Waldo Beach - "Where's Your Home?" (September 20, 1959)
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| (congregation shuffling and coughing) | 0:04 | |
| - | During the last 10 days on this campus, | 0:24 |
| amid the ganglia and blobs of humanity, | 0:28 | |
| which congeal on the crosswalks and hallways | 0:34 | |
| where people meet. | 0:39 | |
| The most common question asked, has been, | 0:43 | |
| where are you from? | 0:47 | |
| Where's your home? | 0:49 | |
| This is the usual opener in the nervous game | 0:53 | |
| of meeting strangers | 0:56 | |
| and getting settled in a strange place. | 0:58 | |
| It provides a little thread of spiritual connection. | 1:04 | |
| Like the weather it's something everybody has in common | 1:10 | |
| to start conversation with. | 1:16 | |
| Since everybody comes from somewhere. | 1:19 | |
| The thread is a fragile one indeed. | 1:23 | |
| It almost breaks when he says Montclair | 1:27 | |
| and you say oh yeah, do you know Joe Blow? | 1:31 | |
| And he says, oh, I'm afraid I don't. | 1:33 | |
| And it snaps quickly. | 1:40 | |
| When as a freshman in orientation week, | 1:43 | |
| you meet five people the first day | 1:46 | |
| who never even heard of the town you came from, | 1:50 | |
| and you suffer a kind of cosmic chill | 1:55 | |
| of being a real forlorn stranger. | 2:00 | |
| All this talk among us these first days about home | 2:05 | |
| and this anxiety and dither to have newcomers | 2:12 | |
| feel at home on this campus | 2:16 | |
| is an outer and visible sign | 2:20 | |
| of an inner and spiritual problem and situation | 2:23 | |
| of almost all students | 2:28 | |
| in their pilgrimage through Duke | 2:31 | |
| and their answers to the question, | 2:34 | |
| where's your home? | 2:37 | |
| If you run true to form, | 2:41 | |
| you may find a sequence something like this. | 2:45 | |
| As freshman, you feel yourself away from home at college | 2:49 | |
| and on some gray Sunday afternoon this fall | 2:56 | |
| a lurking wisp of home sickness will curl over your soul | 3:01 | |
| despite yourself. | 3:07 | |
| Then along about spring vacation of sophomore year, | 3:11 | |
| maybe earlier, maybe later, | 3:16 | |
| you think of home differently. | 3:20 | |
| You'll talk about getting back to school. | 3:22 | |
| You'll have shifted your emotional duffle | 3:26 | |
| to somewhere on campus, | 3:31 | |
| in double H or facet or wherever. | 3:34 | |
| Though no one has yet put up a sign | 3:39 | |
| over the entry of double a H, God bless our home. | 3:41 | |
| (woman laughs) | 3:47 | |
| For a junior, back home in Montclair | 3:51 | |
| is now something you go through, | 3:57 | |
| on the way to somewhere else. | 4:03 | |
| To pick up fresh laundry and sleep. | 4:06 | |
| And you can't go home again | 4:11 | |
| as Thomas Wolf found out. | 4:13 | |
| So the university becomes your home base | 4:16 | |
| and shortly it assumes a maternal complex of its own. | 4:21 | |
| The victim of institutional momism. | 4:26 | |
| And we have an annual homecoming. | 4:32 | |
| (audience laughs) | 4:35 | |
| But the alumnus one year out, | 4:39 | |
| back for homecoming finds that returning | 4:42 | |
| is not quite the same. | 4:46 | |
| It's not like home. | 4:48 | |
| They've changed things | 4:51 | |
| and somebody else is in my old room. | 4:52 | |
| His homing sense is now beamed to somewhere in suburbia. | 4:57 | |
| And so it goes. | 5:03 | |
| And it all denotes a profoundly important | 5:06 | |
| theological problem. | 5:09 | |
| The question, where's your home | 5:12 | |
| is as of central religious import, | 5:15 | |
| as the question what's your name? | 5:19 | |
| Though no IBM machine can detect it. | 5:23 | |
| The word home does not mean your address. | 5:28 | |
| What you fill in on the second line. | 5:32 | |
| It means rather your center of reference. | 5:37 | |
| The inner meridian of the spirit. | 5:42 | |
| Where you view things from. | 5:45 | |
| Its longitude and latitude may be plotted spiritually | 5:50 | |
| but not geographically. | 5:55 | |
| A person's home is his center of reference | 5:58 | |
| in two great main senses. | 6:03 | |
| One is the intellectual sense. | 6:08 | |
| The home of the mind is the center of the mind | 6:11 | |
| or the heart of the mind where it finds its nexus of meaning | 6:16 | |
| in all that it studies and learns. | 6:23 | |
| For the great part the intellectual pilgrimage | 6:27 | |
| of university students is one of homelessness. | 6:30 | |
| Of having no centering point | 6:37 | |
| from which he can make sense of the whole mess | 6:39 | |
| of the courses that he's taking. | 6:44 | |
| His learning is anarchic. | 6:48 | |
| It lacks the integration, | 6:52 | |
| which follows from having one center | 6:53 | |
| around which to incorporate the disparate | 6:58 | |
| five, six courses he's carrying. | 7:01 | |
| This lack of an intellectual center of the mind, | 7:07 | |
| this homelessness of disintegration | 7:11 | |
| as illustrated negatively by the dark anxiety | 7:13 | |
| on the face of the Duke student | 7:19 | |
| of modest intellectual prowess, | 7:21 | |
| whom I once encountered walking into a tough final exam | 7:25 | |
| in economics as strangely erect as a West Point plebe. | 7:29 | |
| What are you standing that way for, I asked. | 7:37 | |
| Sir, he said, I gotta stand this way. | 7:41 | |
| If I leaned over | 7:44 | |
| the whole course would slide off onto the floor. | 7:45 | |
| (audience laughs) | 7:48 | |
| The word home has a second meaning. | 7:54 | |
| It means not only the mind's point of reference | 8:00 | |
| but also the altar of the heart. | 8:06 | |
| The fireside of the house of the self, | 8:09 | |
| whatever the self supremely treasures and cherishes. | 8:14 | |
| Its center of affection. | 8:19 | |
| The old maxim, home is where the heart is, | 8:23 | |
| is not really corny, but an accurate description | 8:28 | |
| of the relational self, | 8:33 | |
| which has a kind of homing instinct. | 8:37 | |
| The demand to find its integrity, its self-hood | 8:39 | |
| in an objective love, | 8:45 | |
| which it finds as supremely good and holy. | 8:48 | |
| Education of the whole self, | 8:53 | |
| of head and heart, of mind and will, | 8:58 | |
| is in essence the process of finding the self's true home. | 9:01 | |
| The authentic center of the mind's life | 9:07 | |
| from which it can rightly understand its universe | 9:12 | |
| and the true altar of the heart's love. | 9:16 | |
| The process of our work in this university community | 9:21 | |
| when understood this way becomes the same kind of venture | 9:26 | |
| which is described in our lesson of the morning | 9:33 | |
| in the epistle to the Hebrews. | 9:38 | |
| The kind of search of the heroes of faith, | 9:40 | |
| with Noah and Abraham and the others. | 9:46 | |
| We go out, not knowing where we're going. | 9:50 | |
| We are seeking a homeland. | 9:55 | |
| On pilgrimage from one kind of base to another. | 9:59 | |
| In search of the city which has foundations, | 10:05 | |
| whose builder and maker is God. | 10:08 | |
| The text becomes relevant to our growth, | 10:14 | |
| both in its intellectual and its emotional sense. | 10:17 | |
| What should be going on between the lines | 10:23 | |
| of quizzes and lab reports, class discussions, | 10:27 | |
| campus forums, | 10:32 | |
| is education literally leading you out | 10:35 | |
| from a narrow home. | 10:40 | |
| From a pinched insular parochial outlook | 10:43 | |
| to the range and spread of a high mind | 10:48 | |
| which views things from a point of eminence. | 10:55 | |
| And this process of the mind | 11:00 | |
| is concurrently negative and positive. | 11:02 | |
| Negatively it means that sometimes painful detachment | 11:05 | |
| from the small town provincial outlook, | 11:11 | |
| and there are shocks and jolts to the soul | 11:16 | |
| in this emancipation. | 11:21 | |
| When you discover at Duke that | 11:24 | |
| 21 Summerfield place, Montclair, New Jersey, | 11:26 | |
| is not after all the center of the universe. | 11:29 | |
| That 1959 is not the only year in history, | 11:34 | |
| and that God is not necessarily a Baptist. | 11:39 | |
| Throughout your career at Duke | 11:46 | |
| the progressive enlargement of your vision | 11:49 | |
| will have to scan the wide range of things | 11:53 | |
| and your comfortable beliefs will be well ventilated | 11:57 | |
| if not blown away. | 12:02 | |
| And sometimes you'll yearn secretly to go back | 12:05 | |
| to the simple picture of the universe | 12:09 | |
| and the simple homely truths that you learned, | 12:13 | |
| as one student put it, | 12:19 | |
| at my mother's knee and other joints. | 12:21 | |
| (audience laughs) | 12:25 | |
| Trouble is what you learned at mother's knee | 12:31 | |
| does not always fit with what prevails at other joints. | 12:34 | |
| But you can't go back to innocence. | 12:40 | |
| Positively the process of finding the mind's right home | 12:45 | |
| involves attachment to a perspective transcendent | 12:50 | |
| of local time and space | 12:56 | |
| which has educated itself out from a local outlook | 12:59 | |
| on the universe to a universal outlook on the local. | 13:04 | |
| This is the quality of the high mind. | 13:10 | |
| It has nothing to do with time and space. | 13:14 | |
| Like Thoreau it can say, I have traveled much in Concord. | 13:17 | |
| It's something like the outlook on the letter | 13:24 | |
| addressed to Rebecca in Wilder's play, Our Town. | 13:26 | |
| Jane Crowfoot the Crowfoot farm, Grover's corners, | 13:32 | |
| Sutton county, New Hampshire, United States of America, | 13:38 | |
| North America, Western hemisphere, | 13:43 | |
| the earth, the solar system, the universe, the mind of God. | 13:46 | |
| That's what it said on the envelope. | 13:53 | |
| The narrow mind is that of the gum chewing American | 13:58 | |
| who tours Europe from Kansas with some surprise | 14:03 | |
| and a little scorn that they don't have Coca-Cola | 14:09 | |
| in the Sistine chapel or Tasty Freeze in the Louvre. | 14:12 | |
| (audience laughs) | 14:17 | |
| The educated mind emancipated from provincialism in time | 14:22 | |
| is also emancipated from provincialism in space. | 14:30 | |
| And while the narrow mind is caught | 14:37 | |
| in the pinch of this age | 14:40 | |
| the free mind sees things under the aspect of eternity. | 14:41 | |
| Which is another way of saying that his intellectual home | 14:47 | |
| is a city which has foundations, | 14:52 | |
| whose builder and maker is God. | 14:55 | |
| And that he is at home in any century or country. | 14:59 | |
| The same double process, negative and positive | 15:06 | |
| goes on with the heart search | 15:13 | |
| for its true home and true fireside. | 15:14 | |
| The level of the volitional self. | 15:19 | |
| Right education of the will Involves gradual detachment | 15:23 | |
| from small loyalties, | 15:29 | |
| gradual attachment to high affections. | 15:33 | |
| If you're a denizen of east campus, | 15:38 | |
| it may not have been very long ago | 15:42 | |
| that the emotional center of your affection | 15:46 | |
| was a teddy bear. | 15:49 | |
| Or of west, a high school gang or team. | 15:53 | |
| By this time you've been disenchanted from that love affair | 16:01 | |
| and your heart seeks a larger home. | 16:06 | |
| Your career here will be a series of crushes | 16:09 | |
| and emotional growing pains. | 16:13 | |
| The process of being driven from home to home | 16:17 | |
| seeking a city. | 16:20 | |
| Permanent housing for the soul, | 16:23 | |
| an altar of devotion and intrinsic worth, | 16:27 | |
| which is not instrumental for anything else. | 16:30 | |
| Which is where the soul stops. | 16:35 | |
| There are many such centers of affection on the Duke campus | 16:41 | |
| glamor, romance, grades, the crowd, prestige. | 16:47 | |
| Your altar may move and be moved from dorm to dorm | 16:56 | |
| to dope shop, to the stadium. | 17:02 | |
| Yet these all prove too finite, | 17:07 | |
| too limited to satisfy our secret yearnings | 17:10 | |
| for the infinite. | 17:14 | |
| Substandard housing for human nature, | 17:17 | |
| which is created to seek a better country. | 17:22 | |
| That is a heavenly one. | 17:25 | |
| This is not a very special situation | 17:31 | |
| unique to duke students. | 17:34 | |
| It's the human lot, the human condition | 17:38 | |
| of men living in a flat universe, | 17:42 | |
| estranged and alienated, | 17:49 | |
| restless with their small household gods | 17:52 | |
| of chromium and plastic. | 17:56 | |
| As Chesterton's poem puts it, | 18:02 | |
| men are homeless in their homes, | 18:05 | |
| and strangers under the sun, | 18:09 | |
| and they lay their heads in a foreign land | 18:11 | |
| whenever the day is done. | 18:16 | |
| This chapel is here, | 18:22 | |
| not as a Gothic bauble for tourists and visitors | 18:25 | |
| to track through. | 18:30 | |
| But a house of God, a place of worship, | 18:33 | |
| which is set centrally here to signify | 18:38 | |
| a profound conviction about the nature of education. | 18:42 | |
| The university services of worship | 18:49 | |
| are held here to hallow the name of God. | 18:51 | |
| And to point you to your true center of reference, | 18:57 | |
| your high altar, your right home. | 19:02 | |
| As a physical place this chapel is not itself home. | 19:09 | |
| It points those who worship here by the very manner | 19:15 | |
| of its architecture and worship. | 19:22 | |
| And we hope of its preaching. | 19:26 | |
| Beyond itself to a house not made with hands. | 19:29 | |
| It stands for a point of reference, | 19:36 | |
| the spiritual meridian of mind and heart, | 19:39 | |
| the center of all things | 19:43 | |
| around which your education may gradually | 19:45 | |
| become incorporated. | 19:49 | |
| Intellectually you will find yourself along the way, | 19:54 | |
| storm tossed and all but lost, | 19:59 | |
| confused With no fixed stars to plot your course by, | 20:04 | |
| you'll say perhaps with Yates, | 20:12 | |
| things fall apart, the center cannot hold. | 20:16 | |
| In this chapel if you will wait in silence and in openness | 20:23 | |
| you will sense again, the hidden sure center of things | 20:30 | |
| and be restored by the confidence | 20:37 | |
| that there is faithfulness at the core. | 20:39 | |
| Unity, reason, form, and meaning, | 20:44 | |
| in the plurality of being. | 20:49 | |
| In such moments, you will know where your true home is. | 20:54 | |
| At other times, you may come to worship here | 21:02 | |
| smugly absorbed with some little campus deity. | 21:05 | |
| You may come here to see or to be seen. | 21:13 | |
| In the presence of the high and holy one | 21:20 | |
| who inhabited eternity | 21:23 | |
| you will be brought low. | 21:27 | |
| Stripped of your pretense and foolishness | 21:30 | |
| by the awareness of the mysterium tremendum. | 21:35 | |
| Driven out from your small house and led to pray | 21:40 | |
| in contrition, the prayer of Saint Augustine, | 21:45 | |
| oh, Lord, narrow is the mansion of my soul. | 21:50 | |
| Enlarge thou it, that thou mayest enter in. | 21:56 | |
| In all these ways the worship of this chapel | 22:04 | |
| drawing you here in the regular self discipline of worship | 22:09 | |
| will give you the sense that, of all places on campus, | 22:17 | |
| that you belong. | 22:21 | |
| This is home. | 22:23 | |
| In the presence of one who has been our dwelling place | 22:27 | |
| in all generations whose name is God. | 22:33 | |
| Let us pray. | 22:40 | |
| (audience shuffling) | 22:44 | |
| Oh Lord our eternal home, | 22:51 | |
| who has created us for thyself, | 22:55 | |
| so that our spirits are restless | 22:59 | |
| until they rest in thee. | 23:01 | |
| Grant us the wisdom to know thee, | 23:05 | |
| as the home of our minds search and our hearts love. | 23:09 | |
| That in all our going and coming | 23:16 | |
| we may live as those whose dwelling place is in thee | 23:21 | |
| through Jesus Christ, our Lord. | 23:28 | |
| And now unto him who is able to keep you from falling | 23:30 | |
| and to present you faultless | 23:36 | |
| before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy, | 23:39 | |
| to the only wise God, the glory and majesty, | 23:44 | |
| dominion and power, both now and evermore. | 23:49 |
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