William H. Willimon - "Dying, We Live" (May 28, 1989)
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| It | 0:02 | |
| was a familiar | 0:03 | |
| story. A nice person like me, with | 0:06 | |
| much work to do, trapped | 0:09 | |
| on a four hour flight from Denver to | 0:12 | |
| Durham, seated next to | 0:16 | |
| someone who was determined to set me | 0:18 | |
| straight before we | 0:21 | |
| landed. Where does American Airlines get these people, | 0:22 | |
| I wondered. | 0:27 | |
| Hardly had our wheels left the ground in Denver and | 0:28 | |
| she informed me, proudly, that she was returning | 0:33 | |
| from a wellness | 0:37 | |
| convention. "You dig, you | 0:40 | |
| dig wells?" I asked cutely. | 0:43 | |
| Like many of my attempts at humor, that was a | 0:46 | |
| big mistake. | 0:50 | |
| I was informed that she was totally in touch with her | 0:52 | |
| body, that she had, this year alone, added at least four years to her | 0:55 | |
| life since getting off red meat and on to lentil casseroles. | 0:59 | |
| When the steward brought us our in-flight meal, she rejected both the chicken almandine and | 1:04 | |
| the beef burgundy. "What | 1:10 | |
| they do to chickens is positively obscene," she | 1:11 | |
| said to me. And then she asked for bottled water and when none | 1:16 | |
| could be found she started glaring at me as | 1:21 | |
| I ate my meal as if I were someone sniffing cocaine. "You | 1:25 | |
| really ought to do something about your weight," she advised. | 1:31 | |
| "I can tell by the gray in your hair you're weak in B- compounds." | 1:37 | |
| Why is God, or at | 1:41 | |
| least American Airlines, punishing me, I groaned. | 1:45 | |
| But more than that, I couldn't help wondering, whatever | 1:50 | |
| happened to | 1:56 | |
| the old fashioned way of achieving | 1:57 | |
| immortality. The Greeks, when they wanted to live on and | 2:01 | |
| on, had children. The Egyptians had embalmers. | 2:06 | |
| But we | 2:10 | |
| have our oat bran and yogurt | 2:13 | |
| and wheat germ and | 2:17 | |
| aerobics. This person with her evangelistic wellness had just | 2:19 | |
| taken six years off of my life. | 2:23 | |
| Now, without question, we can all agree | 2:29 | |
| that there is much to be said for good health. | 2:32 | |
| But I tell you, it has gone quite beyond | 2:36 | |
| that. We're not talking about | 2:39 | |
| simply looking fit, or feeling a bit better. | 2:42 | |
| We're talking immortality here, | 2:46 | |
| people. The impression is given that if we | 2:49 | |
| just avoid tap | 2:53 | |
| water, nuclear power stations, chemically dependent physicians, and | 2:54 | |
| with a little help from an artificial organ or two, dying | 2:59 | |
| is absolutely pointless. | 3:05 | |
| What's needed is to reduce living to zero risk. | 3:07 | |
| Marvin Hage has called my attention to an April 1977 issue of "Science." | 3:14 | |
| It seems that there is a whole | 3:20 | |
| new field of science called risk-assessment analysis. | 3:23 | |
| An article by Richard Watson and EAC Crouch offers a | 3:28 | |
| comparative listing of the various risk that one is apt to | 3:34 | |
| be exposed to in life. | 3:39 | |
| For instance, people in police | 3:41 | |
| work have a 2 x 10 to the 4th power annual | 3:43 | |
| risk of death or (AR). Before | 3:47 | |
| you drop off the police force, though, it turns out | 3:52 | |
| that driving a motor vehicle anywhere has exactly the same | 3:55 | |
| AR. I was pleased to see that being a frequent flyer is safer five | 4:00 | |
| to the tenth of a fifth power AR than riding in an | 4:06 | |
| automobile, even when you factor in the risk of getting a seat next to | 4:11 | |
| a person who's into | 4:15 | |
| wellness. Surprise to me, switching from | 4:17 | |
| ordinary tap water, six times ten to the seventh power AR, | 4:22 | |
| switching from ordinary city water to | 4:29 | |
| the contaminated well water of Silicon Valley that has the E.P.A. | 4:31 | |
| so upset actually lowers my risk factor by a | 4:36 | |
| factor of three hundred. | 4:41 | |
| It turns out that the potassium in my body gives me fifteen hundred times | 4:43 | |
| the | 4:48 | |
| radiation of the atmosphere within twenty miles of a nuclear power | 4:49 | |
| plant. But don't stay home because it turns out that household | 4:53 | |
| hazards are about fifty percent as likely to kill you as | 4:59 | |
| the AR of driving your car on the Durham freeway. | 5:03 | |
| Food, any kind of | 5:09 | |
| food, especially aflatoxin-laced peanut butter, turns out to | 5:11 | |
| be hazardous. Why? Well, apparently, theorizes | 5:16 | |
| Dr Bruce Ames, plants are deadly because they learn through evolution that | 5:21 | |
| chemical warfare is a great way to fight off | 5:27 | |
| fungi and insects and animal predators, unfortunately, this includes human | 5:30 | |
| predators. In other words, the salad bar can kill you. | 5:36 | |
| Now how did we get here? How did we get here with our risk assessment analysis and | 5:41 | |
| our | 5:47 | |
| wellness? Well, I think it can be argued that victory | 5:48 | |
| over mortality | 5:53 | |
| is | 5:56 | |
| the goal of modern science, begenning as early | 5:57 | |
| as Bacon and Decartes. Bacon called for, | 6:02 | |
| quote, "The conquest of nature and the relief of man's estate." | 6:06 | |
| When one reads Bacon on science, it becomes evident that the relief he | 6:13 | |
| sought was chiefly relief from | 6:19 | |
| death. Bacon, in fact, may have been immortality research's | 6:23 | |
| first victim. He apparently died while conducting freezing experiments on | 6:27 | |
| a chicken. | 6:32 | |
| Descartes called for modern philosophy to reject | 6:35 | |
| the abstract scpeculation that had characterized earlier philosophy | 6:39 | |
| in favor of a new practical | 6:43 | |
| philosophy, by which we would, in the words of Descartes "render | 6:47 | |
| ourselves as masters and possessors of nature because | 6:51 | |
| this project brings about the preservation of | 6:56 | |
| health, which is without doubt the chief blessing and the | 7:00 | |
| foundation of all other blessings in | 7:04 | |
| life." In other words, Descartes said, when you've got your | 7:07 | |
| health, you've got everything that's worth having in | 7:11 | |
| life. Behind this great project of science begun | 7:15 | |
| in Bacon and Descartes was the | 7:19 | |
| belief that we actually held in our little human | 7:21 | |
| hands the conquering of mortality. | 7:28 | |
| That life can be lived without | 7:32 | |
| risk, without limits through | 7:35 | |
| solely human | 7:40 | |
| effort. Death is pointless, a hindrance, to | 7:42 | |
| the reaching of our full human potential. | 7:47 | |
| Now, | 7:53 | |
| this is quite different for us, particularly us Christians. In the Middle | 7:53 | |
| Ages, there was a vast literature called the "ars moriendi," the "art | 7:58 | |
| of dying" literature. In | 8:03 | |
| fact, it was alleged that this was a major purpose of the Christian faith, to | 8:05 | |
| teach you how to die well. | 8:10 | |
| John Wesley boasted of his Methodists, "Our | 8:14 | |
| people know how to die well." | 8:17 | |
| But now, you see, we'd like not to die | 8:22 | |
| at all. | 8:25 | |
| Duke historian David Steinmetz notes that in the | 8:28 | |
| Middle Ages, cancer was the death of choice. | 8:32 | |
| Cancer, unlike a sword through the skull or a heart attack, gave | 8:37 | |
| one the opportunity to die well, to get your | 8:42 | |
| affairs in order to pay off old debts, to bless the | 8:47 | |
| grandchildren. But now, it's interesting that most of us pray | 8:52 | |
| for a quick, instant death. In other words so | 8:56 | |
| we can die without knowing that we're doing it, because, it turns out, | 9:00 | |
| that we modern people have absolutely nothing to do with our | 9:05 | |
| dying. Of course, statistical chances are that most of us will | 9:11 | |
| not die quickly. | 9:15 | |
| And so we at least hope for a drugged death so | 9:17 | |
| we won't have to come to terms with a hard cold fact | 9:21 | |
| that this is, despite oat bran and | 9:26 | |
| jogging, it. The most enduring task of any religion, I think, is | 9:30 | |
| to teach us to die well. | 9:35 | |
| St. Paul might say that it's the whole point of the Christian religion. | 9:39 | |
| Because if I knew how to die, I | 9:46 | |
| might know how to live. | 9:49 | |
| A Princeton student, being | 9:54 | |
| interviewed by a | 9:56 | |
| reporter after the | 9:59 | |
| Soviet invasion of Afghanistan, was asked about | 10:01 | |
| the prospect of sending American troops there. "There | 10:05 | |
| is nothing worth dying for," he said, which | 10:09 | |
| means, of course, the facts being what they are, that one day, he shall have the unpleasant | 10:15 | |
| task of dying | 10:20 | |
| for nothing. For the cruel truth is that | 10:23 | |
| despite our wellness and risk assessment analysis and the good works of Ralph Nader, nobody | 10:27 | |
| has come up with a surefire way to make me live | 10:33 | |
| forever. I will, you will | 10:37 | |
| die. So we might as well get on with the only really pressing business there | 10:42 | |
| is in such terminal circumstances: figuring | 10:47 | |
| out how one might | 10:53 | |
| die well. If religion can help with that, it's | 10:55 | |
| ultimately interesting; if it can't, it's as bland and boring | 11:00 | |
| as a bowl of wet | 11:05 | |
| cold oat bran. | 11:07 | |
| Now, for those who expect to be saved by Jesus rather | 11:10 | |
| than by eating | 11:14 | |
| well, risk avoidance cannot be the name of the game. | 11:16 | |
| I mean what would you calculate to be the AR, the | 11:21 | |
| annual risk, of a Saint | 11:26 | |
| Paul or a Teresa of Calcutta or | 11:28 | |
| a Martin Luther King. No, | 11:32 | |
| the story by which they | 11:35 | |
| lived, and which we are called to live by and die | 11:38 | |
| by, is one of risk confronted, | 11:42 | |
| death embraced. Jesus calls us to walk | 11:45 | |
| a narrow way, | 11:49 | |
| to take up a cross daily, and that's | 11:50 | |
| terribly risky business. | 11:55 | |
| Ask that bright company of martyr, martyrs, who stare down at us from the | 11:57 | |
| Duke chapel windows, those who quite recklessly parted with goods, and | 12:02 | |
| security, and then life itself, preferring | 12:08 | |
| to be faithful in | 12:12 | |
| death, rather than | 12:14 | |
| safe in life. But, of course, it's | 12:16 | |
| also terribly | 12:21 | |
| adventuresome and terribly | 12:23 | |
| invigorating. We are, in a world with nothing | 12:25 | |
| better to do than cling to | 12:29 | |
| life, we are, as his disciples, given | 12:33 | |
| something interesting to do with our dying, and | 12:37 | |
| therefore with our living. | 12:41 | |
| Today's epistle comes toward the end of Paul's first letter to the Corinthians. | 12:46 | |
| Paul speaks, here at the end of his letter and perhaps at the end of his own | 12:53 | |
| life, of death and hope | 12:58 | |
| for | 13:02 | |
| life after death. Some in Corinth, it turns out, were | 13:02 | |
| saying that there is no resurrection of the | 13:07 | |
| dead, Death, in other words, has no meaning because | 13:11 | |
| it is a complete dead end. As they say, when you're | 13:15 | |
| dead, you're dead. That's it, C'est finis. | 13:19 | |
| Paul says that if that's so, if | 13:24 | |
| Christ is not raised | 13:27 | |
| and we are not raised, then nothing | 13:31 | |
| makes a lot of difference anyway. | 13:36 | |
| Sure, 1989 Durham is okay and my being 43 | 13:40 | |
| this year isn't the total end of the world, but | 13:45 | |
| Paul would argue | 13:49 | |
| that if this is | 13:51 | |
| it, then this | 13:54 | |
| is the end of the | 13:59 | |
| road. Or as Paul put it, "if | 14:01 | |
| for this life only we have hoped in Christ, then | 14:05 | |
| we of all people are most to be | 14:10 | |
| pitied." It's | 14:14 | |
| all in vain. | 14:17 | |
| Now note that Paul does not argue | 14:20 | |
| for some immortality of the | 14:23 | |
| soul, the return of the robin in the spring, the springing | 14:27 | |
| up of the crocus in April, or some notion that there is | 14:31 | |
| some immortal spark in us that just goes on and on despite our | 14:36 | |
| death. | 14:40 | |
| Rather, he argues for Christ's defeat of death. | 14:43 | |
| The Christian faith sserts that, in | 14:49 | |
| Christ, God has | 14:53 | |
| triumphed. But if death is not defeated, we | 14:56 | |
| are to be pitied, because our Christian claims of the triumph | 15:00 | |
| of God over all affairs of | 15:05 | |
| life are but hollow | 15:08 | |
| assertion. If this Savior cannot do something about our dying, | 15:11 | |
| Paul would say, he really isn't much of a | 15:17 | |
| Savior. Our claim | 15:20 | |
| Is that Christ has beaten the great enemy. | 15:24 | |
| In Christ, therefore, our lives begin to make a | 15:30 | |
| difference. Because we are free to live as those who share in | 15:34 | |
| his victory over death, which means today that we need | 15:39 | |
| not anxiously cling to our lives as if the only | 15:44 | |
| important aspect in | 15:49 | |
| life were this | 15:52 | |
| life. Our lives have significance | 15:54 | |
| not in their duration or | 15:58 | |
| longevity, but in their fidelity | 16:02 | |
| to the one who has taken the sting out | 16:06 | |
| of death. | 16:11 | |
| For instance, Christian nonviolence is based not on the assumption | 16:14 | |
| that if we are nice to people, | 16:19 | |
| people, | 16:23 | |
| even our enemies, will turn and be nice to us. | 16:24 | |
| But rather it is based on the conviction that no | 16:29 | |
| one, not even our | 16:33 | |
| enemies, can determine the end of our | 16:35 | |
| lives. 45 years | 16:41 | |
| ago, last month, Dietrich Bonhoeffer was | 16:43 | |
| hung by the Nazis. | 16:47 | |
| Bonhoeffer had lived a charmed and aristocratic existence up to that | 16:51 | |
| point. How had life brought him here to Flossenburg | 16:55 | |
| prison, condemned as a traitor, hung? | 17:01 | |
| Of course, when Hitler came to power in Germany, | 17:07 | |
| Bonhoeffer could have done as many of his country | 17:10 | |
| men and tried to work out some compromise, tried to prolong | 17:14 | |
| his life, tried to give significance to his life as | 17:19 | |
| a | 17:23 | |
| collaborator. He chose another | 17:24 | |
| way out of his Christian | 17:27 | |
| conviction. This enabled Pastor Bonhoeffer to walk to his | 17:29 | |
| death with head held high, commenting | 17:34 | |
| to another prisoner as he was taken from his cell, | 17:37 | |
| "This is the end. | 17:42 | |
| But for me, it is yet the beginning with God." | 17:45 | |
| My point is that we are at our worst when | 17:53 | |
| we vainly | 17:56 | |
| act as if it were up to us alone to make | 17:58 | |
| sense out of our lives, to give our brief | 18:02 | |
| days significance by our | 18:07 | |
| efforts, because fearful, frightened, anxiety-ridden | 18:10 | |
| creatures are victims of death rather than | 18:14 | |
| its victors. With our pills, and our | 18:19 | |
| yogurt, and our fears of mortality, we haven't conquered | 18:22 | |
| death, death has conquered us. | 18:29 | |
| But as Paul says, | 18:34 | |
| "thanks be to God who | 18:36 | |
| gives us victory | 18:38 | |
| through our Lord Jesus Christ." | 18:40 | |
| As Christians, | 18:45 | |
| we don't have to be hung up on death, | 18:47 | |
| anxiously managing or guarding our lives, as | 18:52 | |
| if death were the worst that life could do to us. | 18:56 | |
| The worst that life could do to us is | 19:01 | |
| to render us unfaithful to Christ, | 19:04 | |
| to put our lust for control, | 19:08 | |
| our lives about our true human condition, our | 19:11 | |
| anxious desire for | 19:17 | |
| self-preservation, before our desire to | 19:20 | |
| be faithful | 19:23 | |
| discipless, | 19:26 | |
| to base our lives, either upon our achievement or | 19:27 | |
| our | 19:32 | |
| delusions, rather than upon his victory. | 19:33 | |
| And so Paul says to | 19:39 | |
| the congregation at Corinth, "Therefore | 19:41 | |
| beloved brothers and sisters, be | 19:44 | |
| steadfast, be immovable, | 19:50 | |
| always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing | 19:53 | |
| what the world does not | 19:58 | |
| know, knowing that in the Lord, | 20:00 | |
| your labor, your life, is | 20:04 | |
| not in vain. Amen." | 20:10 |
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