Michael Novak - "The Experience of Nothingness" (February 3, 1980)
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| - | Duke University Chapel Service of Worship. | 0:04 |
| February 3rd, 1980. | 0:08 | |
| (muffled speaking) | 0:16 | |
| (church organ plays) | 0:37 | |
| (muffled speaking) | 4:26 | |
| (church organ plays) | 4:44 | |
| ♪ I will greatly rejoice in the Lord ♪ | 9:14 | |
| ♪ For my soul shall exalt in my God ♪ | 9:18 | |
| ♪ For he has clothed me in the garments of salvation ♪ | 9:23 | |
| ♪ He has covered me with the robe of righteousness ♪ | 9:29 | |
| ♪ As a bridegroom decks himself with a garland ♪ | 9:37 | |
| ♪ And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels ♪ | 9:45 | |
| ♪ Adorns herself with her jewels ♪ | 9:50 | |
| ♪ With her jewels ♪ | 9:54 | |
| ♪ For as the earth brings forth its shoots ♪ | 10:00 | |
| ♪ And as a garden causes what is sown in it to spring up ♪ | 10:05 | |
| ♪ To spring up ♪ | 10:11 | |
| ♪ To spring up ♪ | 10:13 | |
| ♪ So the Lord God ♪ | 10:16 | |
| ♪ Will cause righteousness and praise ♪ | 10:20 | |
| ♪ Will cause righteousness and praise to spring up ♪ | 10:25 | |
| ♪ To spring up, to spring up ♪ | 10:31 | |
| ♪ Before ♪ | 10:35 | |
| ♪ all the nations ♪ | 10:37 | |
| (church organ plays) | 10:51 | |
| ♪ Immortal, invisible, God only wise ♪ | 11:23 | |
| ♪ In light inaccessible hid from our eyes ♪ | 11:31 | |
| ♪ Most blessed, most glorious, the Ancient of Days ♪ | 11:39 | |
| ♪ Almighty, victorious, Thy great name we praise ♪ | 11:47 | |
| ♪ Unresting, unhasting, and silent as light ♪ | 11:57 | |
| ♪ Nor wanting, nor wasting, Thou rulest in might ♪ | 12:05 | |
| ♪ Thy justice like mountains high soaring above ♪ | 12:13 | |
| ♪ Thy clouds which are fountains of goodness and love ♪ | 12:21 | |
| ♪ To all life Thou givest, to both great and small ♪ | 12:31 | |
| (organ drowns out congregation) | 12:39 | |
| - | I greet you in the name of almighty God | 14:32 |
| who creates and sustains us, | 14:35 | |
| who saves us and who is present with us. | 14:38 | |
| So that we may prepare ourselves to worship God, | 14:43 | |
| let us with penitent and obedient hearts confess our sin | 14:47 | |
| and accept the forgiveness lovingly offered to us. | 14:51 | |
| You may be seated. | 14:55 | |
| (congregation stirs) | 14:57 | |
| Let us pray. | 15:05 | |
| O, God, | 15:07 | |
| early in the morning do we cry unto Thee. | 15:09 | |
| Help us to pray and to think only of Thee. | 15:13 | |
| We cannot pray alone. | 15:17 | |
| In us there is darkness, | 15:20 | |
| but with Thee there is light. | 15:22 | |
| We are lonely, but thou leavest us not. | 15:25 | |
| We are feeble in heart, but thou leavest us not. | 15:29 | |
| We are restless, but with Thee there is peace. | 15:35 | |
| In us there is bitterness, but with Thee there is patience. | 15:39 | |
| Thy ways are past understanding, | 15:45 | |
| but thou knowest the way for us. | 15:48 | |
| O, Lord, our God, we praise and thank Thee | 15:52 | |
| for the peace of the night. | 15:56 | |
| We praise and thank Thee for this new day. | 15:59 | |
| We praise and thank Thee for all Thy goodness | 16:03 | |
| and faithfulness throughout our lives. | 16:07 | |
| Thou hast granted us many blessings. | 16:10 | |
| Now let us accept tribulation from Thy hand. | 16:14 | |
| Surely thou wilt not lay on us more than we can bear. | 16:18 | |
| Thou makest all things work together for good | 16:24 | |
| for Thy children. | 16:27 | |
| Hear us, O God, as we pray in the name of Christ our Lord. | 16:29 | |
| Let us in silence confess our personal sins. | 16:37 | |
| Friends, hear and believe the good news of the gospel. | 17:10 | |
| In Jesus Christ we are forgiven. | 17:15 | |
| Let us accept that forgiveness | 17:18 | |
| and let us forgive one another. | 17:21 | |
| Let us give thanks for God is good | 17:25 | |
| and God's love is everlasting. | 17:29 | |
| - | Thanks be to God, | 17:32 |
| whose love has made us. | 17:34 | |
| Thanks be to God, | 17:37 | |
| whose mercy forgives us. | 17:39 | |
| Thanks be to God, | 17:41 | |
| whose promise secures us. | 17:43 | |
| - | Amen. | 17:46 |
| I extend a special word of welcome | 17:51 | |
| to those students and family members here at Duke University | 17:53 | |
| for Black Students' Weekend. | 17:56 | |
| We are especially glad to have any of you here | 17:59 | |
| in the service of worship today. | 18:02 | |
| Welcome, also, to Michael and Karen Laub Novak, | 18:07 | |
| theologians in residence at Duke for this coming week, | 18:11 | |
| and to their three children, Richard, Tanya, and Jana. | 18:15 | |
| There is an exhibit of Karen's work | 18:21 | |
| and a lecture and reception scheduled for this afternoon | 18:23 | |
| in 104 Flowers. | 18:26 | |
| Michael will deliver an address tomorrow night | 18:29 | |
| at 7:30 in Page Auditorium, | 18:32 | |
| to which you are all invited. | 18:34 | |
| You will find on the back page of the bulletin for today | 18:38 | |
| a schedule of the public events | 18:41 | |
| as they are for the next week. | 18:45 | |
| We welcome Michael Novak to the pulpit today | 18:50 | |
| and look forward to the message he will bring to us. | 18:53 | |
| - | Let us pray. | 19:07 |
| Prepare our hearts, O Lord, | 19:10 | |
| to accept your word. | 19:12 | |
| Silence in us any voice but your own, | 19:15 | |
| that, hearing, we may also obey your will. | 19:19 | |
| Through Jesus Christ, our Lord, | 19:23 | |
| Amen. | 19:25 | |
| The Old Testament lesson is from the first chapter | 19:27 | |
| of Jeremiah, verses 4 through 5 | 19:30 | |
| and verses 17 through 19. | 19:33 | |
| Now the word of the Lord came to me saying, | 19:38 | |
| before I formed you in the womb I knew you, | 19:42 | |
| and before you were born I consecrated you. | 19:46 | |
| I appointed you a prophet to the nations. | 19:50 | |
| But you gird up your loins, arise, | 19:55 | |
| and say to them everything that I command you. | 19:59 | |
| Do not be dismayed by them, | 20:02 | |
| lest I dismay you before them. | 20:05 | |
| And I, behold, | 20:08 | |
| I make you this day a fortified city, | 20:10 | |
| an iron pillar and bronze walls | 20:13 | |
| against the whole land, | 20:16 | |
| against the kings of Judah, | 20:18 | |
| its princes, its priests, | 20:20 | |
| and the people of the land. | 20:23 | |
| They will fight against you, | 20:26 | |
| but they shall not prevail against you. | 20:28 | |
| For I am with you, says the Lord, to deliver you. | 20:30 | |
| The epistle lesson is from the 13th chapter | 20:35 | |
| of First Corinthians, | 20:38 | |
| verses 4 through 13. | 20:40 | |
| Love is patient and kind. | 20:45 | |
| Love is not jealous or boastful. | 20:49 | |
| It is not arrogant or rude. | 20:53 | |
| Love does not insist on its own way. | 20:57 | |
| It is not irritable or resentful. | 21:00 | |
| It does not rejoice at wrong, | 21:04 | |
| but rejoices in the right. | 21:06 | |
| Love bears all things, | 21:09 | |
| believes all things, | 21:11 | |
| hopes all things, | 21:13 | |
| endures all things. | 21:15 | |
| Love never ends. | 21:17 | |
| As for prophecies, they will pass away. | 21:20 | |
| As for tongues, they will cease. | 21:23 | |
| As for knowledge, it will pass away. | 21:26 | |
| For our knowledge is imperfect | 21:29 | |
| and our prophecy is imperfect. | 21:32 | |
| But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away. | 21:34 | |
| When I was a child, I spoke like a child, | 21:39 | |
| I thought like a child, | 21:43 | |
| I reasoned like a child. | 21:45 | |
| When I became a man, | 21:48 | |
| I gave up childish ways. | 21:50 | |
| For now we see in a mirror dimly, | 21:53 | |
| but then face to face. | 21:56 | |
| Now I know in part. | 21:58 | |
| Then I shall understand fully, | 22:01 | |
| even as I have been fully understood. | 22:04 | |
| So faith, | 22:07 | |
| hope, | 22:09 | |
| love | 22:10 | |
| abide, these three, | 22:11 | |
| but the greatest of these is love. | 22:13 | |
| Here ends the reading from the epistle. | 22:17 | |
| Amen. | 22:20 | |
| (church organ plays) | 22:25 | |
| (choir sings) | 22:48 | |
| - | Will the congregation please stand | 27:33 |
| for the reading of the gospel lesson. | 27:35 | |
| The gospel lesson is from the fourth chapter of Luke, | 27:41 | |
| verses 21 through 30. | 27:45 | |
| And he began to say to them, | 27:49 | |
| today the scripture has been fulfilled in your hearing. | 27:51 | |
| And all spoke well of him | 27:56 | |
| and wondered at the gracious words which proceeded | 27:58 | |
| out of his mouth. | 28:01 | |
| And they said, "Is not this Joseph's son?" | 28:03 | |
| And he said to them, | 28:07 | |
| "Doubtless you will quote to me this proverb. | 28:09 | |
| "Physician, heal yourself. | 28:12 | |
| "What we have heard you did at Capernaum, | 28:16 | |
| "do here also in your own country." | 28:19 | |
| And he said, "Truly I say to you, | 28:22 | |
| "no prophet is acceptable in his own country, | 28:27 | |
| "but in truth I tell you, | 28:31 | |
| "there were many widows in Israel in the days of Elijah, | 28:35 | |
| "when the Heaven was shut up three years and six months, | 28:39 | |
| "when there came a great famine over all the land, | 28:44 | |
| "and Elijah was sent to none of them, | 28:48 | |
| "but only to Zarephath in the Land of Sidon, | 28:51 | |
| "to a woman who was a widow. | 28:55 | |
| "And there were many lepers in Israel | 28:58 | |
| "in the time of the prophet Elijah, | 29:00 | |
| "and none of them was cleansed, | 29:03 | |
| "but only Naaman the Syrian." | 29:05 | |
| When they heard this, | 29:08 | |
| all in the synagogue were filled with wrath. | 29:09 | |
| And they rose up and put him out of the city, | 29:13 | |
| and led him to the brow of the hill | 29:16 | |
| on which their city was built | 29:18 | |
| that they might throw him down headlong. | 29:20 | |
| But passing through the midst of them, | 29:23 | |
| he went away. | 29:25 | |
| Here ends the reading of the gospel. | 29:27 | |
| All praise and glory be to God. | 29:29 | |
| (church organ plays) | 29:32 | |
| ♪ Glory be to our creator ♪ | 29:41 | |
| ♪ Praise to our redeemer Lord ♪ | 29:49 | |
| ♪ Glory be to our sustainer ♪ | 29:57 | |
| ♪ Ever three and ever one ♪ | 30:05 | |
| ♪ As it was in the beginning ♪ | 30:13 | |
| ♪ World without end ♪ | 30:21 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 30:25 | |
| - | I am very happy to be among you this morning, | 30:50 |
| although I must confess to just a little anxiety | 30:55 | |
| about the gospel text, | 31:00 | |
| read to us, | 31:03 | |
| which recounts the reaction of one congregation | 31:05 | |
| to one preacher many years ago | 31:09 | |
| and is calculated to strike terror | 31:13 | |
| into the heart of a new preacher | 31:17 | |
| lest some other congregation take that example | 31:18 | |
| as something they must follow. | 31:22 | |
| I'd like to talk about an experience | 31:30 | |
| that is, and must be, common | 31:36 | |
| in any free society, | 31:41 | |
| in any free and mobile society | 31:44 | |
| of the modern sort, | 31:47 | |
| which we, in the United States, | 31:50 | |
| are the chief model of. | 31:56 | |
| I call this experience by the name | 31:59 | |
| of the experience of nothingness, | 32:03 | |
| but it isn't the name that is so significant. | 32:05 | |
| It's rather the experience itself. | 32:10 | |
| And I feel quite confident | 32:14 | |
| that many of you, | 32:16 | |
| either in your own lives | 32:20 | |
| or in the lives of those who are close to you, | 32:21 | |
| have already known or will know this experience. | 32:26 | |
| Call it by whatever name. | 32:31 | |
| It is an experience which is as old as the human race | 32:37 | |
| in some forms, | 32:40 | |
| but quite different, I think, in the contemporary period. | 32:43 | |
| It is an experience that may be generated in us | 32:49 | |
| in a traditional way | 32:53 | |
| simply by the contemplation of a building, | 32:55 | |
| a great building such as this, | 32:58 | |
| unique | 33:03 | |
| in style, in its height, | 33:06 | |
| in its power, | 33:08 | |
| built around an architectural idea or set of ideas | 33:10 | |
| that are now 1000 or 1100 years old, | 33:15 | |
| an architectural idea that has seen so many generations | 33:20 | |
| come and go, | 33:25 | |
| shed from this earth like the skin of a snake. | 33:27 | |
| Imagine being married, | 33:33 | |
| having children in one's early twenties, | 33:35 | |
| and then one's children beginning to have children. | 33:39 | |
| A generation therefore being 20 to 30 years, | 33:42 | |
| how many generations there have been | 33:46 | |
| in buildings such as this. | 33:50 | |
| St. Augustine | 33:54 | |
| reports his awareness of this experience | 33:57 | |
| by saying how overcome by it he was | 34:01 | |
| when he stood on the beaches of Oran | 34:05 | |
| and looked at the multitude of stars | 34:09 | |
| and thought how small and how fleeting | 34:14 | |
| was human life. | 34:17 | |
| In our day and in our sort of society, | 34:22 | |
| these old ways of arriving at the experience of nothingness | 34:27 | |
| still occur, | 34:32 | |
| and with just as much power as ever. | 34:35 | |
| But, in addition, | 34:40 | |
| there are experiences which come from within. | 34:43 | |
| These experiences come in many ways. | 34:50 | |
| I only want to take a moment to suggest | 34:54 | |
| one or two of the ways | 34:57 | |
| and allow you to relate it more directly | 35:00 | |
| to examples from your own life. | 35:03 | |
| You may, on a winter afternoon, | 35:07 | |
| have looked out a window, | 35:10 | |
| late in the day, | 35:13 | |
| from a second or third floor, say, | 35:16 | |
| and been thinking nothing in particular. | 35:20 | |
| It may even be that, | 35:27 | |
| late in the autumn, | 35:29 | |
| one heard the caw of a crow | 35:33 | |
| over the wintry field. | 35:37 | |
| Or it may be that one saw people pass in the street | 35:40 | |
| under an early light. | 35:44 | |
| Whatever. | 35:47 | |
| But suddenly there may have come | 35:50 | |
| before one's mind, as it were, the story of one's life, | 35:52 | |
| the story one was living out with one's life. | 35:56 | |
| And instantly, as it were, one loathed it. | 36:01 | |
| And you can then imagine thinking | 36:09 | |
| of a different way you might be living, | 36:11 | |
| reinforcing in yourself all those things | 36:18 | |
| which you're now inhibiting, | 36:20 | |
| and inhibiting in yourself all those things | 36:23 | |
| which you're now doing. | 36:24 | |
| Seeing that many others around us | 36:29 | |
| or in different parts of our society | 36:31 | |
| do very differently. | 36:34 | |
| And then, these alternative stories | 36:42 | |
| that one may be living out with one's life, | 36:44 | |
| one may also loathe. | 36:50 | |
| And then there comes the perception, | 36:57 | |
| which is at the heart of the experience I am trying | 36:59 | |
| to describe. | 37:01 | |
| It might be described as the perception | 37:04 | |
| of our own liberty, | 37:06 | |
| but it feels like, rather, | 37:11 | |
| the perception of the formlessness | 37:15 | |
| at the heart of our lives. | 37:20 | |
| We can be living in any of the multiple ways | 37:25 | |
| that human beings have lived. | 37:28 | |
| We could be living so very differently | 37:33 | |
| from the way we are living. | 37:36 | |
| And there are so many different ways | 37:40 | |
| in which we might live. | 37:42 | |
| Not one of those ways imposes itself upon us. | 37:45 | |
| Not one of these ways | 37:51 | |
| can assure us | 37:55 | |
| that it is the way we ought to live. | 38:00 | |
| And we recognize a kind of emptiness, if you wish, | 38:10 | |
| but more exactly, more to the point, | 38:16 | |
| a formlessness. | 38:18 | |
| If life is meant to be a narrative, a story, | 38:21 | |
| then its initial form | 38:27 | |
| must be like dough, shapeless, | 38:29 | |
| ready to be made a story, | 38:33 | |
| but of itself formless, | 38:35 | |
| into which, through which | 38:40 | |
| we can write a story. | 38:43 | |
| But which one? | 38:47 | |
| It is the perception | 38:51 | |
| of this thorough | 38:56 | |
| and quite total | 38:59 | |
| formlessness | 39:01 | |
| at the heart of life | 39:03 | |
| that many among us experience as a kind of nihilism. | 39:06 | |
| Nietzsche, the German philosopher, was the first | 39:13 | |
| to write at some length about nihilism. | 39:15 | |
| And he tried again and again | 39:20 | |
| to define the kind of experience | 39:21 | |
| that lay at the heart of it. | 39:25 | |
| One of his short, | 39:29 | |
| succinct | 39:31 | |
| statements | 39:33 | |
| of its meaning, | 39:35 | |
| he spoke about nihilism, for in the European style | 39:36 | |
| one is more likely to refer to the "ism", | 39:39 | |
| and, in the American style, more likely | 39:44 | |
| to speak of the experience. | 39:46 | |
| "What is nihilism?" he wrote. | 39:49 | |
| The question "Why?" | 39:54 | |
| has no meaning. | 39:57 | |
| Or, again, | 40:01 | |
| the meaning and the unity and the purpose | 40:03 | |
| which we had put into our lives | 40:08 | |
| we suddenly withdraw. | 40:13 | |
| It was one thing for Nietzsche, towards the end of his life, | 40:19 | |
| after years of inquiry | 40:24 | |
| and searching | 40:27 | |
| to speak and write of the joyous wisdom | 40:32 | |
| of encountering the nothingness | 40:37 | |
| at the heart of human consciousness. | 40:40 | |
| It's a little different to be 13 years old | 40:46 | |
| and, through no particular inquiry at all, | 40:51 | |
| to have come upon the experience. | 40:55 | |
| Or it's another | 40:59 | |
| to be 55, 63, whatever years old, | 41:01 | |
| and looking back on all the energies spent in one's life, | 41:08 | |
| to wonder | 41:14 | |
| at the form one had given time, | 41:15 | |
| at the value of the narrative | 41:22 | |
| one had chosen, | 41:27 | |
| and to see how relatively empty it stands, | 41:30 | |
| still against the void. | 41:36 | |
| It's the task, I want to argue, | 41:40 | |
| of a free society and a mobile society, | 41:43 | |
| a pluralistic society, | 41:46 | |
| to generate among us the experience of nothingness, | 41:49 | |
| to make it common, | 41:53 | |
| to make it the inheritance, the normal inheritance, | 41:56 | |
| the daily bread of the 13-year-old | 41:59 | |
| or of any of us, at any decade of our lives. | 42:05 | |
| It is the sign of a healthy society | 42:10 | |
| that this experience should be multiplied, | 42:15 | |
| even though it be reported as alienation | 42:18 | |
| or malaise | 42:22 | |
| or confusion | 42:24 | |
| or whatever. | 42:28 | |
| If you ask yourself | 42:35 | |
| what led Nietzsche, | 42:39 | |
| Turgenev, who was the first to mention the experience, | 42:43 | |
| Dostoevsky, Freud, | 42:47 | |
| Sartre, Camus, and others | 42:50 | |
| to write about the experience of nothingness, | 42:56 | |
| you are led to reflections like these. | 43:02 | |
| It's odd that they should write about it. | 43:06 | |
| Writing being such a demanding action. | 43:11 | |
| Sitting on one's bottom, moving one's hand | 43:15 | |
| across a piece of paper, endlessly. | 43:17 | |
| If life is short | 43:22 | |
| and without meaning, | 43:27 | |
| it's hard to imagine a more pointless act | 43:31 | |
| than writing. | 43:34 | |
| Yet what impelled them to write? | 43:36 | |
| Something they didn't write about | 43:41 | |
| was their own motive, | 43:45 | |
| their own impulsion. | 43:47 | |
| If one reflects on it, | 43:51 | |
| one begins to discover | 43:54 | |
| at the heart of the experience of nothingness | 43:56 | |
| several preconditions, several impulsions, | 43:59 | |
| without which it will not occur. | 44:04 | |
| The fingers tap at the windowpane, | 44:10 | |
| as T.S. Eliot says. | 44:13 | |
| But one doesn't have to reply. | 44:17 | |
| There are many in America and elsewhere, | 44:21 | |
| who, when the experience of nothingness | 44:25 | |
| begins to make itself felt in their lives, | 44:27 | |
| get up and look for something to do. | 44:30 | |
| Something useful and important, | 44:34 | |
| like starting a committee. | 44:36 | |
| Or they pick up the car keys, | 44:42 | |
| look for somewhere to go or turn on the radio | 44:46 | |
| or the television, | 44:48 | |
| look for somebody to hug. | 44:52 | |
| Nothing is more common | 44:55 | |
| than evading the experience of nothingness | 44:58 | |
| so it doesn't arise in consciousness. | 45:01 | |
| There are some who have said that the whole secret of life | 45:06 | |
| is to forget, | 45:10 | |
| to keep busy | 45:13 | |
| or to keep moving. | 45:16 | |
| If the experience of nothingness is | 45:20 | |
| to arise in consciousness, | 45:21 | |
| several conditions must be met. | 45:25 | |
| I've been describing one of them, in fact: | 45:30 | |
| liberty. | 45:33 | |
| We are free to direct our consciousness, | 45:36 | |
| it is our radical and fundamental freedom. | 45:38 | |
| The freedom | 45:41 | |
| to direct the light of our own conscious attention. | 45:44 | |
| This morning, some cough, | 45:51 | |
| you must all feel the chairs on your bottoms, | 45:53 | |
| you know whether or not you've had breakfast, | 45:57 | |
| whether you expect to. | 46:00 | |
| There's a day of activities | 46:01 | |
| yet to be done | 46:02 | |
| and activities to be remembered. | 46:06 | |
| Reality is so multiple and so manifold, | 46:08 | |
| that though we are in one another's presence, | 46:12 | |
| we may not be in one another's presence in reality. | 46:14 | |
| It depends on where we focus our attention. | 46:20 | |
| And so one of the preconditions | 46:27 | |
| of the experience of nothingness | 46:29 | |
| is this liberty over our own consciousness. | 46:31 | |
| The liberty to attend to it, | 46:34 | |
| the liberty to notice it. | 46:38 | |
| It doesn't seem, as Albert Camus said, | 46:40 | |
| that trees | 46:43 | |
| or cats | 46:45 | |
| or birds | 46:46 | |
| experience the absurd. | 46:50 | |
| It is free creatures | 46:55 | |
| who do. | 46:58 | |
| Second, there is required | 47:00 | |
| a certain honesty. | 47:04 | |
| Now, honesty is a very complicated quality of human life | 47:07 | |
| and it changes in every decade of our lives, | 47:11 | |
| it's one of those qualities of human behavior, | 47:14 | |
| characteristics of human behavior, | 47:18 | |
| that doesn't stay the same, | 47:19 | |
| that can't be defined in a way | 47:21 | |
| that applies through all the ages of one's life. | 47:22 | |
| It grows with us, | 47:26 | |
| and our understanding of the demands of honesty grows | 47:27 | |
| with each decade of our lives. | 47:32 | |
| It's one of the reasons why, looking back on our lives, | 47:35 | |
| we are so often embarrassed | 47:37 | |
| and ashamed of the person we were | 47:39 | |
| even a short while ago. | 47:42 | |
| And so I can't attempt to define honesty exactly. | 47:48 | |
| I only want to point to the fact | 47:54 | |
| that there are so many things about us, | 47:55 | |
| of whose existence we are aware, | 47:58 | |
| but we don't really want to | 48:00 | |
| draw our attention to. | 48:03 | |
| It's not so much that we deny them | 48:12 | |
| as that we don't attend to them. | 48:15 | |
| And by honesty I mean | 48:19 | |
| that drive of attention, | 48:22 | |
| that light, as it were, | 48:26 | |
| which we allow to rest | 48:29 | |
| on a certain part of our nature, | 48:34 | |
| on a certain part of our existence. | 48:37 | |
| And in this particular case | 48:40 | |
| upon that formlessness that lies | 48:43 | |
| at the heart of our liberty. | 48:46 | |
| That dizziness, | 48:51 | |
| that confusion | 48:54 | |
| that accompanies the sense that we can do with our lives | 48:58 | |
| what we will. | 49:02 | |
| And that what we have been doing with our lives, | 49:06 | |
| we need not continue to do with them. | 49:09 | |
| Again, without the directing of our attention, | 49:16 | |
| without allowing this experience, | 49:18 | |
| so enervating and incapacitating as it often seems, | 49:21 | |
| to arise, it won't arise. | 49:27 | |
| We will simply evade it. | 49:29 | |
| It is true that life sometimes so overcomes us | 49:31 | |
| that suddenly we can't escape it. | 49:34 | |
| But for most of us, most of the time, | 49:36 | |
| it's off the back of consciousness. | 49:38 | |
| We block it with what Norman Mailer calls | 49:41 | |
| the everlasting, endless nihilism | 49:43 | |
| of the muzak at O'Hare Terminal. | 49:47 | |
| We play music all the time. | 49:51 | |
| We don't allow ourselves to be alone. | 49:54 | |
| We don't allow ourselves to live with our own consciousness. | 49:58 | |
| And it won't, the experience of nothingness won't become | 50:05 | |
| apparent to us without, thirdly, courage: | 50:08 | |
| the kind of courage required to make honesty appear | 50:12 | |
| or effective. | 50:17 | |
| Honesty and courage are | 50:19 | |
| the other side of each other. | 50:22 | |
| For there are lots of things we can see, | 50:26 | |
| but we don't really want to see. | 50:27 | |
| Your wife | 50:33 | |
| tells you you're conceited: | 50:36 | |
| she never did understand you. | 50:40 | |
| You're not prepared to admit you're wrong, | 50:44 | |
| in the circumstance in question. | 50:49 | |
| But later, a month later, two months later, whatever, | 50:51 | |
| you see exactly what she meant. | 50:55 | |
| And you could have seen it earlier. | 50:58 | |
| But you wouldn't let yourself. | 51:01 | |
| You can only take so much self-criticism at a time. | 51:03 | |
| And when too much comes, we shut the door | 51:10 | |
| and refuse to see. | 51:13 | |
| It takes a certain amount of courage to see | 51:16 | |
| what we already know is there. | 51:18 | |
| And consequently courage is required | 51:24 | |
| to see the formlessness at the heart of our lives | 51:29 | |
| and to begin to take responsibility for it. | 51:32 | |
| And, finally, community. | 51:38 | |
| We wouldn't come to concentrate our attention on liberty | 51:41 | |
| and on honesty | 51:45 | |
| and on courage | 51:47 | |
| unless we belonged to a culture | 51:49 | |
| in which such values were celebrated, | 51:51 | |
| in which books and indeed religions | 51:54 | |
| had not called our attention to these qualities. | 51:59 | |
| Human beings have lived in every imaginable sort of way | 52:03 | |
| and distributed their energy | 52:08 | |
| in an endless series of patterns. | 52:09 | |
| It isn't in every culture | 52:14 | |
| that the experiences of the individual | 52:18 | |
| at the root of the individual consciousness | 52:22 | |
| are valued as the place in which the highest concentration | 52:25 | |
| of energy should be made. | 52:28 | |
| It is true in our culture. | 52:30 | |
| Perhaps it's true to a fault. | 52:33 | |
| The point is that the experience of nothingness, | 52:37 | |
| although it tends to overwhelm us, one by one, | 52:40 | |
| and to seem to make us alone, | 52:45 | |
| unable to decide how to act or what to become or what to do | 52:49 | |
| because everything begins to seem equal | 52:55 | |
| in importance or in unimportance. | 52:58 | |
| The experience of nothingness won't arise | 53:04 | |
| without these acts of honesty, | 53:08 | |
| courage, | 53:12 | |
| liberty, | 53:13 | |
| and the sort of community | 53:16 | |
| that teaches us to perform these acts frequently, | 53:20 | |
| encourages us to. | 53:24 | |
| The experience of nothingness often seems to isolate us, | 53:29 | |
| but in fact it joins us to the community. | 53:35 | |
| It joins us to the community of those in our culture | 53:39 | |
| who have come to the heart of our culture | 53:44 | |
| and indeed the heart of every culture, | 53:47 | |
| for beneath the forms of every culture | 53:50 | |
| there is the formlessness possible | 53:54 | |
| to the human being. | 53:58 | |
| It's not an accident, I think, | 54:04 | |
| that the God of Judaism and Islam | 54:09 | |
| and Christianity | 54:13 | |
| should have chosen so often for himself | 54:18 | |
| the images of light | 54:23 | |
| and imposed demands that are demands of liberty, | 54:29 | |
| and called upon courage. | 54:34 | |
| That is, | 54:39 | |
| there is a radical darkness, | 54:43 | |
| a trial, | 54:50 | |
| undercutting, | 54:53 | |
| emptying | 54:55 | |
| in the transformations we must undergo | 55:00 | |
| in order to come closer | 55:07 | |
| to an understanding of God | 55:11 | |
| as he reveals himself to us | 55:14 | |
| in buildings like the present one. | 55:17 | |
| Christianity is not an attempt | 55:22 | |
| to cover over the experience of nothingness, | 55:25 | |
| to take away the nihilism, to cause us to forget it. | 55:29 | |
| Christianity is an attempt to encourage us | 55:35 | |
| to increase the frequency | 55:41 | |
| of those acts of honesty | 55:44 | |
| and of courage, | 55:47 | |
| of the exercise of our liberty, | 55:49 | |
| and of the joining of that community | 55:52 | |
| which has shared this experience, | 55:55 | |
| which constitute over and over again | 55:59 | |
| the perception of how insecure are the structures we build, | 56:04 | |
| how rapidly dissolved may be the cultures | 56:09 | |
| and institutions in which we live, | 56:15 | |
| how terrible and collapsing the times may be, | 56:18 | |
| how without form, how without bedrock | 56:23 | |
| individual human existence | 56:27 | |
| or the existence of an entire society can be. | 56:30 | |
| I thought it important to speak on this theme today | 56:34 | |
| because I have been thinking | 56:41 | |
| that the end of the 1970s | 56:43 | |
| were so like the end of the 1930s, | 56:46 | |
| and that the 1980s have about them already | 56:51 | |
| the smell of the 1940s. | 56:55 | |
| It seems to me so clear | 56:59 | |
| that we may be entering into a very dark period, | 57:01 | |
| one of the darkest of our entire civilization. | 57:06 | |
| And it seems to me therefore worthwhile recalling | 57:12 | |
| that the God who did not spare his son | 57:17 | |
| the experience of nothingness | 57:20 | |
| is not liable or likely to spare his people that experience. | 57:24 | |
| (church organ plays) | 57:42 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 58:14 | |
| ♪ Grant us in this burning hour ♪ | 58:19 | |
| ♪ Grace to ask these gifts of Thee ♪ | 58:24 | |
| ♪ Daring hearts and spirits free ♪ | 58:29 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 58:34 | |
| ♪ Thou hast called us for this hour ♪ | 58:39 | |
| ♪ We are not the first to be ♪ | 58:47 | |
| ♪ Banished by our fears from Thee ♪ | 58:52 | |
| ♪ Give us courage, let us hear ♪ | 58:57 | |
| ♪ Heaven's trumpets ringing clear ♪ | 59:03 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 59:08 | |
| ♪ Thou hast called us for this hour ♪ | 59:14 | |
| ♪ All our lives belong to Thee ♪ | 59:21 | |
| ♪ Thou our final loyalty ♪ | 59:26 | |
| ♪ Slaves are we whene'er we share ♪ | 59:32 | |
| ♪ That devotion anywhere ♪ | 59:37 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 59:42 | |
| ♪ Thou hast called us for this hour ♪ | 59:48 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 59:56 | |
| ♪ Make us worThy of this hour ♪ | 1:00:01 | |
| ♪ Offering lives if it's Thy will ♪ | 1:00:06 | |
| ♪ Keeping free our spirits still ♪ | 1:00:11 | |
| ♪ God of love and God of power ♪ | 1:00:17 | |
| ♪ Thou hast called us for this hour ♪ | 1:00:22 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:00:30 | |
| - | Let us affirm what we believe. | 1:00:38 |
| We believe in God, | 1:00:42 | |
| who has created and is creating, | 1:00:43 | |
| who has come in the truly human Jesus | 1:00:47 | |
| to reconcile and make new, | 1:00:50 | |
| who works in us and others by the spirit. | 1:00:53 | |
| We trust God, who calls us to be the church, | 1:00:57 | |
| to celebrate life and its fullness, | 1:01:02 | |
| to love and serve others, | 1:01:05 | |
| to seek justice and resist evil, | 1:01:08 | |
| to proclaim Jesus, crucified and risen, | 1:01:11 | |
| our judge and our hope | 1:01:15 | |
| in life, in death, in life beyond death, | 1:01:18 | |
| God is with us, | 1:01:23 | |
| we are not alone. | 1:01:25 | |
| Thanks be to God. | 1:01:27 | |
| The Lord be with you. | 1:01:30 | |
| - | And with your spirit. | 1:01:32 |
| - | Let us pray. | 1:01:34 |
| (congregation stirs) | 1:01:36 | |
| Mighty God, | 1:01:44 | |
| we are thankful that the world as you have created it | 1:01:46 | |
| is not a puppet stage, | 1:01:50 | |
| and that we, unlike marionettes, | 1:01:54 | |
| have both the ability and the responsibility | 1:01:56 | |
| to make choices, to reach decisions | 1:01:59 | |
| as individuals and in groups. | 1:02:03 | |
| We thank you, God, that people throughout the world | 1:02:07 | |
| have great latitude in shaping customs, languages, | 1:02:10 | |
| and societies, | 1:02:13 | |
| so that our earth knows the sound of joyful surprise | 1:02:15 | |
| as we discover one another | 1:02:19 | |
| and our differences. | 1:02:20 | |
| And, God, we are grateful that we can say yes | 1:02:24 | |
| and that we can say no, | 1:02:27 | |
| even though we are sometimes confused | 1:02:29 | |
| about our yeses and nos and vacillate between the two, | 1:02:32 | |
| wanting to say neither or to say both at the same time. | 1:02:36 | |
| We are thankful for those times | 1:02:42 | |
| because it makes us think about the decisions we must make. | 1:02:44 | |
| Mostly, O God, we are thankful for your love, | 1:02:50 | |
| which is always there, | 1:02:53 | |
| just as strong when we make wise decisions | 1:02:55 | |
| or when we make foolish ones, | 1:02:58 | |
| a love just as strong when we frown or when we laugh. | 1:03:01 | |
| For your love we are indeed thankful, | 1:03:07 | |
| even though we stand before you today as a people | 1:03:10 | |
| who find it difficult to accept your love, | 1:03:13 | |
| and to realize its importance for us and for others. | 1:03:16 | |
| We get confronted by all kinds of ideologies | 1:03:21 | |
| and even by accusations of who we are and are not, | 1:03:24 | |
| and we are mindful of our need for healing, | 1:03:29 | |
| and we know we do not stand alone in our need. | 1:03:33 | |
| We look at your world and we see its hurts | 1:03:39 | |
| and its divisions, | 1:03:42 | |
| and we remember those persons who have power to govern, | 1:03:44 | |
| and we ask for wisdom to be theirs. | 1:03:48 | |
| We pray for those who do not have power | 1:03:51 | |
| to order their lives, | 1:03:54 | |
| and we pray for those who must learn | 1:03:56 | |
| to use their power justly. | 1:03:58 | |
| We pray especially today for those | 1:04:02 | |
| who seek to be peacemakers. | 1:04:04 | |
| May they have understanding and courage to be merciful. | 1:04:06 | |
| We especially remember the assistance Canada rendered | 1:04:11 | |
| to free persons in Iran this past week, | 1:04:14 | |
| and we pray for all those this day | 1:04:18 | |
| who are subjected to the pain and death of war. | 1:04:20 | |
| We ask for your wisdom and healing presence | 1:04:25 | |
| in Afghanistan and in Iran. | 1:04:28 | |
| We ask for your presence with all those | 1:04:31 | |
| who are political prisoners, | 1:04:33 | |
| not only in Iran, but in Chile, in Argentina, | 1:04:35 | |
| in all those other prisons in the world. | 1:04:40 | |
| We remember those today who live and die hungry | 1:04:45 | |
| and we pray for right judgment in the use | 1:04:48 | |
| of our material wealth. | 1:04:50 | |
| We look at our church today | 1:04:53 | |
| and we recognize that it, too, stands in need | 1:04:56 | |
| of your healing touch. | 1:04:59 | |
| We see its divisions and we hear its arguments. | 1:05:01 | |
| We recognize that it is guilty, even as we are guilty, | 1:05:05 | |
| of trying to withhold your love from those we do not feel | 1:05:10 | |
| to be deserving of it, | 1:05:13 | |
| and we ask for healing for the church. | 1:05:16 | |
| For the lonely, the dying, the sick, the mistreated, | 1:05:19 | |
| all whose need is greater than ours, | 1:05:25 | |
| may they know that your love moves among them | 1:05:29 | |
| and that our love moves there as well. | 1:05:31 | |
| Lord, we have this life, | 1:05:36 | |
| and we want to live it to the full. | 1:05:38 | |
| Don't let us miss that which is good | 1:05:41 | |
| or scorn those who seem to find what we have missed. | 1:05:44 | |
| Lord, give us freedom, | 1:05:48 | |
| freedom to rejoice in your gifts of life and love. | 1:05:51 | |
| Give us faith. | 1:05:56 | |
| Faith to be happy and serving and to praise you | 1:05:57 | |
| with all our strength. | 1:06:00 | |
| For we pray in the name of Jesus, our Lord, | 1:06:04 | |
| who teaches us to pray together, saying: | 1:06:07 | |
| Our father, who art in heaven, | 1:06:10 | |
| hallowed be Thy name. | 1:06:13 | |
| Thy kingdom come, | 1:06:15 | |
| Thy will be done | 1:06:17 | |
| on Earth as it is in Heaven. | 1:06:19 | |
| Give us this day our daily bread | 1:06:22 | |
| and forgive us our trespasses | 1:06:25 | |
| as we forgive those who trespass against us, | 1:06:27 | |
| and lead us not into temptation, | 1:06:31 | |
| but deliver us from evil. | 1:06:34 | |
| For thine is the kingdom | 1:06:36 | |
| and the power | 1:06:38 | |
| and the glory, forever. | 1:06:40 | |
| Amen. | 1:06:42 | |
| (church organ plays) | 1:06:48 | |
| (choir sings "Gloria in excelsis Deo") | 1:08:25 | |
| - | Mighty God, send down Thy holy spirit upon us | 1:12:50 |
| to cleanse our hearts, | 1:12:54 | |
| to hallow our gifts, | 1:12:56 | |
| and to perfect the offering of ourselves unto you. | 1:12:58 | |
| In the name of the one who gave all, amen. | 1:13:03 | |
| (church organ plays) | 1:13:23 | |
| And now may the God of peace bless us | 1:17:21 | |
| and make us perfect in every good work to do God's will, | 1:17:24 | |
| working in us that which is well pleasing in God's sight. | 1:17:28 | |
| Through Jesus Christ, our Lord. | 1:17:32 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:17:37 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:17:43 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:17:49 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:17:55 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:18:03 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:18:13 | |
| ♪ Amen ♪ | 1:18:25 | |
| (church organ plays) | 1:18:47 | |
| (muffled voices) | 1:22:56 |
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