | 14:08 | |
| and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed, | 14:11 | |
| For he grew up before him like a young plant | 14:16 | |
| and like a root out of dry ground. | 14:20 | |
| He had no form or comeliness that we should look at him | 14:23 | |
| and no beauty that we should desire him. | 14:28 | |
| He was despised and rejected by men, | 14:32 | |
| a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. | 14:36 | |
| And as one from whom men hide their faces, | 14:40 | |
| he was despised and we esteemed him not. | 14:43 | |
| Surely he has born our and carried our sorrows. | 14:48 | |
| Yet, we esteemed him stricken smitten by God and afflicted, | 14:54 | |
| but he was wounded for our transgressions, | 15:01 | |
| he was bruised for our iniquities. | 15:04 | |
| upon him was the chastisement that made us whole, | 15:07 | |
| and with his stripes, we are healed. | 15:11 | |
| All we like sheep have gone astray, | 15:16 | |
| we've turned everyone to his own way. | 15:19 | |
| And the Lord has laid on him, the iniquity of us all, | 15:22 | |
| he was oppressed and he was afflicted. | 15:27 | |
| Yet, he opened not his mouth, | 15:31 | |
| like a lamb that is led to the slaughter | 15:34 | |
| and like a sheep that before its shearers is dumb. | 15:36 | |
| So he opened not his mouth. | 15:40 | |
| By oppression and judgment, he was taken away. | 15:44 | |
| And as for his generation who considered that he was cut off | 15:48 | |
| out of the land of the living stricken for the transgression | 15:53 | |
| of my people. | 15:57 | |
| And they made his grave with the wicked | 15:59 | |
| and with a rich man in his death, | 16:01 | |
| although he had done no violence and there was no deceit | 16:04 | |
| in his mouth, yet it was the will of the Lord to bruise him, | 16:09 | |
| he has put him to grief. | 16:16 | |
| When he makes himself an offering for sin, | 16:19 | |
| he shall see his offspring, | 16:22 | |
| he shall prolong his days. | 16:25 | |
| The will of the Lord shall prosper in his hand, | 16:27 | |
| he shall see the fruit of the travel | 16:31 | |
| of his soul and be satisfied. | 16:33 | |
| By his knowledge shall the righteous one, | 16:36 | |
| my servant make many to be accounted righteous | 16:39 | |
| and he shall bear their iniquities. | 16:43 | |
| Therefore, I will divide him a portion with the great, | 16:47 | |
| and he shall divide the spoil with the strong, | 16:51 | |
| because he poured out his soul to death | 16:55 | |
| and was numbered with the transgressors. | 16:58 | |
| Yet he bore the sin of many and made intercession | 17:01 | |
| for the transgressors. | 17:06 | |
| That's a stand for the reading of the gospel. | 17:10 | |
| The gospel lesson is from the 16th chapter of the gospel | 17:21 | |
| according to Matthew, the 13th through the 25th verses. | 17:25 | |
| Now, when Jesus came into the district of Caesarea Philippi, | 17:32 | |
| he asked his disciples, | 17:37 | |
| "Who do men say that the son of man is?" | 17:39 | |
| And they said, "Some say John, the Baptist, | 17:43 | |
| others say Elijah and others, Jeremiah, | 17:46 | |
| or one of the prophets." | 17:50 | |
| And he said to them, "And who do you say that I am?" | 17:52 | |
| Simon Peter replied, "You are the Christ, | 17:57 | |
| the son of the living God." | 18:01 | |
| And Jesus answered him, | 18:04 | |
| "Blessed are you Simon Bar Jonah for flesh and blood | 18:06 | |
| has not revealed this to you, | 18:11 | |
| but my father who is in heaven, | 18:14 | |
| and I tell you, you are Peter. | 18:17 | |
| And on this rock, | 18:21 | |
| I will build my church and the powers of death | 18:23 | |
| shall not prevail against it. | 18:25 | |
| I will give you the keys of the kingdom | 18:28 | |
| and whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven. | 18:31 | |
| And whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven." | 18:34 | |
| Then he strictly charged the disciples to tell no one, | 18:38 | |
| but he was the Christ. | 18:42 | |
| From that time, Jesus began to show his disciples | 18:45 | |
| that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things | 18:48 | |
| from the elders and chief priests and scribes and be killed. | 18:52 | |
| And on the third day he raised and Peter took him | 18:58 | |
| and began to rebuke him saying, "God forbid, Lord, | 19:01 | |
| this shall never happen to you." | 19:05 | |
| But he turned and said to Peter, "Get behind me, Satan, | 19:08 | |
| you are a hindrance to me for you are not on the side | 19:13 | |
| of God, but of men." | 19:15 | |
| Then Jesus told his disciples. | 19:19 | |
| "If any man would come after me, | 19:21 | |
| let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me, | 19:24 | |
| for whoever would save his life will lose it. | 19:32 | |
| And whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." | 19:36 | |
| Amen. | 19:43 | |
| (uplifting music) | 19:45 | |
| Let us affirm our faith. | 20:29 | |
| We are not alone. | 20:33 | |
| We live in God's world. | 20:35 | |
| We believe in God who has created and is creating, | 20:38 | |
| who has come in the true man Jesus | 20:44 | |
| to reconcile and make new, | 20:47 | |
| who works in us and others by his spirit. | 20:50 | |
| We trust him, he calls us to be his church, | 20:55 | |
| to celebrate his precedence, | 21:00 | |
| to love and serve others, to seek justice and resist evil, | 21:02 | |
| to proclaim Jesus crucified and risen, | 21:08 | |
| our judge and our hope in life, in death, | 21:13 | |
| in life beyond death. | 21:18 | |
| God is with us we are not alone. | 21:21 | |
| Thanks be to God. | 21:25 | |
| The Lord be with you. | 21:28 | |
| Let us pray. | 21:32 | |
| Oh, eternal God our creator and our father | 21:44 | |
| who has given us life in this thy world, | 21:50 | |
| among thy many peoples and nations, | 21:52 | |
| we praise and bless thee for thy good earth | 21:57 | |
| on which we constantly depend | 22:01 | |
| for the sustaining of our life. | 22:03 | |
| and thus depend on thee. | 22:06 | |
| Keep us responsible and faithful in this thankfulness | 22:09 | |
| that we may not selfishly destroy | 22:17 | |
| and exploit this one earth. | 22:18 | |
| And move us all God to share its blessings | 22:22 | |
| with all thy needy children, now, and yet to come. | 22:26 | |
| Oh God creator, we thank thee for giving us life together | 22:31 | |
| in deep belongings to families and communities, | 22:37 | |
| through which our needs are met, our love we vote. | 22:43 | |
| The welfare of thy children served and justice sought, | 22:47 | |
| enable us to know our belonging to all peoples | 22:54 | |
| and to seek for ways to live in peace and joy together. | 22:57 | |
| Oh God creator we're grateful for the gift of minds | 23:04 | |
| to seek understanding of thy world, | 23:08 | |
| of thy truth of thy ways among us, | 23:11 | |
| for the heritage of human learning and the faithfulness | 23:15 | |
| to fact, and the search for further light. | 23:20 | |
| Let our knowledge and understanding become wisdom | 23:25 | |
| in thy way that we may know what is good for all | 23:29 | |
| and follow it for their sake. | 23:35 | |
| Oh eternal God manifests savingly in Jesus Christ, our Lord, | 23:39 | |
| that life which was the light of all mankind. | 23:45 | |
| We praise thee for the new life together, | 23:50 | |
| to which he brings us in which he incorporates us, | 23:55 | |
| in which he constantly calls us to deny ourselves | 24:00 | |
| and take up our cross and follow him. | 24:05 | |
| Save us then oh Lord from petty preoccupation, | 24:10 | |
| with our enjoyments our privileges our fulfillments, | 24:15 | |
| our needs, and disturb and change us | 24:22 | |
| to self giving devotion, | 24:25 | |
| to sharing in his ministry of reconciliation, | 24:28 | |
| of going about doing good, of seeking and helping the lost, | 24:31 | |
| and troubled, and suffering. | 24:37 | |
| Oh eternal God present spirit | 24:41 | |
| working here among us in the establishing guiding reforming | 24:45 | |
| of thy church, awaken us to thy presence | 24:52 | |
| and remake us for the tasks committed to us. | 24:57 | |
| Let thy spirit bring to light our sin, | 25:02 | |
| challenge our complacency rebuke and transform | 25:07 | |
| our prejudice, illuminates our blindness with new sight, | 25:13 | |
| to see our ways and thy way, | 25:18 | |
| move us to love and serve together. | 25:22 | |
| Let thy spirit give comfort and strength | 25:29 | |
| to those in suffering and despair in discouragement | 25:34 | |
| and failure, in temptation and sin. | 25:39 | |
| Let thy spirit strengthen all those who minister | 25:46 | |
| to such needs of body and spirit in hospital, | 25:49 | |
| home, or church, | 25:52 | |
| speaking or doing thy healing, helping work. | 25:54 | |
| give us that vulnerable openness | 26:00 | |
| to the struggles, the poverty, the famine, | 26:04 | |
| and starvation of thy troubled children in this world, | 26:07 | |
| that we may be continually awakened to profound concern, | 26:12 | |
| intelligent caring, sacrificial sharing | 26:17 | |
| of the goods of life, we so boundlessly enjoy. | 26:21 | |
| Give us the joy of new life in this ministering community | 26:26 | |
| that we may help one another to restrain our self seeking | 26:32 | |
| to sharpen our sensitivity, | 26:38 | |
| to envision vine mission and ministry for us, | 26:39 | |
| following him who came not to be ministered unto, | 26:44 | |
| but to minister and to give his life | 26:48 | |
| for the new life of others. | 26:51 | |
| And now as our savior Christ has taught us, | 26:55 | |
| we pray together. | 26:59 | |
| Our father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, | 27:01 | |
| thy kingdom come, | 27:07 | |
| thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. | 27:09 | |
| Give us this day our daily bread | 27:14 | |
| and forgive us our trespasses, | 27:17 | |
| as we forgive those who trespass against us | 27:20 | |
| and lead us not into temptation, | 27:23 | |
| but deliver us from evil, for thine is the kingdom | 27:26 | |
| and the power and the glory forever, amen. | 27:29 | |
| - | In the name of the father and of the son | 27:51 |
| and of the holy spirit, amen. | 27:55 | |
| Passenger train rolling across Northern Indiana | 28:03 | |
| struck a gasoline truck and tank trailers | 28:07 | |
| splitting them apart. | 28:10 | |
| The diesel was drenched with burning gasoline, | 28:13 | |
| there was a furious fire on either side of the track, | 28:17 | |
| but the train ran on until the last car | 28:21 | |
| had cleared the blazing crossing. | 28:25 | |
| The critically burned engineer could not be quieted | 28:29 | |
| until he was assured that all the passengers were safe. | 28:35 | |
| And then he said, "Well, thank God, thank God, | 28:40 | |
| for years, I have imagined this kind of an accident, | 28:46 | |
| and I had always known that if it did happen, | 28:50 | |
| I must never touched the brakes until the last coach | 28:57 | |
| had passed the fire." | 29:02 | |
| He had imagined he had projected himself into the situation, | 29:07 | |
| he had made up his mind. | 29:15 | |
| It was this rehearsal thinking which had saved lives | 29:19 | |
| in the moment of crisis. | 29:24 | |
| Well, of course we do rehearsal thinking every day, | 29:29 | |
| I suppose, in all kinds of situations, | 29:31 | |
| preparation for exams at its best is not panic, cramming, | 29:36 | |
| but thoughtful consideration of what is the essence | 29:41 | |
| of the course. | 29:43 | |
| Before the excitement of the ball game, | 29:46 | |
| the team members quietly think through their strategy, | 29:49 | |
| the surgeon scrubbing before the operation, | 29:55 | |
| reviews his procedures and lamp provides opportunity | 29:59 | |
| for our rehearsal thinking about the ultimate issues | 30:05 | |
| of our lives. | 30:09 | |
| As we watched Jesus press toward Jerusalem and the cross, | 30:12 | |
| we project ourselves into the scene. | 30:17 | |
| We are there with the disciples, listening to Jesus. | 30:22 | |
| Those 12 persons wanted to follow Jesus, | 30:28 | |
| but they were afraid of what people would say, so are we. | 30:32 | |
| They bought the idea that the Messiah would come | 30:37 | |
| as a conquering hero to make everything all right. | 30:42 | |
| Often our idea of God is a kind of a big daddy. | 30:48 | |
| We see what happened to Jesus and his disciples. | 30:54 | |
| And we ask ourselves, am I ready for that? | 30:57 | |
| For one thing, we need this rehearsal thinking | 31:07 | |
| because we've so much inner conflict. | 31:09 | |
| St. Paul call on Christians to be good soldiers | 31:14 | |
| of Jesus Christ. | 31:17 | |
| But they experienced that a good many of us have | 31:19 | |
| is that we're more like a battlefield than soldiers | 31:22 | |
| with our good and evil impulses fighting | 31:26 | |
| for the mastery of our soul. | 31:29 | |
| Our interior battle is personified in the dramatic | 31:33 | |
| confrontation between Jesus and Peter. | 31:37 | |
| Jesus was saying that he must suffer many things | 31:41 | |
| and be killed. | 31:44 | |
| When Peter blurted, "God forbid, Lord, | 31:46 | |
| this shall never happen to you. | 31:50 | |
| The masters reply is akin to violence. | 31:55 | |
| "Get thy behind me, you Satan, you're a hindrance to me, | 31:59 | |
| you're not on the side of God, but of men." | 32:04 | |
| The vehemence of Jesus is all the more startling | 32:09 | |
| because moments before he had praise Peter | 32:12 | |
| for his declaration of faith, that Jesus was the Messiah. | 32:16 | |
| But Peter had used the term Messiah in the context | 32:23 | |
| of his inherited belief. | 32:28 | |
| That Messiah would be an invincible military leader | 32:30 | |
| come to set the people free, | 32:34 | |
| suffering had no place in that picture. | 32:37 | |
| My rehearsal thinking reveals that this conflict | 32:43 | |
| is a battle front that runs right through my life. | 32:46 | |
| On the one hand, I feel that Jesus was right, | 32:50 | |
| that he who takes a sword, | 32:55 | |
| will perish by the sword, | 32:57 | |
| that the meek do inherit the earth. | 33:01 | |
| That the people who really experience abiding joy | 33:03 | |
| and a sense of fulfillment, are the humble, the merciful, | 33:06 | |
| the pure in heart, | 33:13 | |
| the kind of people who show Goodwill even to their enemies, | 33:15 | |
| yet they're persecuted, jailed, killed, | 33:20 | |
| the cost frightens me. | 33:26 | |
| On the other hand, I want ease and pleasure, | 33:29 | |
| there are hungry people everywhere. I know, | 33:34 | |
| but I wanna eat my fill, | 33:38 | |
| I don't wanna make sacrifices for the people | 33:39 | |
| on the other side of the tracks. | 33:42 | |
| I want my children to go to the top, | 33:45 | |
| no matter who's head they bruise or hearts they break. | 33:48 | |
| If I got ahead by pushing other people around what happened? | 33:53 | |
| I have no bleeding heart. | 33:57 | |
| So the battle rages between my two selves, | 34:02 | |
| as I survey the passion of Jesus and consider | 34:07 | |
| my response to it. | 34:11 | |
| Watching the drama unfold, | 34:16 | |
| I see that Jesus was tempted and tried as I am. | 34:17 | |
| Right down, to Gethsemane he prayed that the cross | 34:23 | |
| might not be necessary, | 34:26 | |
| you remember his temptation in the wilderness. | 34:29 | |
| He could have ease and power. | 34:33 | |
| If only he would bow to the methods of the world. | 34:36 | |
| Jesus had settled that long ago, | 34:41 | |
| but now comes Peter harping on the same tool | 34:45 | |
| as if to say, "Play it safe Jesus," | 34:50 | |
| small wonder the master spoke sharply, | 34:55 | |
| "Out of my sight, you Satan." | 34:59 | |
| I am helped when I remember that Jesus experienced | 35:04 | |
| inner conflicts like mine. | 35:08 | |
| In the second place, we need this rehearsal thinking | 35:12 | |
| to help us count the cost of discipleship. | 35:15 | |
| When Jesus asks us to deny ourselves, | 35:19 | |
| he's doing more than asking us to do without | 35:24 | |
| meat during lamb, our social events. | 35:28 | |
| He's speaking to our pension for keeping ourself | 35:32 | |
| at the center of attention at all costs. | 35:36 | |
| Ever come to think of it? | 35:42 | |
| Even our social problems are variations of the human | 35:44 | |
| tendency to grab all the advantages we can grab | 35:47 | |
| and deny them to others. | 35:51 | |
| What else is discrimination of race or class, | 35:53 | |
| but a form of closed society, | 35:57 | |
| which it shows advantages to some people, | 35:59 | |
| why enforcing disadvantages on other people? | 36:02 | |
| So in our rehearsal thinking, | 36:08 | |
| the fundamental charge we must make | 36:11 | |
| is whether from this point in time, | 36:14 | |
| we will live as beasts of prey or as children of God, | 36:17 | |
| obligated to humankind. | 36:23 | |
| Of course, sometimes we think we can have it both ways. | 36:29 | |
| Once upon a time, | 36:34 | |
| there was a contractor who built a church | 36:35 | |
| for a highly emotional congregation, | 36:40 | |
| and then he couldn't get them to pay for it. | 36:42 | |
| He decided to scare them into honesty | 36:46 | |
| and he rented an iridescent devil suit complete with fork, | 36:48 | |
| tail and spear. | 36:53 | |
| And one Sunday night, | 36:56 | |
| when the preacher had been threatening the congregation | 36:57 | |
| with hell and fire, the builder, | 37:00 | |
| all that doubt and his new outfit pulled the master switch | 37:01 | |
| and bounded down the aisle, pandemonium broke out, | 37:05 | |
| people streaked and ran for the doors. | 37:11 | |
| One little lady stumbled and fell at his feet. | 37:14 | |
| The disguise builder loomed threateningly over her | 37:18 | |
| with his trident spear in his hand, straggling to her knees. | 37:24 | |
| She said in a quavering voice, "Oh Mr devil, hear me please. | 37:28 | |
| I bake more cakes, washed more dishes, | 37:35 | |
| sold more rummage than any other woman in this church. | 37:38 | |
| But all the time I've been on your side." | 37:41 | |
| (congregation laughing) | 37:45 | |
| Like the little lady, | 37:49 | |
| we try to work both sides of the street. | 37:50 | |
| We gloss over the persistent teaching of Jesus | 37:55 | |
| that whoever would save his life will lose it, | 37:58 | |
| and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. | 38:01 | |
| Mark you, if you back away from sacrifice, | 38:08 | |
| you back away from God. | 38:11 | |
| Discipleship requires the denial of self. | 38:16 | |
| And Jesus said, "Take up your cross." | 38:24 | |
| The cross is a symbol of the punishment you take | 38:31 | |
| from people who have a stake in keeping things as they are, | 38:34 | |
| or you take it from neutral people who would condone | 38:40 | |
| any monstrous wrong rather than risk their safety | 38:43 | |
| to stop the wrong. | 38:47 | |
| As James Baldwin reminds us, | 38:50 | |
| civilization is not destroyed by wicked people. | 38:53 | |
| It's not necessary to be that people be wicked, | 38:57 | |
| but only that they be spineless | 39:01 | |
| or put it another way. | 39:07 | |
| The cross is a metalanguage of being abandoned | 39:10 | |
| by persons whom we had thought we could depend on | 39:13 | |
| to understand and support us. | 39:17 | |
| As Isaiah said of the suffering servant, | 39:22 | |
| he was despised and rejected by men, | 39:25 | |
| a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. | 39:29 | |
| And we hid, as it were our faces from him, | 39:32 | |
| he was despised and we esteemed him not. | 39:36 | |
| But whatever form it takes, | 39:41 | |
| the cross falls in the line of obedient discipleship. | 39:45 | |
| You take it up, it is service and care. | 39:50 | |
| The cross is not something that befalls you by accident | 39:57 | |
| or without your consent. | 40:01 | |
| You have your Gethsemane where you face the appalling | 40:05 | |
| fact that discipleship means not so much making a sacrifice | 40:10 | |
| as being the sacrifice. | 40:17 | |
| And then, and there you say yes or no, | 40:22 | |
| it's as simple, and as terrible as that. | 40:29 | |
| Martin Luther king Jr. described an experience | 40:38 | |
| during the Montgomery bus protest. | 40:41 | |
| He had received many telephone threats, | 40:45 | |
| which he had dismissed as the work of crank. | 40:47 | |
| But one night after his wife had gone to sleep, | 40:51 | |
| he received a particularly savage threat. | 40:53 | |
| Later he wrote about it. | 40:58 | |
| He said, "I hung up, but I could not sleep. | 41:00 | |
| It seemed that all my fears had come down on me at once. | 41:06 | |
| I had reached the saturation point. | 41:10 | |
| I got out of bed and began to walk the floor. | 41:13 | |
| Finally, I went down to the kitchen | 41:18 | |
| and made a pot of coffee. | 41:20 | |
| I was ready to give up. | 41:23 | |
| I tried to think of a way to move out of the picture | 41:26 | |
| without appearing to be a coward, | 41:30 | |
| in this state of exhaustion, | 41:34 | |
| my courage had almost gone. | 41:36 | |
| Then I decided to take my problem to God. | 41:40 | |
| My head in my hands, | 41:44 | |
| I bowed over the kitchen table and prayed aloud | 41:45 | |
| the words I spoke to God that midnight are still vivid | 41:49 | |
| in my memory." | 41:54 | |
| He writes, "Oh Lord, I'm here taking a stand | 41:56 | |
| for what I believe is right, | 41:58 | |
| but now I'm afraid the people are looking | 42:01 | |
| to me for leadership. | 42:06 | |
| And if I stand before them without strength | 42:08 | |
| and courage, they'll folder. | 42:11 | |
| I am at the end of my power, I have nothing left. | 42:16 | |
| I've come to the point where I can't face it alone." | 42:22 | |
| He continues, "At that moment. | 42:28 | |
| I experienced the presence of the divine as never before. | 42:32 | |
| It seemed as though I could hear the quiet assurance | 42:37 | |
| of an inner voice saying, 'Stand up for righteousness, | 42:40 | |
| stand up for truth, God will be on your side forever.' | 42:45 | |
| Almost at once my fears began to pass from me. | 42:53 | |
| My uncertainty disappeared. | 42:58 | |
| I was ready to face anything. | 43:02 | |
| The outer situation remains the same, | 43:06 | |
| but God has given me an inner calm." | 43:09 | |
| That was Martin Luther King's Gethsemane. | 43:15 | |
| The fundamentals were saddled, | 43:21 | |
| the rest of his life was commentary, | 43:26 | |
| but above all, let us remember this, | 43:32 | |
| bearing, the cross is not unmitigated pain and sorrow. | 43:36 | |
| The letter to Hebrews says of Jesus who for the joy | 43:43 | |
| that was set before him endured the cross. | 43:47 | |
| cross bearing isn't aggressive thrusting of one self | 43:52 | |
| into a crucial situation whose outcome matters | 43:58 | |
| more than life. | 44:03 | |
| And it brings its own reward, a deep sense of fulfillment. | 44:06 | |
| I'm one of four sons, as youngsters we were disorganized | 44:15 | |
| hot tempered, ready to resort to our fists. | 44:21 | |
| Our parents almost gave up hope for us, | 44:26 | |
| almost, but they never did thank God. | 44:30 | |
| In later years, I tried to tell my father | 44:35 | |
| that I had begun to realize what a costly process | 44:38 | |
| it had been for him. | 44:43 | |
| With a Misty smile, he simply said, | 44:46 | |
| "Well, that's the joy of being a father." | 44:50 | |
| Rehearsal thinking is decision-making, | 44:57 | |
| whether it's the engineer and the cam, | 45:02 | |
| the surgeon as he scrubs, or you here now. | 45:05 | |
| You look ahead, make up your mind. | 45:15 | |
| Jesus said, "If anyone would be my disciple, | 45:20 | |
| let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." | 45:26 | |
| You are the only person qualified to say | 45:34 | |
| what that entails for you, and you say yes or no. | 45:38 | |
| Let us pray. | 45:54 | |
| Oh, our father God grant that there may be some person | 46:03 | |
| here this day who we'll have the grace to say to you. | 46:10 | |
| "Yes, I will take up my cross and follow you," amen. | 46:19 | |
| (uplifting music) | 46:35 | |
| ♪ In the hour of my distress ♪ | 49:24 | |
| ♪ When my temptations me opress ♪ | 49:30 | |
| ♪ And when my sins confess ♪ | 49:36 | |
| ♪ Sweet spirit comfort me ♪ | 49:42 | |
| ♪ When I lie in my bed, sick in heart and sick in head ♪ | 49:54 | |
| ♪ And with doubt discomforted ♪ | 50:06 | |
| ♪ Sweet spirit comfort me ♪ | 50:12 | |
| ♪ And the house doth sigh and weep ♪ | 50:23 | |
| ♪ And the world is drowned in sleep ♪ | 50:30 | |
| ♪ Yet my eyes the watch do keep ♪ | 50:36 | |
| ♪ Sweet spirit comfort me ♪ | 50:44 | |
| ♪ When the passing bell doth toll ♪ | 51:00 | |
| ♪ And the Furies in a shoal ♪ | 51:05 | |
| ♪ Come to fright a parting soul ♪ | 51:12 | |
| ♪ Sweet Spirit, comfort me ♪ | 51:18 | |
| ♪ When the tapers now burn blue ♪ | 51:35 | |
| ♪ And the comforters are few ♪ | 51:42 | |
| ♪ And that number more than true ♪ | 51:49 | |
| ♪ Sweet Spirit, comfort me ♪ | 51:55 | |
| ♪ When the Judgment is revealed ♪ | 52:11 | |
| ♪ And that open's which was sealed ♪ | 52:21 | |
| ♪ When to Thee I have appealed ♪ | 52:31 | |
| ♪ Sweet Spirit, comfort me ♪ | 52:43 | |
| (uplifting music) | 53:09 | |
| Thine oh Lord is the greatness and the power | 54:39 | |
| and the glory and the victory and the majesty | 54:44 | |
| for all that is in the heaven | 54:47 | |
| and then the earth is thine. | 54:49 | |
| Thine is the kingdom oh Lord, and thou art exalted | 54:53 | |
| as head above all, amen. | 54:56 | |
| (uplifting music) | 55:03 | |
| Now to him who by the power at work within us | 58:51 | |
| is able to do far more abundantly | 58:55 | |
| than all that we ask or think. | 58:57 | |
| To him, be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus | 59:01 | |
| to all generations, forever and ever. | 59:05 | |
| The grace of our Lord, Jesus Christ, | 59:11 | |
| be with you all, amen. | 59:14 | |
| (bell chimes) | 59:24 | |
| (uplifting music) | 59:42 |
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